There
is a state of mind where one can be tricked that one is enlightened, that is
absence of thought and modicum of joy. On careful examination when the
awareness kicks in from behind this cloud. This cloud covers the sun and just
dims the light of awareness for a while like a partial or total eclipse and
there is a suspension of thought and a focussed attention on this ‘suspended
mind’ it lures the attention of the ego, it is indeed the egos attempt to
imitate and produce a fake ‘emptiness’ a false enlightenment, a satori or
nirvana.
This soporific mind event and the egos nearest attempt to fool the awareness that
this is the real deal fails if one has glimpsed the real deal. There is an
inherent intuitive knowing when the genuine emptiness is felt, after all it is
really who one is and one then knows ones true nature.
The
ego also wants peace and quiet on its terms and this dull suspension of its
programmes is like the computer going on sleep and dark screen becoming sharply
aware at the touch of a button. In this mode one walks and does things like a
zombie and walks wearily and the body just can’t be bothered to do things
albeit in slow motion and does not like to be disturbed. The ego needs a rest from itself, its incessant demands and agendas and when it manifests and manufactures its own rest in order to recuperate and go on vacation, it does not like to be disturbed and warning signs of 'do not disturb' are abundant and it will sabotage itself to get the rest by incompetence and other means.
Doing
simple tasks is OK but things seem difficult to coordinate and one tries to do them in a simple way and with the least effort.
Of course they often go wrong or slip, can’t find the loop and so on and
a simple task becomes laborious. ‘ I just want to rest, have peace, for God’s
sake’ and then anger and frustration creep in, some say its old age, yet I have
known young people like this, for me when I went through this in my younger
years it was a sign of change, deep works in my psyche, a transformation period
often accompanied by joint and muscle aches, or the egos attempt to throw me
off the trail of finding myself. The ego
lays false trails and attractions and it is these that one has to work through.
This
soporific time can also be due to diet, lack of sleep not keeping active in the
body and sometimes by routines and rituals that no longer serve ones life
purpose.
This
is one of the trials to spot the tricky ego mind which is a cloud of
experiences and programme's, a box set of graphics which can be digitally
arranged and configured and presented as reality. This cloud is the eclipse of
the bright alert intelligent dynamic empty mind of awareness with nothing
generated by ego. The generated other
‘thought feeling’ of the self comes from the self and not from an ego agenda.
Literally
the term to become awakened is to see the cloud as brain washing, hopefully to
serve Life and not destroy it and know by experience that the true self lies behind
it so to speak and when the ‘day is done’ and the cloud has to recede and come
back when needed to live life in a human body then one realises that like an
eclipse it comes and goes but the ‘sun’ of the self is permanent yet cannot be
defined, confined or captured, it is what it is.
SHACK
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