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It
has often occurred to me that thoughts are heavy. My head feels heavy with
negative thoughts and even lighter more positive thoughts seem to take up space, the
space of peace.
Lighter
thoughts can occupy the mind like buzzing bees that fly and that will not go out
the window or the wasp that follows you everywhere. Many of us feel that thoughts are part of the
natural mind and we cannot exist without them. Ask a baby or young child that
and see what the baby or child mind is like before us adults drop in, force,
coerce programme, condition and groom in our ‘stuff’ and we may think
original great life and style on them.
Sure
some basic morality, respect and ways around the world with safety, decency and nature wisdom are necessary but just to earn a living and amass wealth and
its consequences of materialism can often lead to selfishness and security in
more and more and more, surrounding oneself with material objects that
eventually rot and decay, the child with a new toy and its charms fade and
looks for another. It becomes an addiction.
Sometimes
thoughts are a reminder that I exist, whereas in sheer joy, inner peace and
happiness there is not much thought, so there is a toss up between heavy thoughts or
just thoughts to verify I am here, this could well be the programme, brain
washing and conditioning the combined array that is marketed and packaged as
the ego. This becomes an entity that
like a surreal being and mimics reality only it seems so real and really is a virtual
reality and an illusion. This is simulated reality.
Born
free of conditioning and then taught to be whatever your parents want you to be
is really simulated reality. This is so
because when one has leant choice or unsatisfied with ones ‘simulated’ life one
can then change to another simulation. There are now headsets which are linked
to software and visas, small screens and one can change the virtual programmes,
they are so real that given enough time on them and gullible perhaps a sad mind
one like internet addicts become disassociated with the world and live in a
simulated dream world. What's the difference---its all simulation, one brain washing the other by machine
To
some extent as long as we follow our ‘upbringing’ without questioning it at
some time, not running away from the horrors or wishing only the pleasures we
remain firmly embedded in the role, we think
and feel this is reality and defend or even attack to keep the status
qua. This is my team, my religion, my
preferences, my flag, my territory and these are its borders the circumference
and the line you or I cannot step over. I must have like minded people, loyal people
in fact like me, I am your role model and if you are not like me then woe
betide you I will try and convert you, you see really I am saying secretly,
privately that you make me feel unsafe, your different, there cannot be
different this is what I have been brain washed and believe, after all my parents were
right and they are right its been proven by the family cultural line, all those other
cultures well they are heathen, however I can tolerate them in order to not war
with them, but I tell you make sure you know and recognise my borders, no
incursions mind you.
Now
all of these thoughts become buried in a package and run around the neurons,
synapse’s buzzing micro electric firing circuits wired to the shape and
connections modulated and commensurate and concomitant to become a tuned
circuit which in turns forms habits and these habits become habitual and
routine and build the safety fence around one.
The fortress is not solid it is an assumed solid, on close examination
by closing ones eyes, looking lightly but with awareness look at the nature of
the thoughts and pictures that the thoughts provoke with colour and emotional
content, which will fascinate one at first, then remind yourself I am merely
watching a TV in my mind screen.
This
may provoke the thoughts ‘is this who and that I really am’? The thoughts seem
to flash in or evolve slowly, some like bubbles, in fact thoughts have ‘no
body’ and seem to have no tangible substance and they come from seemingly
nowhere and disappear into nowhere all produced by so scientists tell us an
electrical phenomena by the brain, you are your brain and that is all and a
splendid computer that evolved by itself from a big bang and an accident.
Now
the brain is established and even with choice whatever one’s decision to move
from one set of programmes to another there is the same predicament. One goes
round and round on the hamster wheel, stop the world I want to get off, the
trap of duality and so on.
Then along comes the Quantum ‘Stuff’. Nothing is solid, atoms are 99.99% empty, everything
in the Universe is vibrations, frequencies; the two slit / split experiment and
the observer. Hey, we, you and I
observing. Here am I looking at a virtual world in my head so to speak if I lay
back and say I am watching the TV in my head and I am not getting emotionally
involved in the programme.
A
very weird and strange experience may arise; whilst gently breathing and not
falling asleep, not being uptight and the tensions, itches and seated
comfortably, quietly and sometimes quickly the mind becomes bright, sometimes
like a slow rolling venetian blind or garage door rolling up, the mind becomes empty, perhaps thoughts seem far away and something like a diver below the
surface and looks up and sees vague silhouettes, then this absence of thought, an
empty mind, can feel happy, joyful, blissful feel full of grace, the body
relaxed and one is not a vegetable or bored, in fact boring are the same old
same old rota of programming and conditioning unless one resigns oneself to
this opiate of illusion-ed safety of the
known.
This
joy de vivre seems endless and is not static it is on the move and yet still,
it is dynamic and yet is not revving one up, it is pure potential, spontaneous
and not impulsive, it is what it is, it does not seem to have boundaries and
ones head and brain seem to be open, light and boundless. Any attempts to
really get to grips and define it, for the words above are vague descriptions
of it, limit it and the limits bring one back to words thoughts and a
programme. This is what scientists do
with the Quantum ‘Stuff’ explain it, write a mathematical equation about it to
make sure they understand it and make their ego’s safe and secure in their
knowledge, this exactly what I do, we all do, we must have a framework of
thought ‘I know that I know through my thoughts that I am who I am, my name,
address, knowledge such as xyz religion,
culture, degree, social status, insurance number, driver licence number, my
socialising, the pub, the team I support, what I look like in the mirror and most
of all like minded people and all those not like me I either tolerate, shun,
condemn or fight or just blank them. Then again I might be an educator, a
therapist who has a theory, follows a particular psychological or mystical or
even home made philosophy and tries to convert others in order that we are a
family and makes me feel safe that’s why I became a therapist anyway. Of course
I am generalising-----aren't I?
To
think or not to think this is the answer. In my view the world has got into
trouble because we over think. Perhaps we need to be simpler and just have
thoughts and programmes to negotiate every day living and coming from the happy
joyful peace mind as base.
Too
simple, too naïve, well will never know unless perhaps we may say‘I know that I don’t
know but when I need to know I will know’
SHACK
