SHACK 3010 THE WEIGHT OF THOUGHT

Thomas Lerooy

The last few weeks (now 15 January 2023) I have been suffering abdominal pains and indigestion, I tried the various remedies and food changes and this seemed to make it worse. 

I was sleeping late and writhing in pain, numerous peeing and wind and then one morning it came to me as I contemplating the day before and explaining to a resident about differences of opinion and how we measure the distance to the Sun from Earth and this triggered off the feeling I was carrying science as a weight in my head, I felt it weighty and extremely heavy and had taken part of my 'emptiness' over and was becoming a sort of fill in for the loss of identity and the more of the Dr stuff the more the obligation to live up to it. I felt it was becoming to be a defining, reasoning and then a belief. Nature does this and this brought about by signals and codes in information commensurate to the form that nature through spirit designed and the natural upgrades and reconfigurations done by spirit and not by human genetic, eugenics, transhumanism. It shifted a load of my shoulders, indeed the weight of thought I realised really affected my body a real example of psychosomatic symptoms, the head ruling the body.

 

Thomas Lerooy

My head was full of unnatural curiosity, the weight of intense research and realising the empty atom and no identity was the mystery and could be enough, I don't know how Spirit caused me and the Universe anymore, some things are without reason and need to be as a saying from the East' Leave the rogue male elephant alone browsing in the Jungle'.

I realised my obsession as in previous SHACKS on being right and my ego armed with scientific know how, is an ego trick to lure me away from my emptiness, to be my reality of facts, equations and everything in place and just so. Yes they can be alright as long as they are the end and be all and not be the cloud or bung in my emptiness.

I found that my ego got massaged when I mentioned my degrees and the applause and attention, I had to walk my talk. Science should move on, in some cases it does and many cases it just goes round and round with a few modifications so as to not take many academics out of their comfort zone.  It can lead to stultification.  

When the natural release came it was painful, I writhed in pain, had to go to toilet several times and the poop came out of my head so to speak and not from my anus. It was like a relief felt throughout the body and my whole being body, mind and soul was relaxed and what it was I feel now I was on the way to 'not knowing' and with 'no reason' and siting quietly and not wanting to be right or take applause or be recognised as such and perhaps a 'nobody' like every body else. This was a follow up on the manager I wrote about a few SHACKS back.

Maybe more or maybe less to follow, that's the way of things.

Ce est la vie.

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