SHACK 2001 THE SILENT ME

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Last night which was the 05/02/2022 I was in pain as I was passing gravel and probably some kidney or bladders stones. I get this occasionally and I feel it is when I am anxious, stressed and then eat the foods which are not conducive to my body. I am blood type A(+ or -) but have been told I should be a vegetarian or even vegan and do only light exercises. This I was told by a dear, dear friend some years back, however I am beginning to see the sense in this advice. There are articles of note which back this up.

However at one point the pain got so bad in my penis that I cried out and paced up and down as I went the toilet seat and back. I made nettle tea with lemon and honey and took a herb Quebra Pedra said to be helpful in these conditions.

Well I sat on the loo seat and the pain got worse and then suddenly something in me said 'relax let go' and did and the pain was still there but incredibly a joy, a light calm lit up my body and mind. Gradually the pain and the gravel passed through.

Once again that wonderful surrendering to the 'empty mind so to speak' came about as written so many times. 

By the way that afternoon I had to go shopping and I was wary of being caught out if I wanted to pee. The British do not pee if they can help it they would rather have the stiff upper lip!!?. Then another thing; remarkably another friend who by a coincidence(I feel there is no such thing however I feel they are synchronous events arranged by the Unseen Hand of The Great Spirit) she has no penis( really) but obviously in her way was going through it as well. We both felt we were not ill or in serious trouble as it were.

Anyway I went out with a good modicum of trepidation and did all of the chores and shopping and even with two heavily laden shopping bags(forgot my trolley) felt strong and fit. However after unpacking the above started as described.

Although I surrendered to the relaxed silent me as it were the pain was there and it was somewhat bearable. 

'People with A blood type are sensitive, cooperative, emotional, passionate and clever. They are very patient, loyal and love peace and thus do not like to get into a fight with anyone. But sometimes these people become overly sensitive.' I would agree with this snippet from a research article and the article goes on to say these may also be likely to have cancer or diabetes. My fear is about health and since nearly everyone in my family history died of cancer there is a weakness in my inherited conditioning.

OK now I went to bed and kept warm and I was in joy and wrapped around in calm. I felt at one time to go and sit in the living room and listen to a CD with Delta frequencies and then afterwards went back to bed and then back to the living room.

What happened next is difficult to put in words; A flash of inner light a massive AH HA and came silent words in the mind which are in the form of a knowing, it is nano second and yet in the mini micro dot so to speak it spelt or translated to an intuitive 'inner' comprehension as roughly and crudely, so hard to accurately portray the inner silent communication as 'you are complete in the silence of yourself, no herb or concoction is needed, there is nothing outside you that can stop, heal or cure you and if it is needed it will become evident to you from the inner being'.

Up until this point in my 83yrs I had not wanted to be on Earth and from my NDE 1942 I had fought to stay in the light and peace of that and as I type this it came as another 'knowing' this is the light I experienced as above and the many redeeming situations when the 'light and quiet' afforded me comfort and healing. THEN the disconnect of me whining and saying ' I do not know what I am doing here anymore, there is no purpose, no workshops, no science, just everyday grind and fearing illness and old age and discrepancy, senility and so on and of course wheelchair bound and a dribbling old fart so to speak.

To describe what followed is equally difficult; the fact that the light was in my NDE let us say another dimension, maybe the realm of where the soul goes after leaving the body hopefully back to Spirit and that Light is in my body as well or rather mind showed me that being on Earth and if you want heaven are the same apart from the body. This took away my pitiful moaning 'Oh God take me home, I can't do it anymore, I am pleading with you Great One' 

I realise now that why I wanted to leave the planet was because I was identifying with the decaying body and the Earthly experience was about loss and I kept harking on about everything is transient, yes even the empty atom, everything in the Universe will dissolve, fugacious, impermanent AND why I realise I was identifying with the ego sense of the body and striving to be immortal or have longevity in the body, yes love my body BUT the light is the immortal and The Great Spirit.

Fear seduces me away from the light, it as if I want this body for ever and I have become seduced by this Pandemic and the hard lessons of Forensics, as a healer and psychotherapist, councillor and a hackneyed platitudinous euphemisms that were either brain washed, conditioned or inculcated that a set of agendas and programmes ran my life as a collective entity named ego. Actually the ego is not the enemy or to blame because of the input by a lack of understanding or unawaken'd  mind clouded by the programmes it took centre stage and the light of awareness veiled.

So my body or not it seems the dichotomy between heaven is gone. Now there is only Heaven as it were and its OK for heaven to become a tenant in form of compressed frequencies and vibrations as a temporary sojourn as long as the awareness is realised as the undying SELF. 

SHACK

There maybe a correlation with blood type A and Vata, Ptta and kapha along with Yin and Yang and various other aspects such as ectomorphs, mesomorphs and endomorphs.(SHACK)