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A huge shake up, to some blasphemy, to some never stop questioning, to some guilt, shame and loss and insult to ego image.

Ramindu Randeni

I have written a lot about the ego being the collective experiences and selective beliefs and mainly from cloned brain washing and very few break from their inculcated culture, ethos and traditions and when one realised that one is someone else's ideas and culture and that one had very little choice, the first being one's name at birth and further on in one's development one may awaken to the fact that'I AM NOT AN ORIGINAL, I AM ONLY AN 'I' or an identity formed by parental and other exposures and repetitious impacts by often repeated mantras of one's teachers, priests(priests of atheism),scepticism and so on, then this awakening challenges the identity of that set of collective indoctrination hitherto built into a non negational reality and all consuming lifestyle. 

One feels a shock, loss and even mourning of the passing and death of the whole dam lot of former rules and one may venture into another set of rules, or laws and ruled made up of the remnants of the dying old patterns and sort of stitched together in a hotchpotch free floating agendas and one may assume or really play into 'I am free I have no fixed identity, I am enlightened' and laugh and even mock the 'bound by ego choice and even feel superior and vain, 'those poor bound suckers'  

I have felt this 'false freedoms' and I have begun to to see the bits after the shattering explosion of awakening and having been cloned and brain washed and not original and knowing all ideas, concepts and so called facts can be manipulated, reconfigured and heaven knows with the digital age and virtual reality and also do we live in the 'mind of God' a holographic virtual reality played out by the God of the Universe and we are virtually just in the matrix and plugged into God's mind, we are said to be given free will as  a gift from God and yet if we go our own way, it seems we end up limited and try to beat God at Gods own hand.

I found that after the awakening of 'no mind no identity' its not that simple, after the explosion and shock there can be trauma and I for one was dazed and still am. After the explosion of awakening it is not instant enlightenment, it maybe enlightening, mainly intellectual, psychological and the remnants, the bits of debris after the crash can be clung to like the hard bits in the pan after cooking and need scrubbing they are subtle and adhering. 

This morning after some very testing worldly affairs due to mundane material and legal stuff and sometimes looking for a distraction on two fronts; the irksome tasks of cooking, cleaning, legal and mundane chores, yet in a way a distraction from my inquisitive nosy academic mind on trying to figure out what the emancipation of no identity is like, the feel of it and a few touches of it and the peace and wanting to have it all the time and make that a reality, then reality is not a fixed thing or place either in mind or materialism. It a dynamic, a rolling nothingness that is nothingness.

Still there is this dominant feel see awareness, that is aware it seeking that nebulous ebullient 'no identity' and makes a role out of it and can be a substitute for the 'real deal' as it were.

Who said masturbating was unclean and ungodly? In my early days between eleven and thirteen the bible and the Rabbinical said, that masturbating was wasting ones seed and that one had to go to the mikvah( a bath for cleansing and purity) and under pressure and anxiety masturbation can relieve pressure and at odd times when I felt extreme pressure I have watched porn or just imaged it myself and wanked. Afterwards I used to feel so much guilt and shame, do it the darkened room, hide it from God in the dark and who said God said it to Moses, Mohammed, Krishna and some Rabbi, after all trying to just watch it that is the pressure to relieve the offending cause of the tension was not working. OF course the punishment for wanking; I was told one could go to hell and not book a seat in heaven. I now realise that the shame and guilt felt are so horrible to experience that this is the hell punishment this is hell on Earth, should one overcome the need to wank, this is not sex with a partner, then I have felt the peace and joy that, that energy flowing to the pineal or 7th Chakra is so peaceful and a different joy and pleasure than the explosive in masturbation or indeed sex with a partner, the violent release of a physical orgasm as in contrast to the energetic 'head' so to speak of the kundalini one. So I had bought the ticket, I had stuck in the mind this Rabbinical 'Thy shalt NOT'. I had not realised that was still in there and was a part of an identity I thought and felt I had shed. How gloriously tight and secure the ego is, as in the Image at the head of these paragraphs and it collects the debris, waste not and want not and the ego is like the tentacles severed in science fiction films that have been severed and yet have a feel and put out magnetic emanations and from the scraps a new being is formed. The ego has to be busy, involved centre stage out there or in one's head.

Perhaps one should keep questioning old adages and axioms, not sceptical but just questioning, be alert, aware, and present. Just because through the ages certain aphorisms and maxims were taken as 'the truth' and passed down in inculcation does not mean they are true as times and cultures change or do they? Furthermore seeking to bring about a complete cultural change extemporaneously or by an agenda such as eugenics, transhumanism, technocracy, cyborgism, woke or a stifled media paying homage to political masters and wealthy oligarchs or multinational companies this is merely extreme egoistic and in some ways if the ego is rampant and becomes sociopathic and psychopathically unstable and rampant whereas the mind that is set free with no identity and has recognised the mental ego juggling and the extreme complexities and intricacies of the human condition will then feel its way, its creativity coming from a source of joy and seemingly to a vast and yet unseen source of Life.

QUESTION MORE WITHOUT SCEPTICICISM.

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