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He came through the door to reception
with a taught drawn face, anxiety and worry etched into every furrow of his
pale skin and an obviously false beard.
We went inside the consulting room and
he said 'so this is what Donald has allowed here' (Donald Reeves the Vicar of
St.James in Piccadilly in London UK--- he was one of the first gay priests to
'come out' and was a very brave move in those days);
Then we tackled the fact he was in
disguise and we agreed to be honest and frank if we were to work at this. He
then said he was plagued by disturbing thoughts during his lectures, he refused to answer what those thoughts were so I said I knew he was the Bishop of XYZ(not London) he then broke down and said when ever he prayed or did a sermon he got hard pornographic
thoughts. I then rang Marjorie;
Rebecca Marjorie
Proops OBE (formerly Rayle,
née Israel 10 August 1911
– 10 November 1996 )
was probably best known as an agony aunt in
the United Kingdom
I had contact with dear Marjorie and
knew she ran a group for men who had these kinds of issues. I will call the
Bishop, Marvin (name protected) and I phoned Marjorie from reception and
Marvin heard he was not alone in this issue. It gave him cold comfort. He said
the Satan had got hold of many these days and we are doomed.
Over the course of several weeks it came
out that his father was a strict disciplinarian and a Vicar, his mother wore
starched aprons and kept saying 'this sex thing is dirty why didn't God let all
women give birth as Mary did with the baby Jesus (immaculate conception). They constantly said that this sex act was
revolting and dirty, and the father said he had sinned by doing such a gross
act.
Then mother said he was a ‘dirty little
tyke as he soiled his nappies and she refused to breast feed him and forced him
to potty training to get out of the ‘filth of nappies’.
I then had a hunch for in my
Forensic work I had been into brothels and other places of a similar ilk and
said to him in a gentle way ‘did you ever
go to a lady of the night and a specialized brothel’ he broke down and sobbed
and said yes. I then elaborated ‘did she
breast feed you and wrap you in nappies ‘yes’ and then crapped and urinated on
you. ‘Yes he said’ How do you know of these things, I said in the course of this work you see and hear similar things. He then got onto his knees and put his head on my lap and
sobbed and wept for at least ten minutes. He
then straightened up and said ‘thank God that’s out.
I then put it to him that it was
not the devil who plagued him but unfinished business of trauma, guilt, shame,
psychological and mental confusion. He
said he saw the logic and intellectually it made sense, but he did not think it would heal him.
I met a Spanish therapist a few
years prior to this and she used the sounds that the baby hears in the mother’s
womb. When Marvin came in for his eighth session I had the tape playing, he was mesmerized by it and then suddenly went into the foetal position, feet nearly
to chest and yawned rubbed his eyes and cried like a baby, he then crapped
himself and wet himself. Fortunately the bathroom and toilet were across the
corridor and as he got cleaned up and and also the consulting room, I went next door to
Simpson’s and bought him a track suit, underpants, socks and a pair of
plimsolls. He had now finished the unfinished business with his mother and was approved in his mind by her.
He had a gigantic cathartic
experience and he felt he could now cope and saw the reasons very clearly and
went to counseling near where he lived. He thanked me profusely and wanted to
reward me with gifts and I said it was part of my work and the reward was
seeing him well and I said you are a good man at heart and will now make a fine
Bishop and would you give me your blessings which he shyly did.
I do feel there are entities that
feed off of our fears, traumas and anxieties and vile thoughts, they live in the
astral world, a dimension and sheath in our Auras; they are being cleaned out
at present by the rise of the new evolutionary energies and what with the wars,
environmental pollution, tainted food and water, drugs and so on our auras can
get punctured and we can become possessed also these entities are on the loose
and are rampant with today’s media and slush.
Shack
I was given permission to tell this story by Marvin he felt
it might help others. I often relayed
stories like this in workshops and was told it helped.(SHACK)
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