SHACK 782 DO I

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Do I feel safe without an Identity?  Yes. Why so? Because to me a fixed identity means a reality that seems solid and abiding, whereas deep within me and what I witness in the Universe and Earth especially at this time of the pandemic in 2020 of every day news of thousands infected and thousands dying, although there is a controversy because in any influenza year thousands die and yet it is not generally mentioned.

I champion the impermanence of things so called material, mechanical and mind sets, they pass and change and death carries away the physical experience of them all, whether the memories pass over with the fleeing consciousness, whether there is no after life and oblivion and whether there is reincarnation is really a side issue because whilst alive it seems real and solid and the reality of this affords an identity and this lays out a platform to stand on and relative safety and security and yet the nagging thought of the demise and the grim reaper may undermine that and so many distractions and buried tamped down thoughts may shake the foolproof safeguards and ploys to offset this latent fear.

So coming to terms that one's identity is but a hook to hold one's reality on and if contemplated and debated one could shift the hook to another favourable choice, however it will be as unsustainable as the former one.

So could realising that not having a permanent 'hook reality identity' and really seeing this through and really experiencing the apparent emptiness, the gap vacated by the hook / identity be that boring and depressing that is imagined and just a touch of this void be that disastrous and like wading into the sea or stepping tentatively into the hot bath or cold shower and on relaxing and getting used to floating free as it were one could find its really quite OK.

One does not have to defend the choice of identity accept those who say one should have an identity and that one is a prevaricator or some such thing, however the freedom on experiencing this 'no hook' makes up for the harassment or oddball that others may aim at one. 

So do I ---no I don't.

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SHACK 781 EXPECTATIONS

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I have written so much about programming, conditioning, brain washing and the like and through the aforesaid there arises from it expectations; some may have pressure to live up to those expectations such as success in the commercial world, political achievements, scientific accolades, religious and spiritual notoriety, a sporting personality and of course a wonderful marriage and children and a multitude of successes and achievements. To most in the world's population success especially in the eyes others is the height of one's life and the go to for happiness and even a quiet contemplative life of the laity and clergy as say distinct from tramps, hermits and off grid folk.

However I have never lived up to my families expectations or those  of friends and relationships or girlfriend, wife or partner and have always been regarded as odd, eccentric and to many a failure in the world's standards and norms, whatever they are supposed to be.

I have even not lived up to my own former fantasies, endeavours,  wishes and really have never fulfilled anything I set out to do in the world.  The NDE in 1942 set me aside from any worldly endeavour as I was keen to see what it was and knew instinctively it was not of this world, I was beset by ill health up to the age of thirteen and a weakly child and not robust, not even now at 81 yrs of age. So to many I failed and to myself at times. I was a great pretender and yet could not live up to that pretence.

Not to say I was a liar and deceitful but just not could fulfil wordily goals and pursuits. One could look at all the workshops and travels, the patients, the electrician and then the forensics then the failed relationships and family estrangement and this seemed a doomed sorry unfulfilled life. For even the workshops, the travels in Europe and Canada, four years spent in sabbaticals (some unpaid) there was this nagging feeling this is not it.

 It wasn't to be, I was forced through severe illness in 2000 until 2002 that I realised that all these failures were giving me a message, these so called failures were driving me to realise that the world and its achievements regarding success were not for me as in SHACK 781 they would have been my 'hook' these perceived failures were my blessing, they were pushing me to realise my identity of no identity and were driving me towards being an 'unhooked being' so to speak. Had I have been 'successful' in any of the above worldly (may I say that being successful in wordily achievements maybe for many their destiny and karma) achievements I would have then been hooked and might have been grounded in a reality that appeared permanent and solid but for this life it was not in destiny and karma to be so.

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The unseen hand has its own way in the lives of humans and moves in mysterious ways. SHACK 

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SHACK 780 BOX

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There is a saying 'step outside the box' which suggests that that one steps outside the familiar mind sets in order to catch an original concept design or paradigm.

Familiarity is a hard task master in some ways, it can give a feeling  of security and a kind of love for it and feel safe in its arms and for some that's OK and perhaps a feeling of being adequate and some pondering might there maybe be more.

To really step outside the box one needs to shed any inkling of what might be there, if anything at all. For the slightest inkling might be only a smidgen no matter how detached and non judgemental one thinks one has been it is still tainted and based on the past which is the box.

To be truly outside the box one  has to 'be in empty mind, a mind in a meditative manner and free from thought'. I have gone into this at length elsewhere many times in SHACK'S. Then originality arises spontaneously and sychronistically.

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SHACK 779 REPEATS

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This song by Bob Dylan has a great message and yet I can only add a few words that came to me as well after hearing this many times; it reminds of reincarnation how many times and rounds of incarnations experiencing so many things from beggars to villains, from Kings to paupers, from vagabonds, hermits, tramps to multi millionaires, from long life to death at birth and even in the womb, from every conceivable relationship and maybe some surmise as a mineral, plant, animal / fish / bird to a fallen angel and so on, millions and trillions and trillions of trillions all taking on some form be it gross or fine, etheric or dense materialistic seemingly impenetrable substance and even other dimensional an extra planetary life and forms. Plus all of the habits which are repeats and in a way incarnate-ery.

All of this from the creative fount of the Source of All Life that is if that is one's predilection, however all arise in atoms, particles and they from a common source. Maybe an accident as some claim and with no purpose a random act of spontaneity arising from no intelligence or cause or from an Intelligent Design and Creative Intelligence.      

Maybe the creative source got lost in its own creation and seeks to find its own source of itself and its identity and by finding its own identity may feel at one with itself and rest in that, or now it has found itself perhaps feels lonely as the one and only or on the other hand may feel so content and fulfilled  and wants to share this with its creation and since it feels it is an Intelligence as it were and not visible to itself, in fact, a mystery to itself, it seeks proof in being visible and so creates a form out of itself and trust this form will be able to prove its invisibility by finding the form on awakening to its source as invisible and so confirming to its creator 'I have found Myself and it as You'.

So how many identities do I have to shed to come to realise my Essence and that my lovely body and Nature with Mother Earth, the stars, the planets, the Comets are but temporary transient bodies and that everything known and unknown lives in impermanent forms and their atoms, particles which are the building blocks, the Meccano set, the Leggo and jigsaw pieces, dissolve back to the apparent non intelligent empty non visible source or to the living dynamic consciousness of their creator.

The salient point being not to get caught up in an identifiable identity as one can get stuck and attached and so limit the flow of life and experiences to arrive on Life's conveyor belt.  The moving finger having written moves on.

Quote by Omar Khayyám : “The Moving Finger writes; and ...

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“The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ, Moves on: nor all thy Piety nor Wit. Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line, Nor all thy Tears wash out a Word of it.”

Lyrics

How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
How many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind
The answer is blowin' in the wind

Yes, 'n' how many years can a mountain exist
Before it is washed to the sea?
Yes, 'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head
And pretend that he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind
The answer is blowin' in the wind

Yes, 'n' how many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, 'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, 'n' how many deaths will it take 'til he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind
The answer is blowin' in the wind

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Bob Dylan

Blowin’ In The Wind lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, Audiam, Inc

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SHACK 778 PASS

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SHACK 777 FRIGHT

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What is there to fear only the fear of thoughts, those thoughts that produce a 'bad taste in the mouth' 'the squashed diaphragm' 'the dry mouth' 'the quenched buttocks' 'the sore arse' 'that sickening feeling'

the fear of fear, the fearing of feeling fear that is the harbinger of anxiety and disquiet. 

These thoughts / emotive / feelings can pop up in the mind as uninvited guests and may seem random but some external symbol may activate them such a sound, aroma, touch a familiar face, a weather pattern and a host of many things. Then the mind becomes fixed almost to a point of obsessiveness. 

These thoughts and attendant feelings are more than likely habitual and if harboured become abject fear and as such stick like mud and become hardened and difficult to remove or deal with.

Ask yourself; do you need them, what use are they to you, do they serve you, do they enrich your life or impede yourself?

They can serve to make us more negative, cynical, sceptic and mistrusting and is this what you  really want?

Some people may find this reassuring as it keeps people out and is like a safety mechanism of keeping people at a distance and not forming meaningful friendships.

So is fear useful;well caution can be useful to ward off real danger, also fear can destroy natural intuitive instinct and to trust oneself, so one has to be alert and aware and should one be able to examine fear when it arises, one may find, if one can look at it by taking deep breaths and looking at it undauntedly and unbiased as possible and feel the grip loosen and gradually relax the tension and see the fear for what it is-- perhaps an old conditioned response and reaction that has become habitual and as such has well out grown its sell by date.

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SHACK 776 REALLY

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ITS JUST A FEELING

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