SHACK 40185 GRATITUDE

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 Feeling grateful not for anything but the feeling of being grateful. Yes I am grateful for spontaneous gifts and favours and unexpected events that bring joy and all the gadgets that aid me and the neighbours and my carers, however when I feel the joy of gratefulness without any cause or something to bring about this feeling I feel it bodily, viscerally, a gut level heart deep chest feeling and suddenly clouds lift and I feel blessed and close to divinity.

The darkest hour and pain can be lifted out of its gloominess and desperation and the gift of this feeling helps me to raise my spirits and even the dark atmospheres of climate the the oppression of the worlds wars and woes are recognised but the feeling of the hopelessness is mitigated and the positive silver lining in the proverbial clouds will eventually bring about the changes that the human hearts and souls so pleadingly wish for.  

What of destiny, karma and fate? Does the Universe hold an account book or is it the inculcated hard fast rules and regulations that society and our own past upbringing bestow on us and the collective will conscious and unconscious subtly and grossly impose on us in our various so called individual way and perhaps out deep intuitive wisdom temporarily clouded by the mundane and media excitement fog that attempts to smear the  field of all knowing of the quiet mind.

So be it the mystery of the Universe, the Creation and the meditative stillness, does this bring about a solution and the answer to the mystery? However the feeling of gratefulness at this sublime level so to speak for me is the answer not in words or actions but on a level of understanding that is not so much human but divine.

SHACK     aka      GEOFF

SHACK 40184 ALIVE?

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I know not why I am alive? What is life anyway? Other  than my parents having me I cannot begin to think why the Universe should want to spawn me? When I question this and now flat bound and disabled after leading a hectic life of huge presentation's, teaching, healing and travelling, plane, car, train journeys, and now the compliment being, doing from being, not doing from doing.

Doing from doing suggest to me foisting by egoic means me dictating to Life my wants which maybe at odds with the Universe's, it maybe my wants are not needs and the lesson now is to watch without interference the hungry ghost ego demanding action and hectic or so called meaningful action, even although I feel I should be doing something to assist or help the world family?  

So to face boredom and not feel lonely and to allow help through carers who are kind and yet feel they at times creep into my private space, which I always protected. This brings home to me the the lessons I wrote about inculcation and 'nowhere to hang my hat' 'On having no identity' The empty Atom and mind and so from a huge intellectual and mind shaking, mind blowing AHA's which certainly rocked the boat so to speak and a few months of definite withdrawal symptoms bordering on feeling disconnected from everything to the edge of mind venturing into madness and realising the emptiness, the void of liberation and not an empty pit of dark negativity, nay this was the message of walk your talk and so be it. 

SHACK      aka       GEOFF

In the emptiness of no identity there is nothing to protect, the I, my is not present only what is? 

 

SHACK 40183 DISCOVERING THE TAO DAO IN SURBURBIA.

 

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Until about one year ago I was able to walk and be going hither and thither and then the Covid Jab did something to my nervous system and my left leg started to stiffen and an accident that ruptured my Achilles Tendon some two years previous started to really cause me to become lame in that leg, so much so I have to rely on a rollator device to walk at all. 

Then four months ago I fell and broke my right wrist and injured my left elbow. I am now disabled and have to have carers to assist me. From a very athletic and busy life to now being flat bound from activity of travelling all over Europe and to Canada, living wild in Spain and presenting 720 workshops, seeing 3,000 patients and doing a Forensic technicians job, many plane and train journeys and driving over 250,000 in my lovely Volvo car to suddenly face incapacity and at first despondency and boredom although I can do seated Qi Gong and still meditate my inside world as it were was on going however somehow the lack of outside stimuli seemed to bother me.  

I do not care for much TV and found myself watching a bit more than usual and the thought of being a couch potato bothered me and I then found that I seemed to have no goal or venture and what is my use by being here on the planet and not be able to contribute and help in these bleak times. Then what came to mind was what the Krishnamurthy said and my Sensei and Sifu, 'being alone with oneself just watch the mind wanting to grasp something, some thought, some distraction and like the hungry Ghost I have written about is never quite full' 'The mischievous monkey mind the inner dialogue and chatter' this has presented itself with utmost energy in order to get my attention solely captivated by some distraction. I realise that which many a wise person has said, just to sit and contemplate, cogitate and meditate and is only one side of the coin so to speak, I also treated clients who were serene and contemplative by nature because of their spiritual disciplines and practises but were deeply disturbed when their ego or strong emotions or worldly events presented themselves to them.  I remember a great Judoka Gunji Koizumi the so called Father of British Judo and I asked him for a name for our local Judo club in Hendon and he said Shindokwai and  do not forget the physical practice as well as the meditation.

A great lesson for me is to receive and let help and assistance be Ok. it did not sit with me easily, I am a great giver and did not like to receive and I realised way back I am in control as a giver and to receive is opening to another and be in their debt as it were and be vulnerable and appear weak, now I am more open and transparent and realise the opportunity without meditation just by being aware of the 'hungry Ghost Ego' trying to grab the next attractive glamorous object and tinsel and the  urge to spend on gadgets and tech. I could see and can feel the pull of materialism and the urge of AI to make things appear as real just as the mind conjures up its fantasies and cravings and this reminds me of the Buddha being tempted with every distraction and holding fast to the illusion of life as it were and seeing it for what it is the dream of seduction and Jesus in the New Aquarian Bible being tempted by the temple and the most difficult beautiful maidens and lustful scenarios and in the 'ordinary' bible so to speak Jesus being tempted by the devil and showing him the world and saying bow to me and all this is yours and his reply get behind me Satan. The buddha in his Palace with all servants young and his family wearing make up and he managed to get out and saw an old man and death and then becoming a wondering sort of searcher and living the hardships of the simple life of nature and rough sleeping and simple food.

Yes I can see I want a mission to be useful, just sitting and sitting and friends saying your holding the light, no, I am not controlling what I want to do, to do nothing and let Life present itself to me and not me tell life what it should do for me. Here again the trap of doing giving and not sitting back so to speak and Let Life lead me The Tao and Dao lead me this then is when the mind is void and empty and I have nothing to do with it. I know I don't know but when I need to know I will know. What a wonderful opportunity tro watch the grasping and gasping, the slowness of the disability, the pain and the surrender to the situation what a lesson and I am grateful to Life for this seemingly new chapter and the journey it may offer.

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In Buddhism, hungry ghosts, or pretas, are beings who are tormented by desire that can never be sated. Pretas, or “hungry ghosts,” are beings who are tormented 

SHACK     aka     GEOFF

SHACK 4182 INTERCONNECTEDNESS

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WE may think and believe we are a unique and a separate being in some ways yes and in other ways no. From a human logical position we see a tree ourselves and other objects as a stand alone feature. Looking at Nature through an instrument is not nature itself, the map is not the the feel of being in the map' actual physical territory.

Actually looking or observing through an instrument is open to interpretation as to our experiences in life or training in science or religious indoctrination.

At the Atomic or Eastern Philosophic meditative view we and the natural Universe are the outcome of numerous interactions and these interactions produce the outcome of the form. There is every possibility and probability at the quantum level and that the mystery of the selection if it is a selection or random or creative intelligence like all things atomic and meditative is intuitive and free flowing and with the constant 'bombardment' of particle collisions may appear an accidental chaotic random process, however are we sure it is, after all the observer or now named the participator is a conscious entity and just could be the conscious participant is the unconscious influencer as it were of the selected form?  (see observer in the two slit experiment---recommend Cartoon Version Dr Quantum You Tube)

Viewing a link in a chain is the separate view and then what makes the chain a chain is the addition of several links. Maybe if one has never seen a link and observing one may question what is this object? Then when many links are joined the mystery maybe solved we may not know what this chain is for but it serves a purpose and use and later on it will reveal its purpose and use and as we maybe a link and not realise we are a link in the chain in the process of a sequence and series of interactions we are indeed the outcome of many interactions and this process is not static it is constantly jiggling and jumping at the quantum level and human interactions that the inevitability of new forms arising maybe slow to us humans but at that mysterious quantum level so to speak this dynamic process maybe giving birth in a process named evolution and awaiting the right timing  for gestation.

Perhaps the five mass extinctions and the impending sixth extinction (or New Age Aquarius) is the brewing and the restless of human activity at this time is or are the pregnancy and birthing process, the hormone activity of the birth process reflective in chaos or the teenage puberty and adolescents (adrenarche) equivalent or similarity. Like the caterpillar entering the chrysalis and the metamorphic or alchemy that results in the butterfly. Perhaps this is what will be needed for Homo Spiritulana Energetica to appear fully fledged on Earth and is occurring now with the Ascension process.

SHACK    aka       Geoff