AWARENESS DISSOLVES
THE
SUPERGLUE OF EGO
SHACK
Monday, 17 August 2020
SHACK 810 HARD AND STUCK
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FEAR IS THE SUPERGLUE
OF THE EGO
CEMENT IS THE COMPACTED
CONDITIONING AND PROGRAMMES
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SHACK 809 KNOWING
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AWARENESS KNOWS WITHOUT CENSORSHIP
WHAT IS OF ITSELF
AND WHAT IS FROM ELSEWHERE
THAT WAY ALL
MISCONCEPTIONS AND FALSITIES
ARE ERADICATED
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SHACK 808 THE CHALICE
The mystic Chalice bowl or receptacle can have various interpretations according to the belief and research of the seeker its often a mystical meaning and it can be that it literally is a physical bowl that can be of crystal, wood or some precious metal.
To me it has a history; when in the mid seventy's and around my Findhorn days and excursions there was talk about the bowl being in the Cheddar Gorge in Somerset and like Avalon and Arthur and the Sword Excalibur and the New Age hype at the time many rushed around to find these objects or just to meditate at ley lines and power points. I did some of this with Gilly or by myself.
However as I grew in my understanding I began to realise that these were symbols of inner experiences either as an AH HA or a kind of gentle deeper inspired 'knowing' or deeper still actually feeling it.
So lately, say over the last seven or eight months with holosync and chakra sounding and opening the vagus nerve I have felt my crown chakra tingling, a feeling of opening (I have described in back SHACKS that the crown in Lama's when they do certain rituals actually opens, some bits of bone fly off and a straw is put into the cavity as the hot steam of kundulini vents through, like a pressure release valve in a pressure cooker).
In this experience I realised that the crown chakra is the chalice, not a physical bowl but the chakra is a receptacle for the heavenly chi, the spirit and is filtered through the halo which like a magnifying glass that concentrates the Sun's ray and can burn paper and so on, and then into the crown. I had the feeling that the energy is metered and in increments so as to not 'burn or blow the fuses that is the synapses, neurons and nervous system' I have seen people who have raised this energy and it has made them deranged, ill, suicidal, depressed, angry and many other symptoms.
I felt like for me it was like an hour glass or sand timer.
WAYFAIR. COM
All of the above images came to me not as exact as the one from Google Images but somehow as the energy entered into my body more like my energy auric fields it was absorbed like a sponge and produced a spiralling effect and I felt the chong / sushuma channels were the axis of which the DNA helix revolved around, it was like the central axis was spiralling and caused the DNA helix to turn about itself.
To me it has a history; when in the mid seventy's and around my Findhorn days and excursions there was talk about the bowl being in the Cheddar Gorge in Somerset and like Avalon and Arthur and the Sword Excalibur and the New Age hype at the time many rushed around to find these objects or just to meditate at ley lines and power points. I did some of this with Gilly or by myself.
However as I grew in my understanding I began to realise that these were symbols of inner experiences either as an AH HA or a kind of gentle deeper inspired 'knowing' or deeper still actually feeling it.
So lately, say over the last seven or eight months with holosync and chakra sounding and opening the vagus nerve I have felt my crown chakra tingling, a feeling of opening (I have described in back SHACKS that the crown in Lama's when they do certain rituals actually opens, some bits of bone fly off and a straw is put into the cavity as the hot steam of kundulini vents through, like a pressure release valve in a pressure cooker).
In this experience I realised that the crown chakra is the chalice, not a physical bowl but the chakra is a receptacle for the heavenly chi, the spirit and is filtered through the halo which like a magnifying glass that concentrates the Sun's ray and can burn paper and so on, and then into the crown. I had the feeling that the energy is metered and in increments so as to not 'burn or blow the fuses that is the synapses, neurons and nervous system' I have seen people who have raised this energy and it has made them deranged, ill, suicidal, depressed, angry and many other symptoms.
I felt like for me it was like an hour glass or sand timer.
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It felt like a golden drip and then a kind of soft gentle rain which went into my chakras, organs and meridians which seemed to refresh and rejuvenate my beingness not so much my physicality.
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Then it felt like the chalice was like a funnel and the energy then went to the central cord in the spine which is Sushuma and Chong in Yoga and Qi Gong.
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All of the above images came to me not as exact as the one from Google Images but somehow as the energy entered into my body more like my energy auric fields it was absorbed like a sponge and produced a spiralling effect and I felt the chong / sushuma channels were the axis of which the DNA helix revolved around, it was like the central axis was spiralling and caused the DNA helix to turn about itself.
By being still and meditating it was like an invitation to 'heavenly' Chi life force to enter and the more one became still the 'Chalice' opened and the hour glass funnel tube as it were increased its diameter and so more 'sand chi life force entered'. Or the rate of 'sand' increased.
Every human had a receptive chalice (fontanelle) otherwise life in a human body would not be possible.
The spiralling effect acts in some ways as a drill and also as a vacuum pump and this facilitates the 'drawing up or in, actually non directional' more like a fish in the ocean, a total surrounding by and in the Quantum Field, actually nothing ever leaves the quantum field, it is like a wave arising and subsiding.
We are Quantum and this is like saying omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent.
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SHACK 806 LONELY?
MSUTODAY--MICHIGAN STATE UNIVERSITY
IF THERE IS'NT AN 'I'
THEN ONE IS NOT ALONE OR LONELY
IF THERE IS AN 'I'
THEN ONE DESIRES ANOTHER 'I'
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SHACK 805 BASIC
GO WHERE MANY FEAR TO GO
NOT ALWAYS TO A PHYSICAL CHALLENGE
BUT TO RENOUNCE MATERIALISM
ONLY ENOUGH TO SURVIVE
THEN TO LIVE A QUIET LIFE
SIMILAR TO THAT OF A HERMIT
LIKE EXISTENCE
BEING IN THE WORLD
BUT NOT OF IT
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SHACK 804 MIND
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STAND UP QUIETLY
BE WITHOUT FEAR
THERE'S NOWT THAT CAN TOUCH YOU
THE PHYSICAL MAYBE
THE QUIET ESSENCE NEVER EVER
EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT AWARE OF IT
VIRUS, DISEASE CAN NEVER
HARM THE ESSENCE
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SHACK 803 WEARY
The weary soldier, the dusty traveller, the merchant who is tired of hassling, dealing and bargaining with many world weary people and dreams or fervently seeking a place by the sea, nature anywhere, the log cabin, off grid or wishfully off world and may even find such a physical domain only to find the same thoughts arise and disturbs the new found physical haven. Mind you such a place can be a step to the peace sought.
I found this situation in Minorca, Scotland and Canada and realised the place I sought was not physical but a place devoid of troublesome thoughts that lurked in the background like hungry ghosts ready to feed of my emotions whether they be fear, uncertainty, pain, suffering, joy, happiness or whatever their predilection.
Not a lovely relationship with a beautiful lady, lasting and fulfilling, children, family, a fine house and welcoming friends, wealth and a successful ambition completed, the joy of grandchildren and so on, I have travelled extensively, met thousands of people in workshops, been in the 'glamour' of forensics, had relationships and yet felt tired of this as if I had been through this so many times, perhaps an over throw or long distant past shadows of incarnations and always the missing peace was to find peace not in form and materialism but in the realisation of the true life which to me is a life without former brain washing and a mind which is clear of many thoughts and functions from the inner awareness which catches the 'urge or prompt' like a Native American 'dream catcher' and the 'Catcher in the Rye' syndrome.
An example how this arises in me as of late; as a child I was mollycoddled by my dearest mother and in my years between four and thirteen in particular, a break came in between, facilitated by a Portuguese GP when we lived in Wembley for a short while, yet when we moved to Stamford Hill it all surfaced again, probably due to the impending divorce or break up by my parents. So when I returned lately after three severe bouts of illness which were so called life threatening from end of 1999 till 2002 I was weak and moved to where I am now in 2002 and started to rebuild. One of the fear thoughts I have is about my health and it is so deeply ingrained that it takes over quite literally as an automatic unconscious emotion and prompt. Because of pneumonia, pleurisy and congestion of the lungs as a child with the odd bouts of bronchitis it left me prone to chills, fear of getting the above aforementioned and weak circulation, the fear causing tightness and tension and not trusting life but the fear of installed programmes and agendas, brain washing and conditioning through life's experiences. I feel we all have sensed somewhere deep down within us that these programmes are not of us, we were inculcated, conditioned and brainwashed and the real 'us, me, you' is endeavouring to arise like a seed pushing through the heavy earth to reach the Sun and fresh pure air. A bright clear mind and a happy mind is less full of thoughts as it rests in the joy of itself.
So I started cold water showering, I had ventured into this several times before and literally 'chickened' out, but now at the age from 79 to now as I type 81 and quarter years really getting into it even in midwinter, no hot just warm water to lather soap then into the cold and it is cold water. When I first started this I was petrified and I had terrible thoughts of pleurisy, flu and worse and a really horrible one that I get it if I feel I over exercise myself 'I will irreparably damage myself, I will get cancer, my blood pressure will soar, I will be hospitalised and pumped full of nasty drugs surgery, crippled, maimed and have terrible disability's, stroke, heart attack and wheelchair bound'.
These thoughts and feelings that accompany them of dread and horror have somewhat subsided, they are more subtle and just appear and as I notice them as my awareness sharpens and I can catch them before they feed on the fear and magnify and swamp me and lead to panic attacks or downright almost seizure of my mind.
Bless the cold shower and the dear lady at the Social Services and dear Dr Monkman and Dr Edwards who got the permission to install a wonderful wet room and so facilitate a marvellous way of showering.
So I am learning to trust and realise it is the thoughts that that fuel the emotions and hearken to the demise of me and these are but deep seated and embedded programs which are not the real me. The real me is that which is clear of most thoughts even of happy ones and it leaves me with just awareness and the haven sought is in the awareness of awareness.
I found this situation in Minorca, Scotland and Canada and realised the place I sought was not physical but a place devoid of troublesome thoughts that lurked in the background like hungry ghosts ready to feed of my emotions whether they be fear, uncertainty, pain, suffering, joy, happiness or whatever their predilection.
Not a lovely relationship with a beautiful lady, lasting and fulfilling, children, family, a fine house and welcoming friends, wealth and a successful ambition completed, the joy of grandchildren and so on, I have travelled extensively, met thousands of people in workshops, been in the 'glamour' of forensics, had relationships and yet felt tired of this as if I had been through this so many times, perhaps an over throw or long distant past shadows of incarnations and always the missing peace was to find peace not in form and materialism but in the realisation of the true life which to me is a life without former brain washing and a mind which is clear of many thoughts and functions from the inner awareness which catches the 'urge or prompt' like a Native American 'dream catcher' and the 'Catcher in the Rye' syndrome.
An example how this arises in me as of late; as a child I was mollycoddled by my dearest mother and in my years between four and thirteen in particular, a break came in between, facilitated by a Portuguese GP when we lived in Wembley for a short while, yet when we moved to Stamford Hill it all surfaced again, probably due to the impending divorce or break up by my parents. So when I returned lately after three severe bouts of illness which were so called life threatening from end of 1999 till 2002 I was weak and moved to where I am now in 2002 and started to rebuild. One of the fear thoughts I have is about my health and it is so deeply ingrained that it takes over quite literally as an automatic unconscious emotion and prompt. Because of pneumonia, pleurisy and congestion of the lungs as a child with the odd bouts of bronchitis it left me prone to chills, fear of getting the above aforementioned and weak circulation, the fear causing tightness and tension and not trusting life but the fear of installed programmes and agendas, brain washing and conditioning through life's experiences. I feel we all have sensed somewhere deep down within us that these programmes are not of us, we were inculcated, conditioned and brainwashed and the real 'us, me, you' is endeavouring to arise like a seed pushing through the heavy earth to reach the Sun and fresh pure air. A bright clear mind and a happy mind is less full of thoughts as it rests in the joy of itself.
So I started cold water showering, I had ventured into this several times before and literally 'chickened' out, but now at the age from 79 to now as I type 81 and quarter years really getting into it even in midwinter, no hot just warm water to lather soap then into the cold and it is cold water. When I first started this I was petrified and I had terrible thoughts of pleurisy, flu and worse and a really horrible one that I get it if I feel I over exercise myself 'I will irreparably damage myself, I will get cancer, my blood pressure will soar, I will be hospitalised and pumped full of nasty drugs surgery, crippled, maimed and have terrible disability's, stroke, heart attack and wheelchair bound'.
These thoughts and feelings that accompany them of dread and horror have somewhat subsided, they are more subtle and just appear and as I notice them as my awareness sharpens and I can catch them before they feed on the fear and magnify and swamp me and lead to panic attacks or downright almost seizure of my mind.
Bless the cold shower and the dear lady at the Social Services and dear Dr Monkman and Dr Edwards who got the permission to install a wonderful wet room and so facilitate a marvellous way of showering.
So I am learning to trust and realise it is the thoughts that that fuel the emotions and hearken to the demise of me and these are but deep seated and embedded programs which are not the real me. The real me is that which is clear of most thoughts even of happy ones and it leaves me with just awareness and the haven sought is in the awareness of awareness.
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SHACK 802 NUTS
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THERE'S NO FIGURING OUT HOW
IT JUST HAPPENS
IT HAPPENS BEHIND THE SCENES
ITS BEYOND THE INTELLECT
BEYOND THE KEN OF MAN
EXPECT A MIRACLE
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SHACK 801 TALKING TREES
There are beautiful trees, grass and plants in the lovely garden which is shared by the residents in the block of flats where I live. Fortunately my flat is on the non road side and is relatively quiet.
I have had several beautiful experiences with the two trees opposite my flat and particular through the large bedroom windows and one experience with the essence and light in these trees which I have outlined in SHACK 567 TREES March 2nd.2019 written in notes on paper in July 2019 and typed ready to be published in March 2019.
However this experience happened on the the 4th. April 2020 which was when the world was going through a lock down due to a supposed manufactured virus which was of the Chimera kind and very virulent. The details of this virus can be found in my blog POSTS at www.geofffreed.com .
I feel I talk to the trees and they understand me and we communicate, many would say it is imagination, delusion or my own subconscious reflecting it back to me and the image of the trees relaxes me and thought quietens down and so access to my unconscious is apparent.
I also had the sense that this joy is radiant and dynamic in a gentle way, it really is hard to express in words. I feel words are lost and that this is the 'world and dimension' of a more refined energy substance, if one could call it that and it is a feeling and to me manifested in a quiet all pervading energy field, alive and gently powerful an ever powerful benign radiant overflowing fountain or presence of joyous love and ever safe and smiling being and from this invisible silent energy field of potential where every possibility, probability, every configuration, every computation and like seedlings everything, yea, the whole Cosmos and Universe arise in their divine form and return to this field when all is done.
I know intuitively the feel of my unconscious and so I felt the trees smiled and it was gentle in a quiet joy and get the feeling that they are saying all is well and that chi, ki, energy the invisible life force and that God(whatever name suits for the Creator of Life) is smiling, and always smiling and I felt the ' buzz of joy and energy and that God Loves his / her creation and who ever appreciates the beauty of her / his creation shares in that joy and that trees know this and radiate it through their beauty and silent growth. God wishes for us to trust and share in this Life, the Life of all the Universe and the gifts that will unfold in the years ahead.
God enjoys our appreciation of 'hisher' art and beauty and 'herhis' is overjoyed we feel it and appreciate 'hisher' work and 'herhis' gift to us is to share it with joy and love to everyone everywhere and to every aspect of creation.
However this experience happened on the the 4th. April 2020 which was when the world was going through a lock down due to a supposed manufactured virus which was of the Chimera kind and very virulent. The details of this virus can be found in my blog POSTS at www.geofffreed.com .
I feel I talk to the trees and they understand me and we communicate, many would say it is imagination, delusion or my own subconscious reflecting it back to me and the image of the trees relaxes me and thought quietens down and so access to my unconscious is apparent.
I also had the sense that this joy is radiant and dynamic in a gentle way, it really is hard to express in words. I feel words are lost and that this is the 'world and dimension' of a more refined energy substance, if one could call it that and it is a feeling and to me manifested in a quiet all pervading energy field, alive and gently powerful an ever powerful benign radiant overflowing fountain or presence of joyous love and ever safe and smiling being and from this invisible silent energy field of potential where every possibility, probability, every configuration, every computation and like seedlings everything, yea, the whole Cosmos and Universe arise in their divine form and return to this field when all is done.
I know intuitively the feel of my unconscious and so I felt the trees smiled and it was gentle in a quiet joy and get the feeling that they are saying all is well and that chi, ki, energy the invisible life force and that God(whatever name suits for the Creator of Life) is smiling, and always smiling and I felt the ' buzz of joy and energy and that God Loves his / her creation and who ever appreciates the beauty of her / his creation shares in that joy and that trees know this and radiate it through their beauty and silent growth. God wishes for us to trust and share in this Life, the Life of all the Universe and the gifts that will unfold in the years ahead.
God enjoys our appreciation of 'hisher' art and beauty and 'herhis' is overjoyed we feel it and appreciate 'hisher' work and 'herhis' gift to us is to share it with joy and love to everyone everywhere and to every aspect of creation.
SHACK
Saturday, 1 August 2020
SHACK 799 OH,OH
Victor Lunn-Rockliffe
WHO IS THIS SELF /SELF
THEY ALL TALK ABOUT
MAYBE ITS JUST TALK
NO BIG DEAL
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(THERE DOES'NT LAST LONG)--SHACK
SHACK 800 QI
Doing Qi Gong slowly and quietly and no thought just doing by being it seems to feel like regeneration, renewal and rejuvenation is taking place.
It seems as if self is out of the way and the Universe is allowed to flow without the impedance and interference of thought that is the local personal self.
There is flow in the no mind of mind.
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SHACK 797 OUCH
My head throbs with sensing the unknowable indescribable truth and inner knowledge of life and it confounds me.
I wrestle and tussle with trying to understand with a small mortal mind and logic, science and intellect. It brings me to a blank, a fog and binds me and leads me into tension that will build to a crescendo, a climax, a spiritual orgasm and I have an anxiety if i do not suppress or hold down this pressure it will damage me in some way as illness, madness or some such malaise.
Yes I have a notion it will burn, eradicate the self in that it will release and an explosion that will reveal the SELF.
Yes I have a notion it will burn, eradicate the self in that it will release and an explosion that will reveal the SELF.
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SHACK 796 AHEAD OR A HEAD
OF COURSE
i
CANNOT GET MY HEAD AROUND IT
TRY
HAVING NO HEAD
EH!!!?
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SHACK 794 FROM THE ASHES
Who is this Phoenix; this mystical being, it is our awareness for the awareness is alert to the agendas and habitual patterns of living, only when one breaks the spell of not being present and the witness, the watcher at the TV not the programme.
Once we awaken to our true nature, the light of pure awareness, the witness to life and experience and not to immerse in the experiences which like clouds are seemingly real and only made up of droplets and the droplets are the emotions that come and go and blot out temporarily the bright blue sky and light of awareness.
Every time the awareness, the attention of awareness dissolves and is enticed and seduced by the 'clouds' of habitual auto thinking, robotic-ally reacting to a set of programmed algorithms inculcated over time the awareness phoenix dies in the fire of the auto programme the seductive fire of the scenario presented and rises when it realises that it has been clouded and then from the 'ashes' of loss of awareness, which can never be lost but temporarily overlay- ed, like a carpet covering the bare floor, the bedrock and floor being the awareness / Phoenix so to speak and so the awareness is the bright laser light that burns the brain washed seductive agendas and from the ashes of the dissolving intense heat and arises to greet itself once again.
When the awareness realises and awakens to itself it realises it is the awareness, the witness and becomes the witness to the everlasting light of being. The witness is witness to its witnessing.
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