Occasionally I come across something that 'speaks to me' and the verse in number 10 caught my 'inner eye' and so I read the whole Psalm.
In one of those flash insights this is what it meant to me and my own, dare I say meaning; when I am frazzled, tired, sick of the world news, chaos and corruption I yearn for peace, not the peace through distraction which I have done and this just leaves me jaded and tired, I feel unclean and let down but the peace of something beyond worldly balms and soothing cooing lullabies of music, food, sleep and other so named delights beckons to me and calls me to another place, the soft voice of that peace beyond understanding. So I continue at the end of the Psalm below.
- Psalm 84 For the director of music. According to gittith. [1] Of the Sons of Korah. A psalm.
- 1
- How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD Almighty!
- 2
- My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.
- 3
- Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young-- a place near your altar, O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.
- 4
- Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you. Selah
- 5
- Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.
- 6
- As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it with pools. [2]
- 7
- They go from strength to strength, till each appears before God in Zion.
- 8
- Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob. Selah
- 9
- Look upon our shield, [3] O God; look with favor on your anointed one.
- 10
- Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
- 11
- For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.
- 12
- O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you
To me the dwelling place is when in meditation thoughts begin to fade away, their noise and cacophony subside, my body unwinds and rests and as the thoughts fade away it feels as I have arrived home in the 'Courts' and yes a day in them as in verse 10 indeed is nourishment to my soul.
In verse 2, I have been so torn, especially when I was in Forensics
that indeed 'My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God'. The Lord God to me means this peace and the refreshment I feel when immersed in this glory of light, stillness, quiet and soul nourishment.
What is the soul?; this is my awareness as in my experience as a human flesh being, it my personal experience of the 'God Within' the Kingdom of Heaven within, this is not running away from the world and its manifestations, it is the realisation that worlds pleasures and rewards are temporary, dream like and that nature holds more for me that worldly human made attributes. Oh, some might say because failure, lack of self confidence, failure to make my 'mark in the world' I have retreated to an inner realm of mind made sanctuary and have become introverted, cynical, sceptical and have a depressed morbid view of humanity and the world of human egoistic endeavour.
In the image at the top I have experienced a gradual fading or peeling away in my mind like a shutter being lifted, sometimes as though a balloon lifts me out, the me being the awareness, the witness or a peeling back and even entering another dimension and there is definitely light, joy, peace and an intuitive surety this is real and not a mind game fantasy.
I have no means to prove or disprove this discussion and point of view and if it so then at the end of my passage in this incarnation and the passing hopefully into an extended expanded 'courts' and space outside the 'head brain' into an awareness beyond the limited realm of the local ego mind into the non local mind space of unlimited awareness and its accompanying bright light peace, only then will my delusion or affirmation of this experience be valid or not.
In the image at the top I have experienced a gradual fading or peeling away in my mind like a shutter being lifted, sometimes as though a balloon lifts me out, the me being the awareness, the witness or a peeling back and even entering another dimension and there is definitely light, joy, peace and an intuitive surety this is real and not a mind game fantasy.
I have no means to prove or disprove this discussion and point of view and if it so then at the end of my passage in this incarnation and the passing hopefully into an extended expanded 'courts' and space outside the 'head brain' into an awareness beyond the limited realm of the local ego mind into the non local mind space of unlimited awareness and its accompanying bright light peace, only then will my delusion or affirmation of this experience be valid or not.
SHACK
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