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| Flow with the Flow |
Some say I'm losing my mind, Zen might say 'well done' psychiatrists and therapists maybe we will put you together again ---perhaps---you might say 'I lost my mind to get out of it and you want to put me back' ? Well not really we'll try another mind set. But isn't that just a compromise and it might work or not? Well medication may help.
Another view maybe 'I have seen or recognised my brain washed state of mind and all the computations therein and thereof and justifying, juggling, juxtaposing, reconfiguring, up and downgrading and looking at endless computations to try and keep and hold onto some reality that is endless and real and then doing all the possibilities to bring it about and facilitate an original primal set of mind patterns and finally realising they are at best a make over, a sort of facelift, cosmetic thought surgery and being desperate try to obliterate it with sex, drugs, depression, suicide or thoughts of suicide, perhaps euthanasia, running to far of places, off grid, on grid until you reach the edge of mind.
Is there such a thing as the edge of mind? Maybe it is the end of the content of your mind, your intellect and logic seems small and contrite and no matter how many degrees and self satisfied you maybe, what wealth you have what status or regrets of failure the hungry mind like a thirsty hungry predator wants more or less and it then one can come to the realisation what if by chance or by courage I just let go of this constant bickering and dual facets of the mind after all the mind does not have any physical dimensions, the brain is a mere recorder, so why does this invisible energy field, like the waves of broadcasts have this dominion over me? Its a ghost I feel the effects of it and yet I cannot get my hands around its puny throat so to speak.
So one day one may see the absolute nothingness of thought, the ticket you bought when you were young and this inculcating took place, gullible, naïve, innocent and then stained perhaps by abuse, trauma or over dotting, protecting effusing love and shielding from harm all of this and other influences and then awakening 'I either see I am inculcated and I have been through this and seen it' Or I see I am imprisoned and limited by the content of my mind, I have come to the end of the content of my mind and even if I change the content of my mind, the furniture in the room, so to speak and bring in new furniture and then get bored and trapped by that, the honey moon is over, rather than destroy which may come to mind and live minimalistic with bare boards and a mattress so to speak, I may find that all of a sudden I realise there can be no edge to a bunch of thoughts as an ego, its a trap , its not real, I have to feel this viscerally as it were.
Suddenly you slide off the edge of your mind, the edge of reasoning, which is the end of logic and intellectual assumptions, you may feel you are mad for a while as the old you flounders in unchartered waters and tries vainly to set you back into the old order. Those close to you are startled 'you need help, go see your GP, see a shrink and so on' yet somehow you feel liberated, just a little shaky at first and then you feel less reliant on thought and logic and more to feel your way and another kind of nonlogical logic, named intuition and synchronicity seems to flow without effort and decisions instead of procrastination become more natural and smooth.
And you and I may join Lao Tzu in the Tao and Dao of things as the waters of Life offer us a raft to nowhere in particular.
SHACK aka GEOFF
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