In many self growth workshops over the years now they are often named webinars and the accent is changing with epigenetics, neuroscience, brain plasticity replacing, Karma, Group souls, cellular memory and not so much replacing but more of science, chemistry, brain and microscopic scanning. However in many cases psychologically felt as the same however the techniques and methods of extrapolating may differ.
The incessant mind chatter, the internal dialogue that seems to automatically come in when one is quiet and or 'off guard' after attempting to be aware and catch this auto response and either cut it off or trace it back to its source, which sometimes just disappears into a background and seems to vanish and yet reappears as if a conjurer has pulled the rabbit from the hat. On close inspection with an unbiased 'eye' so to speak and a constant dip into the mystery it becomes apparent that these intrusions are a response to a trigger which could be visual and could speak to the unconscious memory and stimulate similar or associative data and so 'cook' up an embellished or drama of the substance.
On recognising this as a response to the past conditioning it becomes abundantly more clear that this is related to the past and as such is a repeat of the past and as such is either a trauma to be avoided or an enjoyable experience to be cherished and repeated and could cause an addiction of avoidance of the unpleasant and cause fear, repression, denial and anger. On the other hand the enjoyable one could be addictive and a reward, comfort and a relief from the unpleasant this can be a distraction as well.
Even closer inspection and curiosity without a conclusive solution or opinion as such one may realise this is the past and has not caught up with the now and such is my future. This then binds one to the past and what is felt as future is but a modified cosmetic makeover.
Going ever further into this magic mystery of that which seems to be always chattering and always putting in a subtle alarm bell almost inaudible not to the ears but to the 'inner' mind and a definite physical response in the form of fear in the gut, palpitations and so on and if the brain were a muscle a contraction or a flight or shut down.
Some of the chatter is non nonsensical and some have a real strong impact; 'It's not right that everything is going well, I feel it will end in some mishap or tragedy' 'I feel great and healthy but I know bad health stalks me and I will be sabotaged' 'Bad luck is my lot, I never win, good luck for me, no way, everyone is luckier than me' 'Why is it that I am never lucky, have I done something wrong, who I have I offended God, my parents, humanity, for God's sake'? 'When you come home late you are causing me to worry myself to death and you are causing me to go to an early grave' (The fear of killing Mother, Father, Wife, Children, Lover, girl /boy Friend / partner and so on causing guilt and remorse for doing so) and there are countless other such 'messages'and repercussions.
Then it moves on to relationships of all sorts; If there is a dependency in the relationship and one is the 'parent' and love giver and the other child and 'receiver' in adult relationships be heterosexual or homosexual or any other of the seventy-nine types of listed relationships, if the dependency is on one partner supplying and the other party needy, then this may seem loving, yet even the supplier may have the need to give emotional love and care and fulfils themselves psychologically and emotionally and this their need and the recipient feels fulfilled as the recipient and get the love they never felt they had. If the death or the separation of either of these and many other facets of need and supply are presented by separation through tragedy, war, political, death or any other cause one can feel bereft, broken, depressed, suicidal and form a mental illness and such like.
When one's need is satiated by another or some hobby, drug, person, thing or even a fixed state of mind, religion, way of living through special pleasures and disciplines unless one has found that special 'inside' resource of the mind which is free of the chatter and dialogue which one finds when one finally realises this inner dialogue is my superimposed reality, it is a programme, Iv'e been hoodwinked to believe this is my reality and my parents, priests, politicians, friends and the media have backed up this mass agreement and so this is in a way is a dream, a programmed illusion of 'cloud thoughts visions and voices that appear real and are virtual reality of my brainwashed conditioned holographic mind,' this is mind as in distinction to conscious awareness, present to the now that is and has gone and is present again to the dream and slumber of a sleepy creepy nagging inner voice of yesterday and every day unless one awakens to reality of the now.
Hello is this you I am speaking to or the ego self which will take the above and juxtapose the writings above and turn and wriggle and so establish a paradigm which can rationalise and place the chatter and dialogue with its fantasies, feelings, emotional love and highs and lows as the only reality and that lessening the paradigm to awareness and conscious awareness will in fact be the villain and the trick has been exposed.
The shock of hearing as I did on several occasions the noise of my internal dialogue was awesome, it sounded as though there was a 'Ghetto Blaster' in my head.
Another shock is when one realises that one has been living in a dream, not a dream of unfulfilled material success or mind game fantasies of unfulfilled desires and frustrated wants and desires, the love one had never got or gave, the hurt to others and received, when all this is finally seen as a result of the incessant pounding, preaching, yelling, repetitious clobbering, constant drubbing and exposure to young, teen, adult and senior minds by those 'know and are wise' by authorities often self appointed, when all this is seen as coming from nowhere as above, one realises it is not real, it comes from nowhere and is nothing, it has no base, no real structure, it is clouds flatting across the screen of mind and as such is an illusion and at the most a temporary impermanent transient dream and upon waking up all is clear bright alive real and connected.
On recognising this as a response to the past conditioning it becomes abundantly more clear that this is related to the past and as such is a repeat of the past and as such is either a trauma to be avoided or an enjoyable experience to be cherished and repeated and could cause an addiction of avoidance of the unpleasant and cause fear, repression, denial and anger. On the other hand the enjoyable one could be addictive and a reward, comfort and a relief from the unpleasant this can be a distraction as well.
Even closer inspection and curiosity without a conclusive solution or opinion as such one may realise this is the past and has not caught up with the now and such is my future. This then binds one to the past and what is felt as future is but a modified cosmetic makeover.
Going ever further into this magic mystery of that which seems to be always chattering and always putting in a subtle alarm bell almost inaudible not to the ears but to the 'inner' mind and a definite physical response in the form of fear in the gut, palpitations and so on and if the brain were a muscle a contraction or a flight or shut down.
Some of the chatter is non nonsensical and some have a real strong impact; 'It's not right that everything is going well, I feel it will end in some mishap or tragedy' 'I feel great and healthy but I know bad health stalks me and I will be sabotaged' 'Bad luck is my lot, I never win, good luck for me, no way, everyone is luckier than me' 'Why is it that I am never lucky, have I done something wrong, who I have I offended God, my parents, humanity, for God's sake'? 'When you come home late you are causing me to worry myself to death and you are causing me to go to an early grave' (The fear of killing Mother, Father, Wife, Children, Lover, girl /boy Friend / partner and so on causing guilt and remorse for doing so) and there are countless other such 'messages'and repercussions.
Then it moves on to relationships of all sorts; If there is a dependency in the relationship and one is the 'parent' and love giver and the other child and 'receiver' in adult relationships be heterosexual or homosexual or any other of the seventy-nine types of listed relationships, if the dependency is on one partner supplying and the other party needy, then this may seem loving, yet even the supplier may have the need to give emotional love and care and fulfils themselves psychologically and emotionally and this their need and the recipient feels fulfilled as the recipient and get the love they never felt they had. If the death or the separation of either of these and many other facets of need and supply are presented by separation through tragedy, war, political, death or any other cause one can feel bereft, broken, depressed, suicidal and form a mental illness and such like.
When one's need is satiated by another or some hobby, drug, person, thing or even a fixed state of mind, religion, way of living through special pleasures and disciplines unless one has found that special 'inside' resource of the mind which is free of the chatter and dialogue which one finds when one finally realises this inner dialogue is my superimposed reality, it is a programme, Iv'e been hoodwinked to believe this is my reality and my parents, priests, politicians, friends and the media have backed up this mass agreement and so this is in a way is a dream, a programmed illusion of 'cloud thoughts visions and voices that appear real and are virtual reality of my brainwashed conditioned holographic mind,' this is mind as in distinction to conscious awareness, present to the now that is and has gone and is present again to the dream and slumber of a sleepy creepy nagging inner voice of yesterday and every day unless one awakens to reality of the now.
Hello is this you I am speaking to or the ego self which will take the above and juxtapose the writings above and turn and wriggle and so establish a paradigm which can rationalise and place the chatter and dialogue with its fantasies, feelings, emotional love and highs and lows as the only reality and that lessening the paradigm to awareness and conscious awareness will in fact be the villain and the trick has been exposed.
The shock of hearing as I did on several occasions the noise of my internal dialogue was awesome, it sounded as though there was a 'Ghetto Blaster' in my head.
Another shock is when one realises that one has been living in a dream, not a dream of unfulfilled material success or mind game fantasies of unfulfilled desires and frustrated wants and desires, the love one had never got or gave, the hurt to others and received, when all this is finally seen as a result of the incessant pounding, preaching, yelling, repetitious clobbering, constant drubbing and exposure to young, teen, adult and senior minds by those 'know and are wise' by authorities often self appointed, when all this is seen as coming from nowhere as above, one realises it is not real, it comes from nowhere and is nothing, it has no base, no real structure, it is clouds flatting across the screen of mind and as such is an illusion and at the most a temporary impermanent transient dream and upon waking up all is clear bright alive real and connected.
SHACK
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