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listening on the phone to the messages and real time conversation the feeling comes----we all have a story our history which brings us to where this present moment is which also becomes history. So the feeling gets deeper; why on earth is this so important, history is a memory like a remembered dream and I the listener feels smug, because in that moment I am only listening and not living the emotions of the caller, although I might be sympathetic and empathetic.

I feel I am free I do not feel this and I give advice and many times the caller feels grateful, this boosts my smugness until I become the caller. 

What is being smug, for me it is feeling I am safe in my theory, beliefs in my past achievements.  However on close inspection it is realized these are memories and if brought forth into the present and lived as reality become my future is but a replay of a modified past. The yawning chasm hits home, there is no future it is merely a rerun, a forward button on the video recorder in the mind. There is no originality in this, only when the mind is fooled it is. So the future is a cosmetic replay of the past. Basically stuck and halted. 

New thrills and innovations are sort, some distractions from the burning issue which might arise as; if there is no originality only make overs and distractions they are endless dogs chasing tails then what is there beside this?

Taking nature and evolution when the dinosaurs, saber toothed tigers, mammoths, old stone man and all were in fashion, for the really original to take place a sort of wipe out, an extinction, a wiping of the slate and board took place.

Oh boy! so for me, and us all does it mean we / me have to wipe the slate clean?  Does this mean suicide, blow up the world? 

It might mean to be aware of the past by observing the mind in quiet non judgemental fashion, an interested observer of what arises and has the frame of mind; who is this thinker and where did those thoughts, feelings and emotions arise from and where are they stored?

When the questions subside and the mind becomes empty naturally, the reflex to think and promulgate thought, because the mind is not used to not thinking, the incessant chatter of the internal dialogue, then there is quiet, then there is no distraction or past, present or future, one is truly in the now and there is nothing to be smug about.

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