SHACK 3053 BEYOND THE BEYOND

    

Kyoto Butotokwai

What is sanity. Perhaps sanity is an agreement to preserve a modicum of law and order. Stepping out from the so called general accepted principles, morals and ethics and 'decent behaviour' seems to disturb peoples in many different cultures as if abnormal, kinky, LBGT and other sorts of so called unusual behaviour seems to threaten survival and yet many of the perceived threats are not what they may seem.

As I have shared in many articles what may seem one's reality when questioned deeply without fear and the very investigation in the first few instances may make one queasy and then on further steps take one to the realisation and the awakening I am a cloned mind and what I thought was the norm and reality turns out to be a dubious and shaky affair.

Where is this reality I had put my faith in, was it faith, did I believe it or was my faith and trust built up on my choice or I now realise with shock, trepidation and horror, I had no choice, was not given choice and what's more no alternative was there or suggested.

I could have gone mad at this a sort of mind racing around, physical giddiness, loss of sleep and appetite and taken to distraction to quench the fire of fear as I faced no man's land, who am I became an anathema, a repugnancy as I realised I had been cloned, someone else's ideas forcibly impregnated on an innocent mind not necessarily by brutal intimidation although there are some cultures which do so but by loving constant repetition and demonstrative life styles. 

To add to this the study of the atom and beyond intellectual and academic comprehension of the zero, vacuum, the quantum realm that snobbish academics and boffins like to use mysterious words and mathematical configurations and like a foreign language and medical huge words describing something that is indescribable and the bearded bespectacled professor looking sternly over their  pinc de neys and because we do not understand their lingo they assume their meaningless phrases and equations make them feel superior and an assuage for their cover up over their awakening to not really understanding anything of their pontifications at all and many end up in distraction as well.

I have also written many, many times about the running from the gap of realisation as 'there ain't no such things as reality' at least in describable terms'. Then the frantic pursuit to find  something, anything to act as a salve, 'goddamitt there must be some tangible reality or explanation in this whole dam fucking universe!!?' Unfortunately there is no such thing, never the less the anxious ego frantically hanging onto its perceived and inculcated 'stuff' keeps on relentlessly causing anxiety, mental illness, alcoholism, sexual depravity, anger, threats to bring the world to an end and in this sleepless nights in which the mind is determined to -----there must be an answer and what is beyond the known, beyond the beyond.

Until one can lay down the quest and realise the wild goose which could be described as foolish and hopeless search or pursuit of some thing unattainable or some physicists searching for the hypothetical particle and some even dying or committing suicide or going 'stark raving bonkers' which could explain why so many academics and spiritual seekers seem to many to be eccentric and quirky.       

Idiosyncrasy maybe another way of relieving or demonstrating that what seems normal ain't   so and behind the facade, behind the mask is a an accepted sort of reality which when investigated seems to be false and so humanity has been living an illusion and been deluded into thinking and believing there is a solid reality maybe diverse in culture, a variation on a theme, bang the solid wooden or metal table and oh so real, investigate what it is made of down to the atomic levels and our flesh bodies and see how our beliefs in the tangible solids can go?

Many years back when the atom was split many scientist had problems mentally as described by Fritzof Capra in his very first edition of The Tao Of Physics, unfortunately the later editions took out the meditative and spiritual likenesses and put in hard science. My cousin Professor Cyril Woolf (deceased) testified this to me and I was able to help him with meditation and sharing's. This was just after I had my shift with my Sensei's Koan in 1959, story some articles back.

The shift in 1959 did not alleviate the quest but showed me that there is another dimension or space, a separate reality and yet not separate at all and Sensei's words to me ' it is a shame you could not be in Japan and in a Zendo, sit down have a cup of tea, the world will not seem the same to you anymore' How right he was.

Perhaps an old film 'Mind Walk' may just assist a little, or 'What the Bleep' and then again may add to the confusion of what is and isn't?

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