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Strange as the energies and atmosphere do not seem to be the same and as in the UK on 4th July 2021, we may be approaching the end of the Pandemic Covid-19 restrictions and to me I have been through so much inner stuff that have drained out a lot of fear, expectation, negativity and almost emotional hang ups and reality.
Everything is out of sync, there is no normal anymore even though people are saying that they are glad to be getting back to normal. Empty football stadiums and games played with artificial crowds on the TV and the players played in empty echoing stadiums, then the gradual filling of stadiums of 15,000 then 40,000 and so on and having to produce vaccination, testing, proof to get in and those who refused vaccination left out of many things, a two class citizenship and the media hinting that new variants could be a threat and take us back to the lockdowns, distancing and so on. There is the background fear and although there is said to be a non compulsory use of masks, its left up to the public choice, there is a fear by many they will wear them for ever, this has been seen in polls and interviews and the same for many other measures. Its like the first tentative steps into a hot bath or bungy jump. July 19th 2021 masks off?
This morning as above I felt this; does it really matter? Logically and yet it felt to OK 'spiritually as well, by spiritually I mean it felt intuitively OK. On a play of words what is matter? A conglomeration of atoms without substance and yet the senses human wise feel solid and tangible and my mind knowing this is just how the Universe caused the frequencies of all that lives and has its being on the Planet Earth to feel solid and painful at times and yet intellectually, spiritually, scientifically this is not so solid and appearances when one delves into the substance of matter finds there is no substance. The then dilemma; for centuries we have subscribed and layer upon layer of belief conditioning and inculcation, pounding, compressing world tenets that our cultures, emotions, religions, ethical ethos, identification are the norm, the reality, the bedrock, our Gods and saviours that this apparently unless researched, felt and meditated on can come to an awakening.
If all dies, perhaps recycled, all and everything is impermanent, then what is there to cling onto, it is grasping at straws, loss and old age, rust and decay is all there is and desperately looking for regeneration, youthfulness, longevity, endless partying or fear and worry, it is basing ones hopes on a future salvation or doomed worry and mental imprisonment.
Let us suppose there is in the human corpse a driver, a visitor, who like an interested witness and is here to feel and experience the human shell and Earthly experiences and when the demise of this cocoon leaves and returns to its realm then the sojourn on Earth has been a visit and a witnessing experience, so there is survival in this scenario and really does it matter if one as the witness survives and the corpse rots and decays like a car in the car smashers yard, does it matter, really, really matter?
So I am not my body, I am the spirit within and when the cork pops I go to wherever. Presumably if I have become so attached to my Earthly experience and have not realised my witness detached beingness then I may recycle to yet again experience another body, the reincarnation process to either drown in the delights or fears and treachery of life in a human form or just at the end of a life realise the fragile tentative existence and that all of this had been endeavouring to preserve the impermanence and the predator of death and time, the stalking grim reaper ever walking at ones left shoulder, the battle to defeat death and impermanence and be forever.
Yet strangely if one has realised the witness within and realises there is survival and this goes on forever so to speak, is that comforting, to live forever in some energetic form or body, could this be as boring as being countless witnesses in human forms or energetic forms? Does this actually in endless cycles and repetitions make it any the less interesting, real and satisfying?
Maybe God is trying to sort this out as well? Perhaps the trillions and billions of trillions of galaxies, dimensions, worlds within worlds, boxes within boxes are the creations of a Cosmic Eternal Consciousness to relieve the boredom by creativity, constant endless illusionary, holographic Universes and forms that do not have real substances and are forms of temporary reality's that are designed like the human senses to appear solid and real to the witness and realise that the game is up when one is awakened to the nature of this reality is always impermanent, transitory and ones belief in this reality is shattered when one awakens to the fact it is like a dream and there is no such a thing as reality only many apparent shifting realities and that this facilitates a consciousness of 'who am I' then the fun begins.
It might be a relief to realise; I am not bound in any form and when I experience this there is a freedom and a joy, such as I feel in meditation when I am in empty mind, I feel home at last and yet there is this urge to leave home, that is alright as long as there is a realisation that I go on a sort of vacation and not to get attracted, bound and addicted to the holiday resort. 'Zen joke; 'Master is it alright to send emails' 'Yes as long as there are no attachments'.
Then a shock; Gosh I am the witness and the only thing that maybe real is that I am the experiencer, I am the awareness that witnesses these shifting sands of so called reality and maybe I can create and feel my own realities which are 'not real' its all pretence, its make believe, its Hollywood, after all when I fantasise I feel the emotions and they are seemingly real, then I wake up and go about everyday living, yet during these episodes I can become aware I am fantasising and know I am not the fantasy I am the witness, I am Awareness, I am a mind, I am consciousness and as such the Author and the creator of my life in this body and yet not of it at all. I need to actually know as an intuitive insight at depth that I created me as a spirit in a pre life contract in order to free my witness from its addiction to this apparent reality of a human solid body and that knowing this intellectually is a step to fully integrating the experience as a reality.
I am not my body and yet reside in it to free myself from the fear that this mortal coil produces when threatened or in a challenging health situation. In the end nothing matters for matter has no substantial substance and as the witness is not the body no circumstances can really harm or threaten the body subject to a short duration of pain, isolation and torture also that of delights for all the Universes and circumstances will fade in their impermanent nature.
SHACK
Yes to go further maybe the 'witness consciousness ' within so to speak' that which in stillness or watching a movie pauses and realises it is witnessing the movie and not emotionally engaged in it. What if that witness is manufactured by the mind which says 'I must be detached and be an awareness'. Can I be a detached witness without reminding myself to be the witness? There are times during a movie, a football match or fantasy that the awareness 'kicks' in spontaneously and perhaps then it is not mindfully awakened but naturally awakened because awakened this way seems joyfully natural and without effort or supplication. SHACK
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