WILL IT EVER END---YES
WILL IT EVER STOP---YES
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?
THE MOMENT ONE STOPS, IT CREATES ITS OPPOSITE
SWING THE PENDULUM, THE SEESAW
BUT THIS IS INSTABILITY
YES BUT IT IS ALSO CALLED BALANCE.
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Friday, 12 October 2018
SHACK 419 SAFE
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YOU ARE CRAZY, MAD AND INSANE
BY WHOSE STANDARDS DO YOU QUALIFY SANITY?
ITS ALL DECIDED BY COMFORTABLE AGREEMENTS
AND THEY CAN
STUNT THE GROWTH FOR THE FEAR OF ANARCHY AND INSECURITY
MIND YOU YOU DON'T KNOW IF YOU HAVEN'T TRIED
SCARED TOO?
WHO IS IT THAT IS SCARED ?
YOU MIGHT FIND OUT THE ANSWER TO THAT IS LIBERTY AND FREEDOM
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SHACK 418 OH LORD
WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?
ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE
FOR NOWHERE DOES NOT EXIST EITHER
DEFINE HERE
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SHACK 417 FUNNY?
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Maybe the ego is a Cosmic joke of make believe,
here today and gone tomorrow, a sort of peep ho game. Because the ego is made up of ‘fashion of the
day’ the Cosmos needs to believe its own creation. As all things created are a creation of the
mind and the Cosmos has a mind as well, it may well find doubt and try to
solidify its own creation as eternal and forever long live the king so to
speak.
The human ego is a splinter off of the block and
it comprehends at a deep fundamental level (if ever one probes that far, and
how far is the depth in a mind? –just a thought away) that it is transient,
expedient and temporary and so its creator at the Cosmic Level may fear the
same dilemma.
Maybe the Cosmos was a creation of something
beyond all forms of self, we see the forms of the Cosmos but not the mind
behind it, if the mind behind it is aware of its fragility, then all is well,
if it is not then it lives through its creation and becomes victim to
insecurity and searches for that security and solidness that humans do.
We may go through this rigmarole ‘I am not as real
as I thought I was’ ‘my real nature is
only a thought an idea?’ ‘I only thought I was real’ So in the end I only
thought I am in existence and I only thought up this idea and so on, many question
their purpose and existence.
So the endless round of reincarnation, cycles and
spirals continue until the realisation of it all dawns --------there is no point in
doing it all over again---however we will do it all over again and again---and
you know why? Well to find out why we do
it over and over again.
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SHACK 415 OUT AND OUT
I am writing myself out of existence, forcing
myself into a corner, pressurising the ego, compressing it and no way out. No
way out of what? Out of itself and what is this self?
This self is a human made set of concepts that
shift and change with the ages. These are mental constructs and have no reality, although we believe them so, they shift
with cultures, politics, science, fashion and societies madness and extremes.
None of these are long lasting and real. It seems that the physical universe is
not lasting and real and it is always moving and evolving a creation in
continual process, and to some who wish to make it stationary and everlasting it
causes uncertainty and insecurity.
Humans prefer familiarity and to cling to a safe
place and to familiar forms yet old age, change, loss of one’s capabilities
prove the uncertainty of life at times. So is it better to die now----not
suicide and despair---not necessarily a physical death, however dive beneath
the uncertainty and fear of shifting platforms of seemingly solid foundations
and see behind as it were the flotsam and jetsam of the panorama of endless
change and evolution.
What then is old, death, birth, rotting flesh of a
deceased body, hankering after gold and security? These are but phantoms on the
endless journey to who knows where? The secret is learning to live in harmony
with change and uncertainty.
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SHACK 414 EMPTY OR NOT?
Out of the emptiness of oneself and there is only
one self that is all of us and everything appearing to be many, there comes a
realisation of the magic of illusion and make believe. Make believe everything is forever and on
firm ground and with no mystery.
Everything is a mystery; why was I born? Yes sure my parents copulated or maybe some
were test tube children with a sperm donor and yet somehow you arrived.
Then this organism may get ill, falls in love (how
can one fall in love if one is love? Ouch) and so many activities humans do to
many extremes and still the answer to why is life, life, the Universe vast and
massive, enormous and powerful, why the sun, the moon, why and how, how? Maybe
an intellectual answer, however the mind is limited by the content of its
learning and experience and this changes in the course of time.
What lies behind the mind or should I say behind
the graphics that appear on the screen of mind may provide a few tentative
answers which of course provokes more questions. One can go quite mad banging one’s head on
the wall of intellect and logic for the answers.
Can infinity and eternity have defined answers?
----If so the definition has to be as spacious as infinity and as long as
eternity. To define these two aspects
which maybe one aspect is the fuel for the quest and one often hears that
enlightenment is the answer, it is only the first step on the ladder to
nowhere, it is the starting line, it is the bait for the seeker , and when the
seeker realises that infinity is eternity the seeker also realises there is no
answer and there is no reason and in that giving up has found that space that
is what the seeker has been looking for and as there is nothing found or seen
and yet fulfilled with the experience of this space for it an alive dynamic
consciousness then one has found the unlimited space---and is satisfied to
reside there because the realisation dawns ‘I am the Space I have been looking
for’
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SHACK 413 AGAIN,AGAIN
When one gets into atoms and stuff and really take in the fact that atoms are 99.99% empty and something apparently arises from this near empty state you come to a realisation that is a magic trick and sleight of mind(hand) and it appears real and collapses like the rabbit out of the magicians hat and it is for the delight of the magician and one may inquire who is this magician? ----why you of course---and what's more the audience as well.
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SHACK 412 AGAIN!!?
On the edge of reason and insanity one may ask? Who
is there to go insane and what does sanity mean?
The edge of reason whatever that means is non
conformity to education, religion, science, politics, culture and the so called
norms of societies agreed conventions and rules. These laws, norms and rules, social
conventions and etiquettes are much the same difference. They keep the herd and the populace in check so called survival and safety and in the main have a fair
deal of success.
A slight degree of deviation is accepted as either
mentally ill, a genius, need for change because of challenge and adaptability
but generally in small degrees any major deviance that breaches the laws then
sets one on course for imprisonment or execution.
The danger to all these above scenarios is the one
who has been stripped of many of the trappings and conditionings, brain washing
and stifling hypnotic advertising and is considered not ‘known’, not mad, doesn't break the rules seems compassionate and yet not understood and cannot
be boxed and compartmentalised. Such a
one has gone over the edge of reason or everything and is in a position to be free of
rules and yet obeys them with a natural instinct because such a one has found
all abiding compassion and how can one define that, because if it is definable
then it is limited by logic and reason and they are subject to the conditioning
of the culture and age one abides in----so where does one find such a mind?
--------In the Self.
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SHACK 411 STRANGER THAN
A gentle whisper, a sort of inner voice without
sound, it is a calling through the mists of illusion and delusion and through
the tangled jungle of the mind and is calling one home.
The ravages of the mind that played havoc with the
body are slowly giving way to a peace, a lovely soft place to lay the head and
allay the fears.
Hopefully one will become so sick, bored and so
weary of seeking love, rest, security and peace with this endless media frenzy,
hype, materialism, fashion, celebrity status, political power and strength
through aggression and military power, dogma, austerity and poverty, rape,
torture and brutality that the weary traveller will look no more to the outside
seduction that is the thief of the mind and the hope is one will seek a more
realistic mind which will consist resting in the quiet mind with a relaxed body
and not see life through rose tinted glasses but by the balm of inner peace and
the simplicity of joy and bliss not through being high on substances or hype
but by finding the self.
The ego like the bored TV viewer with thousands of
films and channels, documentaries, the internet browsing, cars with satnavs,
apps and so much information that the hungry ego’s library is in constant
upgrades, reconfigurations that the virtual world and who one really is, is in
conflict and gets lost in the fog and glamour and distraction and so in death
or reincarnated back into the illusion of confusion as to who one really is.
The graphics in the library of illusion, the box
sets, the seeming limitless films, videos, colour, noise, violence and slushy
romance, super heroes, violent space aliens, sadistic masochistic pornographic images, real live
action war scenes, with action as it happens in real time(as if there is such a
thing as real time) all displayed and believed to be real and therefore
believed to be reality, but in essence mind stuff a fabulous substitute for
reality and if there maybe a real ’solid’ reality whatever that maybe.
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SHACK 410 ANOTHER QUESTION
Can one go deeper in the space that is oneself?
What appears to be just a stream of something coming through a hole into a
vessel open at both ends, whether it is thoughts or just being.
There isn't a perceptible movement in this space
and no seeming motivation almost as if one is suspended in an ocean. In this ocean
one is no longer one. When ripples arise
in the ocean, one may be just a ripple, a wave and so is co joined and yet
individual.
There is no individual movement like link in a
chain one link is stimulated the whole chain reverberates and in the ocean one
wave produces an oceanic effect and is seamless., it's almost like a hive matrix.
A kind of super mind filtered down and transformed to the individual and yet
joined by the stream and in some ways separate and yet individual.
The usual physical and mental habits, routines and
disciplines, the demands of the ego seem to be suspended and a period of
adjustments needed to support disorientation as an effect of the experience and
may prompt the question----who am I doing this for, is it for me or the
collective?
First find out who the who is and then the doing answers
itself.
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SHACK 409 ENDLESS
It seems there is no end to the stream of life
through me in this incarnation, it feels as though a cork has blown and a hole
appeared in my being this was an experience on 20th July 2017, it
felt a short circuit or some major reconfiguration as if something had widened
a hole or loosened my fontanelles and some neuronal adjustments made and in
process.
I spent the day wandering, being nowhere in
particular, eating a lot of junk food and spending more than budget allowed and
the next day I was exhausted, restless and in a strange unfamiliar place, a
place of no place and my ego mind not finding itself in the remains and shards
of this shattering.
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SHACK 408 QUESTION
Who am I doing this for? If I am a temporary being, a dream, just a
idea and that dissolves disappears and is no more, so why bother? Does it
matter if life is a mystery , whether it was a big bang a dream and then who is
the dreamer, does it really matter?
The answer may lie somewhere between it does and
it doesn't matter, does that help? Well
not really, so what are you going to do now? If I give up, what is there to
give up, if I don’t give up, what is there to seek, if I bury my head in the
sand I bury my curiosity and if I do that I will never know the truth, then
again if it all temporary and expedient maybe there isn't an answer and I have
merely created a problem to prove I exist.
Then on death where is the mortal that lived in
that mortal coil? So was it all a conjurers trick and the Cosmic Magician at
work and the ‘I’ that thought it was real and solid was just a sleight of hand
of the Cosmic Magician, a rabbit out of the hat-----question; who is the Cosmic
Magician? Is it a magician who is trying to
find out who it is, so here we are back in the mobus strip and still perplexed and ask is there an answer to all this?
Definitely not it would stop the creator instinct,
the great cycles of evolution and perpetual motion and that is the essence of
the mystery in itself.
So is there ever an answer to any of the
questions, yes more questions in order to keep the show on the road and the
ball rolling---only you can decide---question who is this you that
decides---and how did you become a you?
Is it any clearer now? If it is pray tell me. If
no then we are off again, where are you going dear searcher -----absolutely
nowhere and that is about as much an answer or near to it as one can get, then
we return and are back who is this ‘I’ that seeks an answer.
Rest easy and have a cup of tea. There that wasn't so bad at all was it? You’re
kidding. Yike and Yuck.
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Monday, 1 October 2018
SHACK 407 INSANE
YOU THINK BECAUSE YOU ARE FALLING APART
YOU ARE GOING INSANE
MOST PERSONAL AGENDAS ARE
YOUR BETTER OFF WITHOUT A 'ME' HISTORY OR AGENDA
BE AWARE AND NOT REFORM THE 'ME' AGAIN
WATCH OUT FOR THE SUBTLE TRAPS
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Its only the agendas and programmes, the conditioning and brain washing that is falling apart,
you cannot fall apart. SHACK
Its only the agendas and programmes, the conditioning and brain washing that is falling apart,
you cannot fall apart. SHACK
SHACK 406 OH MY!
WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?
YOUR'E FINDING OUT THERE ISN'T A ME
DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY
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SHACK 405 SURE
I EXIST-----ISN'T THAT ENOUGH?
ARE YOU SURE YOUR SURE
WHAT IS EXISTENCE?
THEN YOU ARE NOT SURE
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SHACK 404 CIRCLES
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Going around in ever decreasing circles trying to find the beginning of endless circles.
A dog trying to catch its tail.
The beginning is the end and vice versa
What am I bothering about this for?
It really doesn't matter for life is that fleshly dream in a troublesome body and everything in form
arises and perishes.
It will always be a myself and that is what keeps the ball rolling and the show on the road.
The point is for whose entertainment?
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SHACK 403 PUZZLE
I'D REALLY LIKE TO KNOW THE ANSWER TO 'WHO AM I'?
SO WOULD I
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SHACK 402 ANSWER PLEASE
DriveURLLife
QUESTION;
WHAT IS IT THAT HAPPENS THAT CAUSES A 'TOO' TO HAPPEN TOO
AND WHO IS THIS 'TOO' ANYWAY
IF IT ISN'T THERE AND IS A GHOST IN THE MACHINE
ITS ENOUGH TO DRIVE YOU CRAZY
THEN AGAIN WHO IS THIS YOU?
I NEVER KNOW WHETHER IT IS A 'TOO'
OR A 'TO'
YUCK
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SHACK 339 SOUL SUPPLY
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The Soul Matrix
Has everything I need
For My Well Being
If I allow it and open to it
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SHACK 338 BODY FAT
My body fat makes me feel heavy and I clutch it
around my lower abdomen.
It says to me you are here and are heavy and
grounded.
Eat more stuff, although I am on a fairly good
diet, its is reassuring me I am here, solid, a body, good!
When I had suspected lung cancer, a consultant
told me this because I had lost so much weight ‘eat, gain weight, you are so
thin losing weight rapidly’
So I associated weight gain as healthy, now many
years later weight is threatening, the difference now is I do not feel this is the issue, for now I have heavy thoughts.
So how much do thoughts weigh?
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SHACK 337 HOLDING ON
I’m
doing everything I can to hold onto this form.
Pills, exercises, diets, fear of illness and
facing the unknown.
My life is safe as it was before, at least I knew
where I was and although at times not pleasant it was reluctantly acceptable.
I’m in a nice flat, just got enough money to
survive and yet mentally, psychologically there is a turmoil gong on at just
under the surface levels so to speak. I am not depressed just wondering. I know
I am in chaos and it’s OK because I recognise that it is leading me to a fundamental deep change and will make space for something to arise or subside.
It doesn't matter if this form doesn't make it as a physical renewal, it is the
process that is important, for that process is beyond my ken.
Glimpses of the possibility of letting ‘deep life
alchemy' take place is exciting and yet fearful, these glimpses taunt and tease
me and the only encouragement in this process of radical change at the cellular
level. The dissolving old me as it were
shudders at its demise and there is a space which is filled with mourning and
withdrawal.
Maybe this change is so fundamental there may not
be a me as such.
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SHACK 336 UNEASY
Concretemixed.wordpress.com
It’s not easy as you touch your body, hug your
partner and children, cut your finger, have joint pains, get sick, have a win
in a gambling session, eat delicious food, make love, have highs and lows, the
weather, wars, history, religion,
science all confirming we are and solid, real, this is it, when you die where do you go if there is a you, so have a great time now, no regrets
as this solid lump of a body and concrete world just crumbles and then
oblivion.
Then there are a bunch of scientists telling us we
are a bunch of atoms that are more or less empty and even more incredible at
the atomic level most aspects of it are unpredictable. It’s enough to send a
good man to drink!!!
Spiritualists and psychics, some gurus and masters
tell us we are eternal beings which are only temporarily housed in a human and
on death the real me is released. So the
essence of life takes residence in the human form and rejoins the mainstream
life energy. Then there is this notion
that solids of various objects organic or not organic are like for instance; an
atom being a sardine and all forms are different packed sardines in various
densities. When we die we merely become less packed and have a more transparent
body, spaces between the sardines.
So what formed the sardine(s) brought them
together in a tin, the tin being analogous with any form chosen and it is said
this is the higher self or soul, which is like a chip off of the old block.
Be that as it may all of the above are
explanations and choices of which there are many more. Which one appeals, most likely the ones that
fit the life experiences and afford a modicum of safety and pleasure with a
foundation, a sound base and platform to build a life around.
Since this world and its commodity for change and
at best uncertainty although ones choice has safety nets and insurances, one
way of certainty is to make a friend of change.
The here today and gone tomorrow, here a while-----enjoy----let go----move
on, perhaps this approach allows for the ever new to arrive, it does not allow
stagnation for stagnation forces change reluctantly as it decays and causes
extreme consternation.
The Universe is in constant flux and change albeit it can be millions of years down to weeks, days and minutes depending on the form
created and the life styles and spans of years of that style and is arbitrary.
Maybe the lesson from this is to accept change
when it arrives, perhaps not to encourage it for living as life has it, then
life has it’s own way to do it for one, the growth from foetus to senior life shows us
this, the increments of change maybe chaotic in its ‘spurts’ of the growth and
the in-between stages as the form sheds its debris to build the new form.
As an example the dissolving process of change as
in foetus to baby to childhood to adolescence then to senior life and beyond
and all that accompanies this in hormonal change and the like can be
challenging.
At these times being relaxed, breathing gently and
fully in a Yogic and Qi Gong Way, stretching and attuning to the body one may
begin to feel with sensitivity brought about by a listening feeling approach a
faint almost imperceptible ‘a deep fundamental movement, a process in process’,
utmost patience is required.
At these particular times upheavals and certain
level of chaos are apparent, these maybe alchemical in its performance to
facilitate the new form and perhaps if one accepts this part of the process and
to wait patiently observe quietly without judgement, for opinion may alter the
course of the deep process which is beyond everyday senses and expect the
unexpected and who knows it maybe exactly what is the best for everyone
everywhere.
For sure if one view is everything is solid and
immovable until collapses with old age and decrepit dotage then indeed it is
uneasy and makes one squirm
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SHACK 335 WE ARE WHAT !!!?
Why is it important to grasp the fact and really
absorb, let it sink in as deeply and completely as possible, that in the study
of vibrations, frequencies and wavelengths that we are only vibrations,
frequencies decoded by an organic computer to assume reality, we are an organic
TV in essence we are the invisible wavelengths in space hitting the aerial
attuned to the frequencies that make us believe we are an organic solid form.
We are an idea, a series of thoughts and
frequencies and sequences held together by thought which make the blue prints
of intelligent design.
This is important because once this is realised and
seen as reality, it begs the question, why hold onto a set of virtual reality
simulated illusions? It could make war and acquisition redundant. But the mind is
so enamoured with make believe it feels to realise this means giving up one’s
perceived reality and that would mean death.
The opposite is more like reality, realising one lives in a virtual
world and programmes of a decoded organic computer then suspend the reality and
find where the broadcasts are coming from in the reality of realities.
The key player in this is a Central Intelligence
Agency which for the want of a better word is the Higher Self or Soul, it over
lights the human form and is a plug, a kind of transformer and battery charger
and is a vibratory link with interface with the Intelligence of The Cosmos, if
you like a local motherboard in the organic brain computer.
The brain receiving these vibrations, forms neural
pathways to accommodate the vibratory sequences and frequencies and apportion
then appropriately.
This
is beautifully put by an eminent physicist; The stream of knowledge is heading towards a
non-mechanical reality; the Universe begins to look more like a great thought
than like a great machine. Mind no longer appears to be an accidental intruder
into the realm of matter... we ought rather hail it as the creator and governor
of the realm of matter.
In an interview published in The Observer (London
I incline to the idealistic theory that
consciousness is fundamental, and that the material universe is derivative from
consciousness, not consciousness from the material universe... In general the
universe seems to me to be nearer to a great thought than to a great machine.
It may well be, it seems to me, that each individual consciousness ought to be
compared to a brain-cell in a universal mind.
What remains is in any
case very different from the full-blooded matter and the forbidding materialism of the Victorian scientist. His objective and
material universe is proved to consist of little more than constructs of our
own minds. To this extent, then, modern physics has moved in the direction of
philosophic idealism. Mind and matter, if not proved to be of similar nature,
are at least found to be ingredients of one single system. There is no longer
room for the kind of dualism which has haunted philosophy
since the days of Descartes.
Finite picture whose
dimensions are a certain amount of space and a certain amount of time; the
protons and electrons are the streaks of paint which define the picture against
its space-time background. Traveling as far back in time as we can, brings us
not to the creation of the picture, but to its edge; the creation of the
picture lies as much outside the picture as the artist is outside his canvas.
On this view, discussing the creation of the universe in terms of time and space
is like trying to discover the artist and the action of painting, by going to
the edge of the canvas. This brings us very near to those philosophical systems
which regard the universe as a thought in the mind of its Creator, thereby
reducing all discussion of material creation to futility.
So leading on from the above and the paragraphs
above what are we? We are a thought in a mind, a set of vibrations in a sea of vibrations;
a dream in a dreamer who has as far as is known has no visible corporeal body and
is in its essence a vibratory entity.
What name can we give this entity, God, the source? And if we are Its dream and creation what are
we then?
Can this prove life after human death or death at
large for other forms?; If one goes along with vibratory life, life being
vibrations, frequencies caused by the ripple through space by a Central
Intelligence then it stands to reason to state that the human form which is
compacted atoms (99.99% is space) like ice to water, water to steam and then
vapour and so on, that our life experiences are vibratory as well and held
together by an entity called the ego, so on the dissolution of the body, the
ego programme goes back to join the ocean of vibration, this is named by some
as the spirit body which mediums and psychic refer too and can contact, their
brains being attuned by light trance and altered vibratory state of
consciousness. The human body then is dense packed atoms or denser spirit body.
Bearing in mind the ego does not like to perish
and always wants to fulfil itself whether a life of misery, after all it was
the only life it knew or a wonderful life and all stations in between, being a
vibratory programme like a TV, Radio broadcast will be attracted to those on
Earth that could host it, hence rebirth and reincarnation, a problem may arise
although the hosts (the parents) maybe the original oversight from the world of
‘spirit’ had the best intentions, life for the host may have different
indications if by chance a tragedy, a calamity a world event, illness and so on alters the original plan.
This would lead to more trauma or disappointment
for the incumbent young soul and produce more conflict or unresolved issues and
so causes issues upon issues and so layers are built up and they maybe so
impacted that many rounds have to happen in order for a release and better incarnation next time.
Perhaps an awakening is needed; many awakenings
happen in many ways not just spiritually facilitated; shocks, illness, loss,
gain and so on and of course following a ‘spiritual’ quest.
Those who subscribe to the above may wish to clear
their ego programme as far as the needs for daily living and so when they leave
the tightly packed atomic vibratory form that is the human body and their
programmes are not matched or attuned to any standing Earth programme they may
go to the Ocean and their finer more subtle energy signatures and codes go to
another dimensional abode commensurate to a vibratory place of ‘residence’.
Of course the old question comes up; who created
the first ripples, the vibrations that went forth and caused standing waves and
interference patterns, where did the first thoughts come from? Of course holy
books will tell you God, how did God arrive and who Created God and if there
was a God Creator who created him / her / it and so on. Then there was an accident a
big bang, and accidents have a cause and so on.
The idea for this mystery is to keep the ball
rolling and when you get an answer please let the world know----but you will
have to prove it beyond all doubt. You maybe one million trillion percent
convinced but how about others?
It’s best to keep quiet if you really know because
any explanation is based on thought and that is always full of twists and
turns.
If you really, really, know, well congratulations
and I hope you can live with it.
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SHACK 334 RESIDENCE
Walking around the halls of residence the halls,
doors and rooms are numbered and labelled. One becomes familiar with the layout;
the lecture theatres, the classrooms, the dining rooms and the academics
studies and residences.
Then it was decided to refurbish an alter certain
buildings and though some entrances and approaches were the same some of the
numbering and locations were different.
I took time not to go to the previous room and
places, many of us would find us going automatically to where they were before
and suddenly pulling up short---oh no it’s changed ---where the dickens is it
now.
How strange a habit born out of familiarity is, it
becomes a route and automatic thing, ones awareness is suspended and we go
automatically like a pre planned programme of a robot.
Many of us go through life not questioning
following unconsciously our routines and disciplines. We wake up when these are challenged,
transport strikes, some disaster, an
unusual event, our reaction maybe one of resignation, frustration or philosophical,
or we could be in denial, fearful, angry, violent, or search for a solution in the hall
of residence of our mind archives.
In contrast to this in meditation and going to an
experience outside ‘the box’ or no experience at all, the suspension of the internal
dialogue and incessant mind chatter that most people do not know is there
because it is constant, like those who need music, the TV and radio on continually, always
on the mobile / cell phone, doing, doing, are surprised when they first hear
and witness their own chatter which is a running commentary and is the pilot in one’s life.
This cacophony, this clatter, this ghetto blaster
(type of large radio) this graffiti which daubs the mind when realised is
blamed and not owned and is a shock, then one investigates and may not like
what one sees. It is in these rare moments of quietness when we realise this is
our safety net and not the turbulence and noise, the frantic manoeuvres and
ploys is not who we are and the search for who are we begins---the world is never
the same again; why so? ; the chatter, clatter, routine, habit are mere
constructs taught and drilled into us, little holes in the innocent mind filled
like the dentist and their fillings with politics, religion, culture and
chatter and social ability, no matter, when we lose the memories of this with nothing else we go back
to factory setting and the old coping mechanisms.
Suddenly one day thoughts become very noisy when
the mind is quiet, alive, alert, observing and non judgemental the dams sluice gates are open and one sees the clutter in the attic floating out and that was the old you--- one is now emptying oneself and feels good and it doesn't matter if there is nothing to replace it.
There is a shift; ‘I know that when I need to know that
I feel safe, have the knowledge the habit and so on ---to ‘I know I don’t know
but when I need to know I will know’. Even that maybe not enough but it will suffice for the time being---giving one space to dive deeper into the mystery that is me/ you / us.
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