SHACK 3086 FRIGHTENED

Ability India

 Frightened to go an a journey even when I know its destination, whereas in my youth I went most places and even some 'dodgy' ones. From my sad childhood and its illnesses it left me physically, mentally and emotionally compromised. The were two factors in this my NDE and my parents unhappy union. The joy and safety of the NDE and the harsh reality of the trepidation I had in the NDE that I had of begging not to come to Earth were worse that I felt in that NDE.

Now at 84 with the Covid experience along with the globalists agenda and the technology of eugenics, cyborgism, transhumanism and injury from the vaccine jab it is pressing my buttons so to speak.

I have tried affirmations, intension stuff, mantras, yantras and that but they seem to irritate me, it seems just plain siting, touching base that works best for me.  Even with food simple stuff and a few simple relabels seem to work best. I am now at this age happy at home with my own meditation, atmosphere and have lost that youthful trust in my abilities.  I am frightened and anxious to go on trains and simple journeys it somehow reminds me of the harsh Earth and the impermanence of everything and it seems so concrete and affirms my NDE.

Is the Divine experience only at home? I have to extend my Divine to everywhere as it were and when the human fear of my disability due to the vaccine injury and frail weakness and the embarrassment of failure and to remind myself not by a mantra or mental note but the feel of Spirit is everywhere.

I saw a documentary of the Shaolin Monks who were on a world tour with there amazing feats and one of them when the troop were meditating in St. Pauls Cathedral in London said after meditation 'you see the Buddha is everywhere' 

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