SHACK 151 FANTASIES

Courtesy Life  Hope and Truth

 I feel that some fantasies arise from a disappointed ego. It is my view that the ego is composed of feelings before choice and understanding were available and hard wired into the nervous system and magnetic memory fields surrounding the body which are resonating from distant memory or incarnations as subtle energies minute and yet laying in wait for a signal to trigger the reaction. 

The ego then is exposed to teachings or influences persistently with repetition so as to implant and instil an idea, theory, attitude or practice, so the ego comprises of someone else's ideas and should at one time  one awakens to this realises that it is not real and is a sort of cloned mind indeed a conditioned mind. This can be a shock and then one can question 'if I am an acquired conditioned mind then this was my identity, however now without these layers of condoning, indeed these brain washed contents which became my reality and base, I recognise I have at this moment no reality and hence identity.. So who am I?

This awakening can lead to some trepidation, anxiety, turning to distractions, suicidal thoughts, depression and melancholy. There can be a remnant of ego, like the bits hard to clean and stick to the pan and it seems the more one tries to scrub the hard stuck speck it smears and distorts the surface leaving scratches and scars. The ego realises its foundation was never stable and real and it realises it has formed itself into a hard packed relentless entity and in some cases destroy the host even until death.  The disappointed ego vainly searches for an identity often through fantasy as to the life and achievements it never had, or could not do either through circumstances or parents who could not provide the means or stimulus to do so for their children. Poverty, homelessness, war and famine and even the wealthy through the lack of ambition or just living aimlessly through parties, running out of places to go and so on.

 The ego remnant runs wildly and seemingly endlessly in circles to seek a religion, a mantra, a drug, a fantasy it can hide in and live in and become mentally so addicted and obsessed that every day living becomes difficult, sleep is shredded and one may have to be taken to a a mental asylum because of not being able to cope with life and self harm.  

There is a possibility should one realise this as a self growth path leading to a spiritual path in order to find the identityless beingness of  no mind or so called enlightenment which then fantasies cease  naturally and the identity of no identity is there and it has no definition and yet feels safe and secure even though there is no explanation or description to cement a place or foundation. 

The tussle encountered by the so called 'spiritual warrior' is that outlined in Siddhartha Gautama Buddha under the Bodhi Tree he was tempted by Mara the demon of  illusion and desire tempting him from his quest. In the Aquarian Bible Jesus was tempted by a beautify maiden all of his desires were on fire and in another version he was in a temple where many maidens and treasures were displayed, he held fast to the ascension and Divinity.  Jesus was tempted by the devil who offered him the world upon  which Jesus stood and he said ' Get Behind me Satan' There are others who have detailed their similar experiences and many have arrived by kundalini fires of energy. It can be awakened through many ways, serious illness, accidents, severe loss, meeting with a wise person and just in some ways through the right time and in the right place and some by spontaneous synchronicity. 

However it seems fantasy may have the clues to this and some call this mind movies, the chattering mind, seeing reality as an illusion through the empty atom and so on, who knows when Mara is faced and then the battle to freedom. The battle is nearly always a mind based drama and I have seen various patients, friends have this awakening through hurtful relationships, landlords and neighbours who relentlessly torture with noise, insults, physical violence and so on, these either can drag one down and hopefully be dealt with in unfinished karma or business in the next incarnation. The ego fiercely defends itself as the ultimate authority and will not be denied or lessened. It therefore has to contend with other ego's and ultimately a planet or a humanity could be destroyed. 

By the way I have had the awakening but still tussle with the remnant and in some ways we can see this happening very clearly in the world condition today 2025, the wars, the old stories and promises by religion, politics, people weary of the same old, same old and yet not realising that this is the fantasy and history repeating itself. History maybe reincarnation  on a world scale.

SHACK   aka   GEOFF