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| Creative Mornings Again this feeling of being the mystery of myself. I have this feeling I am the witness of all that passes by and through the awareness of that experience, it is an uncanny experience, I am witnessing events like scenarios, cameos, videos of life events as I would on a TV and yet they are not 'live' out there they are as emotions and feelings in 'my head' so to speak which are uncannily like my so called awake in the body state. This is convincing me that 'my awareness is at work so to speak' whether awake in the body, dreaming in sleep or daydreaming and fantasy, even in rare intoxicated reveries. This awareness is aliveness extraordinaire, it is silent witnessing, it is being forever present, in the now and is indeed 24 hr, 7 day week, 366 days switched on as it were, it is eternal vigilance, it is attentiveness without judgement or personal bias. Indeed it is being conscious, it is consciousness, it is the backcloth indeed the very canvas on which life events write and paint themselves. I could say it is not a solid backcloth or canvas but a field, a cloud, an energy field, more like that and yet it is NOT describable, does not have definition or any direction, it is not confined or has any limits it is all pervasive, it is omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, ubiquitous and preeminent and yet annoyingly so infuriatingly non tangible, not exactly describable, no form, not seen with human senses or the intuition, it is a feeling and as such vague and just outside any grasp, beyond human understanding, logic or even some sort of explanation. YET OUTSTANDINGLY I KNOW THIS IS WHO I AM. This feeling of knowing who I am and not really having a name or description is very liberating and I feel indestructible because I have no form and am just an 'existence', I am a mystery unto myself and yet I am not, I am the paradox and yet because of that I chase my own existence like a dog with its tail and yet I have caught my tail and yet this is just a prelude, a tantalising titbit, a mere bonne bouche and because I know and yet don't know, I feel strangely safe in this because this game will go on forever and ever and yet again will it? |
I am the ever present 'me' and yet there is no tangible 'in a form me' as like a human or Cosmic Planet or even an atom, so who am I, I am just a presence, I am an existence without form, I am me and any attempt defies explanation, I am the the paradox and conundrum of my very own existence, as to how I got to be what I am or not and yet I am is of itself the same ilk as my life which is a conscious awareness of Itself.
Since this so called Covid pandemic which of course frightened the very life existence out of many and me at first and the isolation and the breaking of the 'norm' and the wish to return to the good old days, like a partner who has lost their loved one, the families who have lost their parents who had THE VIRUS and were not allowed to see them or visit them, the pubs shut, football no way and so on it afforded an opportunity; to examine where our brain washing and habits were; no gatherings for prayer, social distancing, no family gatherings, businesses shut down and lost, working from home, the media constantly in your face extolling the need for testing (which the PCR test proved were dud most of the time) the scientists who felt there was only a severe flu and the fear produced the rest as the media were on about the symptoms of this virus which were as a flu and yet the public panicked like a herd of cows frightened and the herd took off and the saviour the vaccine and the constant vaccines to follow and the censorship so the governmental narrative was the holy grail, this gave me the opportunity to examine the nature of brain washing and propaganda.
This then led to the 'ever since the Earth began with humans upon it' the dream of power and lust, domination and everyone to obey the leader, the tribal ethos, the religion, the priest, the dictator, the ultimate, the pinnacle of achievements and accolades. Yes Eugenics, now transhumanism, cyborgism and technocracy to live forever whether in a flesh body or a marriage between a synthetic body and a human so called organic flesh body. A pronouncement; A New World Order, The Great Reset; the Governments with technocracy the others with harmless technology in line with nature and preserving the planet, then the government with GMO food, 5 / 6G communications, satellites the others with green fields, pure air and water and freedom of movement.
I started to feel restless and great palpitations around about the beginning of 2021 (now as I write this May 7th 2021) and although because of putting on some weight, the ignominy, the sheer mortification of the lies and scientific research by the governments and the clever psychological manipulation with censorship that my anger at their deceit and how they could live with their lives were getting at me and yes there was this and I vented this in my blog POSTS www.geoffreed.com but there was something else brewing. I was uncovering and writing in this SHACK site about brain washing and inculcation and then realised the whole 'COVID SHEBANG 'was a human made brain washed long term project like a religion and dogma, it was like this whole Roman Empire, Genghis Khan, British Empire, the religions and cultures and this 'World Economic Forum and the new priesthood, look how this person is dressed below, the New Economic Pope:-
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Does he not feel embarrassed; no because the power and the lust will have usurped any shame or reasoning and then when one reads the aims of the forum one will be astounded that is if one is not duped by their wealth and military might.
I began to feel the restlessness was due to me being sensitive to the collective unconscious, the pain, the suicidal thoughts and depression besetting, beleaguering and besieging people through lockdowns which meant we were prisoners in our own homes, that it was unjust and we could not be heard because of the censorship on the internet and media, was it that I was feeling this and it was causing me anxiety and so my atrial fibrillation was playing up, I never felt this till now, was it causing my blood pressure to get high and so on and yet there was and is something else brewing, slowly coming to the boil.
Like many at this time I bought in stocks of food and items because there was Brexit going on and goods were supposed to get in short supply (like the great toilet role debacle--it was a fiasco extraordinaire ---seeing people loading up supermarket trolleys to the brim and over with toilet rolls) the material gathering I did, did nothing to assuage or alleviate this underlying feeling; was I afraid of dying, illness and ill health (my long held fear), was it that this new world order would dictate my beliefs and force me to bend the knee to a long held reticence over dictatorship and pompous authority?
Alcoholism, suicides, depression, mental health problems beset the world and the governments with their dreams of the New World Order seemed to be deaf and in denial and the funding was not forth coming, while at the same time the 'leaders' were doing dodgy financial crony deals, sleazy underhanded dealings and laws passed without parliamentary consent and passed away as ' need to protect the nation from THE VIRUS' the police and security forces were given almost unlimited power and I know that in the world and the UK there are in the UK secret internment camps which would be open if there was civil war and a general strike and uprising. Some are called FEEMA camps and some are just for asylum and illegal immigrants. With all this in your face, many denied the fact we were losing human rights, that masks were essential and life saving and which there were thousand of scientific papers on the dangers of mask wearing and the glaring fact that the UK's Chief medical officer said at the beginning:-
Professor Chris Whitty told Sky News on Wednesday that wearing a face mask had almost no effect on reducing the risk of contracting the illness. Prof Whitty said: “In terms of wearing a mask, our advice is clear: that wearing a mask if you don’t have an infection reduces the risk almost not at all. So we do not advise that.” “The only people we do sometimes use masks for are people who have got an infection and that is to help them to stop it spreading around," he added. (Truths about Masks that Politicians and the BBC Probably Forgot to Mention) |
And now as I write they are thinking of releasing mandatory mask wearing there are people on the TV saying, no I will continue to wear them, you never know and of course in October they have said we need a booster vaccine show because of the flu season and the variant strain of the VIRUS. SO A MINATURE LOCKDOWN, DISTANCING AND MASKS.
Here right before my eyes so to speak were the very things I have been writing about for ages; the inculcation of the foetus to the adult and death, the brain washing and the means to promote this by TV, Media just as our parents did in a similar way by education and cultural nurturing, yes the 'nanny state' had become real as though anything is real and really just thought constructs repeated over, over, over again which is the definition of inculcation which leads to conditioning, which leads to concepts and then fixed habits which become one's reality through beliefs. Beliefs are thought constructs made to appear as reality. Reality then becomes a swappable, indefinite moving aspect and is only a fixed aspect if one is exposed to it often enough.
Here I witnessed my theories, conjectures and writings coming from the intellectual, logical realms to being played out in some sort of agreed reality. There is no real 'norm' but a loose agreements world wise on some sort of moral code like the ten commandments, a vague tenuous insubstantial 'norm' which through wars, political duplicity, atrocities in crime and terrorism make in my forensic days look pale and almost nonchalant, there were things going on that were obnoxious and horrific beyond words or description and sometimes left me gob smacked and astonished.
This was the unpicking of the 'fabric of physical reality' the weaving of the threads; the warp and weft are the thought constructs and are woven by interlacing various thoughts into an assemblance of a jigsaw whole formed by the thoughts coalescing. This through the VIRUS was an attempt to unpick the woven threads that held the fabric together, the rug of reality and attempt to pull the rug from underneath the feet of reality and reweave the threads into a new rug of the world's elite shadow government, the so called deep state, illuminati, bilderbergs or whatever cult or agenda they had in mind.
As said before I had figured this out intellectually and had various 'satori' or ah ah's and knocked me, the me being the construct I had of myself by aforesaid notions for six so to speak, astonished me as took a blow to my belief systems and aforesaid reality, the me being the construct I had of myself before the knock out blow of the ah ha. Now the constructs, the brain washing was playing out literally before my eyes and the witness me was testifying to the unreliability of the physical forms which were being broken down and witnessing the beliefs of the general public being switched into another form of reality which they had not woken up to, as brain washed, these were thought constructs put into a seeming reality and glued into a scenario and the bits glued by fear into a new jigsaw picture of reality. Gradually getting used to distancing, masks, vaccines, lockdowns and so on with mental health, depression, austerity, homelessness, war and aggression being normal and just the massive increase in suicides, depression, crime, domestic violence, poverty, unemployment, huge dispensing by GP 's of antidepressants being handed out indiscriminately being the norm to make dependency on the authorities and take choice away.
The palpitations I felt as relayed above were not as a result of anxiety or heart problems, they were an underlying feeling of something very significant about to happen; were ET about to reveal themselves, would the governments get found out, the fake virus exposed and just a bad flu and seized upon to bring in the new world order, would humanity awake to the wool being pulled over their eyes, was Kissinger right when he said we were too dull to see through this ploy, were they relying on the comfortability of humans on pubs, football, religion, sex and alcohol, drugs and unending films and comforts, was the sixth extinction about to suddenly happen, was a world disaster in the form of nuclear war or a climate change event so drastic as to make a world panic and the human race to become extinct?
No none of the above; it was an excitement in my deep psyche in my being of revealing to myself about the the witness empty me so to speak was and is me and none of the constructs of brain washing were anything to do with me. I am not of them, I am in the world but not of it, I am only in the world when I grasp at a thought construct as reality. There is no reality in inculcation in any form in attempting a solid thought belief, mere electrical formations as frequencies and interpreted, decoded into a mind picture which attempts to be solid and this projection in the mind mirror is a reflection, the ghost in the machine, a magicians trick to make a hologram seem tangible and real while the bits and particles of it are mere light entities, a photonic interlacing of photons and frequencies. So in way the plight of the present seemingly world VIRUS and its after effects are human thought constructs and have as much reality in them AS ONE GIVES THEM. DO YOU REALY BELIEVE IN REALITY?
I am a no reality that exists or does it? There is no definition of that which is awareness, which is intelligent consciousness. It is ever present with no evidence of Itself, is it even an Itself, is it aware of Itself, yes and can it solve the mystery of Itself, no, so what does it do, no answer, what is its purpose? Not known. It is a stand alone and is in every form, because it witnesses every form and yet not of it, so every facet of creation is actually part of it and yet there is only one witness in the Cosmos and when every form awakens to Itself as a mere thought and idea and realise I am without form and defy any adjective, noun or verb to pin me down as a something, when this is realised one knows who one is. This was and the palpitations and excitement to understand who am I and feel it and rest in the nothingness it is. This wanted to push through and demolish the blanket of mind constructs that covered its light, I wanted to bring myself to light and that light cleared the darkness of the narratives that thoughts obscure.
SHACK
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