SHACK 40186 MADNESS?

 

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The ego does the same thing over and over again with slight innovations expecting the same original result, mainly to be in control and right. It has an arsenal of defence and attack possibilities and even in extreme circumstances self destruct either by suicide or surrendering to to some addiction and endeavouring to blot out or curtail its failure.   

The spiritual warrior / Samurai faces the kundalini and the symptoms of this can be a devastating blow to the steadfast hard and fast rules of ego dominance.  The silence of meditation challenges the noise and chatter of the internal dialogue, the ego needs to hear, smell and feel it exists and surrender to its borders, logic and territory can feel like a battle and when approaching the limits of its circumference its ring fence it can feel the information not from verbal or visual context a sort of venturing over the edge and not in control to feel madness or insanity and on the path to the wayless way tug of war or an elastic band syndrome may present itself. The urge to let go, is significant in several ways; the ego sometimes gets tired of its monotonous repetitious exploits and its tireless endeavours to feed its ravenous appetite for the hungry ghost syndrome and yet it has a silent nagging sense as it were 'perhaps to surrender to the spirit, the emptiness of all things' it dips its toes and then has the urge to plunge headlong and then there is a sharp jolt, what if I just become a unkempt dotard shunned by society and locked away and drugged in a mental asylum. Then the taste of the spirit and its lure of  peace and lasting endurance of a sort? 

This is the challenge and perhaps the journey of the lone and lonely path of the quest, the quest to find nothing substantial and provable to logic or academic evidence and yet there is an inherent urge of a kind that perhaps most of humanity does not know of its existence and some that do scoff at its pursuit and say its a figment of an over productive fancy or imagination or an escape from reality. 

But for me there is this urge to purge the seemingly unreal and find that which has always been there and really is a search for that which is within and the journey is to come back to what was already there and in some ways a wasted journey yet still pursuing the wayless way and really knowing it is a dog chasing its own tail.

SHACK   aka    GEOFF