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I do not know what it is but I am memorised, fascinated and bewildered when I gaze and I see pictures and sites of the Milky Way and I go to its apparent centre which houses a gigantic black hole.
There are various conjectures as to the black hole apart from astronomical and scientific;some say that is the place where our conception of the solar system was born, others say it is a portal for UFO to come through and they are star gates and wormholes to another dimension and that at their tip like a funnel going from the event horizon to a singularity a kind of tip or point at the bottom of the funnel and these points are joined as it were in a network throughout the Universe and advanced civilisations could go from point to point like in a one dimensional flat field of dots that when accessed and put down on would swirl the craft or being into a four dimensional or three dimensional reality. During its journey through the hole it materialises into its form and becomes semi solid and apparent and the particles are coalesced into intelligent forms as directed by consciousness. There are other such ideas and constructs.
For me there is a smile and awe, a real heart tug, I feel connected, I feel it is home for me in a way that is not so much soul or meditative, it feels real,visceral,I feel I could let go of my body and fly into the embracing arms of the Arch of the Milky Way.
I feel similar feelings looking at the stars and full and new Moon and something deep about space, its more welcoming to me than Earth, yet I love Earth, I have never felt at home on Earth and this is not the wars, a traumatic childhood, its beyond this Earthly mundane existence.
I cannot explain nor do I wish too and yet I want to, why this tug and pull, this familiarity and feel to go there and reside in its majesty, glory, splendour and mystery. It is as if my soul yearns for this somewhere else, not as an escape but as an exile in a strange land and distant deep memories of home are beckoning. Indeed ET wants to go home, home, home. Yet I have this feeling home is not physical but an energetic somehow establishment if one could call it that, its more like a consciousness where many consciousness's are flowing, sharing, glowing and loving without self involved. I feel it is like a star, twinkling with the pulsating of its energy, life giving and nearer to the source of creation.
There are no adequate words just deep heart stirring and memories that are distant and yet very present at moments of a far memory surfacing and the homesick nausea is very real.
This makes my incarnation here all the more puzzling and there are many reasons why;pre-life agreement, a mission to do here such as work on the ego and reach clarity, help or teach somehow, an old soul returning maybe to clear up karma or unfinished business, God sent me here for some unknown purpose of which I am not aware of, its God's game and so on, or maybe the scientific big bang and there is no reason I'm an accident and some sort of biological entity with no purpose or reason just a gene machine.
Yet I know in 1942 with my NDE I did not want to come here and I wanted to go into the bright light and that being Joseph urged me here.
Despite my life as I type this at 80 years and 8 months young I still long to go to that light and it seems that light is somehow connected to the Milky Way. I often in my crazy moments of ruminating wonder if that is the light of the black hole in an energetic array drawing back its energetic soul creations to be sucked in and dissolved into an energy being and be recycled into the great mass and potential and to reincarnate as another form in the tapestry of life apparent.
Whatever and however, I yearn to fly on the wings of a smile and love to the embracing arms of the portal and arch of the beautiful Milky Way.
SHACK
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