SHACK 3044 A SEPERATE REALITY

Pricking The Bubble

Years back and certainly in many of my writings I waffled on about reality, how one manifests a reality through inculcation and knowing all this I was harnessed in the reality of the intellectual process of the manifesting it. I was in a self manifested process of understanding intellectually how it came about and smugly thought this was freedom of knowing the ins and outs. I had read some books especially 'A Separate Reality by Carlos Castaneda' and of course Timothy Leary and many friends who partook of the 'magic mushroom, Ayahuasca, Jimson Weed', and pompously thought why did they need that after all I was getting meditation experiences similar to their experiences.

Then I have come to learn that I was expecting certain feelings, prayers, pleadings and then just sitting without I felt any expectations, all this became stultifying and I became mindfully, mentally and physically constipated, the food, the body became tasteless as it were and even with juicing and some exercises it became an anathema, my neck was sore and hurting, my crown chakra pulsing and and the whole corpus coliseum tender, something was bursting to get out and my own 'bubble like a membrane' containing the old outworn and not fit for purpose set of perceived processes of reality, I was imprisoned in a skin, a chrysalis, a carapace, I felt that many times before over different ideas, fixtures of thoughts, time for change, BUT HOW.

I had learnt that taking more herbs, lotions and notions only caused expenditure and my finances dwindled at theses times, my anxiety rose and this time between March 2023 and especially the New Moon and Solstice in June 2023 it got intense, head pain, neck stiffness, jaw clenching, rages. teeth clenching, sleep and dreams crazy, during these episodes there was a wish to get rid of the encumberment, to run escape in a word it was CHAOS.

There was no meaning to anything, nothing made sense. I decided to do what the late Bill Harris suggested and the late Bruce Lee when trapped just sat and waited in calm. I had done this before, however in the pain and disassociation the overwhelming feeling is JUST HELP AND GET ME OUT OF THIS. Help never did come but some trigger or some spontaneous  process was at work behind the scenes as if an expansion is needed, I had experienced the 'shedding of the Old skin' and realised that evolution was at work and that the new skin maybe of a different ilk otherwise one merely sank into the former reality and growth was not there and if this did happen one could caught in a dreadful net and get depressed, despondent, suicidal seek harmful distractions and even die before one's allotted time so to speak.

I felt that I was in a bubble, a membrane and was swimming up to the circumference of this bubble as I looked I could see my nervous frantic distorted face and I realised the trap and then spontaneously, instinctively I perceived in a fraction of micro mini instant, so quick as to have no measurement of time or understanding and I did the minutest push and the bubble not so much burst but a sort of peeling back, I was not elated but free.

I then felt this was a separate reality and then realised that this was merely an expansion into an ever expanding realities and they were infinite and this was evolution, the never ending expanding Universe that we all live and move and have our being. I now feel the substances I mentioned above can show one another REALITY and not be trapped in one time line and brain washed hand me downs, the trap maybe to know not get addicted to the substance and meditation is a way as well and also not to  get trapped in the experience and to dwell there only so that it facilitates another 'constipation and tight skin and carapace, it is not physical growth yet I feel the emancipated mind awareness will cause new neurone cascades and synaptic relationships, a small craft capsule swimming in vaster depths of the Cosmic Ocean.

SHACK

Am I enlightened after the above, have I satori, am I in samadhi, am I a Jivanmuckta, these are not at all who I am. (SHACK)   

Should one fall back by the pull, gravity and magnetic nuances, then one falls back to the stale energies which can cause decay, stale trapped emotions and so lead an unfilled life that The Universe offered an opportunity to break free of unfinished business in the historic timeline of ones ancient timeline and the processes afforded to it to do so. (SHACK)