SHACK 4189 THE ART OF NOT DOING

Courtesy Peaceful Mind

 I used to be busy doing every day, forensic work in day or night, one to one's with counselling or psychotherapy in a clinic somewhere, weekends presenting work shops all over UK, Germany, Italy, France, Canada and before all that teaching Kendo, Judo, Meditation, then a sort of burn out producing Lung cancer and Prostate cancer and the decision to refuse chemo, surgery or radiation and go so called alternative or complimentary and all the workshops, clients, patients, counselling came to a stop, mind you with Judo / Kendo I just went cold on it , I naturally lost my passion and interest which launched me into presenting workshop's on seventy three subjects and I saw 3000 clients in counselling and psychotherapy in 13 years.

I then left a lovely spacious flat and came to a small block of flats that was termed Sheltered Housing and apart from doing qi gong and meditation there was very little doing, I did some private psychotherapy , counselling and some energy healing in a Swedenborg church over the road for a couple years with a qi gong class and I suddenly lost the passion and motivation and through a Covid jab which I did not want but did it left me lame in the left leg, I was grounded so to speak and then had a fall and broke my right wrist in March 2026, I am flat bound and I am finding apart from blog writing I am facing a complete absence of doing, apart from household stuff, some cooking and laundry and even that is assisted by having carers.

I like so many who read my blogs have said the resets and changes in world affairs have asked themselves, many are homeless, cannot find work, finding money just enough to survive, they tell me I am bored, depressed and what is my life, what is life, I feel I am not contributing. So many young people and those older folk who have lost their jobs and war veterans who have PTSD are suicidal and the in the UK mental illness substance taking, crime and suicides are are copious and the government has not the money to have help and clinics are out of funds and there is no funding for them. While millions are spent on soccer/ football transfers and some players getting massive wages and are millionaires.   

I am 87 and 88 in three weeks, I am fortunate to have a state pension and a small works pension in  which I am taxed and it is just enough to pay the ever rising food  bills , the rent and electricity and a warm dry place to sleep and rest in. However I am faced with the same as many others I am doing nothing, I cannot go out due to me being severely disabled and in pain at times what is Life, I am not a TV viewer about an hour a day, I do not read books or look at my computer and writing blogs takes me very little time so ' I am getting to face the title 'The art of not Doing' to face the naked mind and to watch the ego get restless and want to fantasise or do meaningless things. The art of not doing is simple do nothing and should one realise that in that nothing there is peace and actually accepting it is deep meditation or just meditation, deep to me would prolonged and in meditation one is aware and soporific.  

Then comes the question, so what is Life if one is not doing?  To me Life is being aware of being aware and being conscious and fully aware of no thoughts just conscious awareness of being present in the now with a naked mind, so to me mind is awareness without thought so life is awareness, the Universe is self aware and we are the conscious expression of the Universe being conscious of Itself. We are the witness to the Creation and The Creator being conscious of Itself and as The Creator created us we are an aware entity a splinter of the Creators awareness and so the old saying The Creator Breathed Life into us we might say The Creator gave us consciousness or awareness which is Spirit or Life.  Pure awareness is Being and not doing. 

I feel the term mind is not applicable in a way, I feel mind is what we fill it with thoughts, experiences, emotions we make the mind with what we fill it with, actually a mind without thoughts and so on stripped of content is just awareness. So Life is just awareness, the point is can we live with this naked bare awareness, so we may come to watching the content and just attention without intention. Perhaps this meditation in a pure form.

SHACK    aka     GEOFF. 

SHACK 40183 THE GROTESQUE AND A WALK ON THE DARKSIDE

Courtesy    The Gardian

In the days of forensic work and seeing so many patients in psychotherapy, counselling work along with meditation, Judo, Aiki do, Kendo, Tai chi and qigong with steeped into ancient traditional Samurai Ka, Taoist, Zen Sensei and Sifu they constantly told me that just meditating and experiencing the bliss and grace was only one side of the coin so to speak and to let the horror of the dark unconscious images arise and not subdue them or encourage them is to be a 'whole person'.  I wondered why the years in forensics and seeing horrible mutilated bodies, the naked raw emotional ripping open torsos, corpses or those who had sexual relationships with corpses and terms describing them such as necrophilia and necrophiles sex with corpses, paraphyllia sexual arousal through objects, thanatophile sexual arousal through attraction or obsessive fascination about death and so on, all came through the compass as it were of those years, prior to therapy and forensic work I was like a Zen Monk type during those therapy and forensic years I hardly meditated or did any breath and energy work and yet there was always a shadow in my actions as if in the depths of my consciousness I was dimly aware of that 'inner intuitive spontaneous feel' and in desperate moments it broke through and 'saved the day so to speak',

I realised that just getting patients or myself to just accept or surrender to a situation was not enough, the seed in the unconscious would grow again and like a weed just chopping off the top left deep embedded roots to flourish should an opportunity present itself, like saying I forgive you and just to settle for peace sake, like the absence  of war, does not mean there is still a deep somewhat buried feeling  'revenge'. When the root was confronted sometimes the most terrifying thought, situation or feeling was faced full on it was enough, so many addictions faced full on lessened and gave a space to harness the inner strength not through will but by quiet attentive non judgemental witnessing and so many saying it was just in my mind and I now realise it is so transparent that is nothing to fear. Then one has accepted and surrendered and true peace and forgiveness is there.   

I have at times been wracked and gone through hell and torment and have felt going to the edge of my mind so to speak and the edge felt there was no possible way out but to die or harm myself or run away and to run where? only to realise what was there would run with me and the realisation was not a logical solution it was a deep feeling that the 'inner something touched me so to speak'. At such times I felt a deep sexual arousal mostly at deepest fear and either masturbated or sought my sexual partner, not my wife and I could see or feel in that 'frenzy it was lust and just to relieve the pressure of the negative projected fear or situation and that trapped or imprisonment of my own beliefs and thoughts and sometimes it intuitively came to me these were instilled by brain washing and inculcation, that is the constant repetitive rote that I felt deeply was not me, yet still had a vice like grip and produced guilt and shame if I tried to shake it off either by distraction or meditation.  Nay, face it full on go to the edge and jump and not even to jump, sometimes at the edge I walked the horror of the dark side and realised my unconscious images from the conditioned brain washed mind were the dark side and produced those jumbled grotesque images. 

So many of those frenzied murders and patient torments came from the energy of the negative thoughts that tortured them, especially deeply religious persons who were brain washed and conditioned and as the conditioning wore off and bits broke through the nightmares and pain assaulted them, such as some soldiers, forensic, police who have witnessed atrocities that they rebelled against and yet had to their duty. I also saw a few times some 'so called spiritual groups' who practiced Tantric yoga and aroused spontaneous kundalini and some satanic black magic circles where sacrifices were made that aroused deep sexual feelings and mass sexual rites often exotic sexual stuff ensued. Many Hollywood films of the various facets I have described have been made. There is so much more and the ego loves this, also I have seen and witnessed many astral entities who are attracted to the dark side as it were and feast of the lasciviousness, satyriasis, nymphomania and hypersexuality. Of cause this can be the kundalini or chi stuck at the base chakra or lower chakras and many approaches can help to relieve or heal such tendencies.  

Another point to consider is the repetitive nature over the thousands of years these dark inculcations have gone on buried pushed down locked in darks vaults of the mind through countless incarnations and waiting like deep volcanic pressure to erupt in the wars of today and all the karma breaking loose and expressing itself in gigantic orgasms and so releasing the pressure but not the the root cause. So the purging must go on until the exhausted world negativity and harassment lay naked and utterly exhausted and the purification by the sacred waters and the fires of transformation have begun their healing and restorative work.

SHACK     aka     GEOFF.       

 

 

SHACK 4185 THE PIT OF DESPAIR TO THE LIGHT

Courtesy-------Tutti Taygerly

The underworld or the world of Darkness, Hell, The Pit or endless hole of suffering, hopelessness, depression, mental torment, pain and self reproach, despair, suicidal obsessions without actually doing it. No way out, escape nigh impossible, who knows of such a place or dimension, where does this never ending nightmare begin or end, worlds of purgatory and unimaginable suffering. The whiplash, the backlash, the branding fiery iron of the burned flesh and stench of evil, the rotting flesh of deeds against humanity, the mass graves, the unbelievable Uranium bombs, genocide, profit over nature, the rape of children and women and so much more. 

When I spoke to Sensei and Sifu they gave me a warning; 'if you start on the path of true meditation, not just a panacea, or a sticking plaster over the turmoil and unrest and 'meditate' on nice poems and prayers, affirmations, chanting, fantasies intentions, soothing music and only pleasant aromas and incense with massages of the mind and body this is not the path of the true seeker '. Many a mentor urged me to be alone in quietness, loneliness and watch the mind, rather the content of the mind such 'attention without intention' for me a martial arts person I was told better to be a spiritual warrior, to face head on the boredom and live with content's of the mind, I faced the fear and dread, the ecstasy and sublime and battled with hunger, poverty, rejection, hate jealousy and all the debris of the the patients, the crimes witnessed in forensic with the stench, severed limbs the aftermath of IRA bombings, the parents losing babies and children, children losing parents. Facing the inimitable impending demise of oneself and the Buddhas 'everything is impermanent, transitory' and yes we are unique and yet as a blot in nature.   

When I truly acknowledged and felt every horror, torture and abomination that I blamed on others were in me and more so in many incarnations before this one, it was a relief and just quiet sitting for peace and tranquillity some how put a nice perform over the rotting stench of the debris I had trapped or contained in my deep recesses of the mind, the unconscious dark lurking corridors of the labyrinth of collective karma.    

I cried as I felt the hurt I caused others and forgave those who abused me and I realised the so called wasted years and yet not wasted when I could not reach the peace and quiet which I had experienced and somehow had left me. In those dark and sorrowful times I realised the ego was ruling my life, it was the unconscious patterns and programmes clamouring for their nefarious agendas, to reign supreme and the the part of me that felt intuitively this was not on and the battle to either quell, subdue or eradicate was a useless tool or strategy and all those 'wise person's saying just surrender'.  

No I had to admit the utterly horrid matter was not the collective unconscious influence on me, or the nasty entities of the punctured fabric of the veils or auric sheaves by CERN or the monstrous genetical probing and prodding which some scientists were tampering with and realising that all our cells communicate with low frequency waves and we are one unified family and share these intrusions into a shared ethereal body. 

 

However if I acknowledge I share the horrors of the wars and poverty and shy not away from the pain and silent pleas I am in the pit of despair and its fearful projections and shy not away from the fearful images and noisy shenanigans, trickery and tom foolery and see them as long ingrained human traits and looked at without judgement and blame to others, they may appear as of nothing, transparent with no real a substance unless the ever alert ego the guardian of the vault of impacted compressed material sandwiched by the layers of repetitions and inculcated pressure.  

So where am I now, I seem to be in no identifiable place or dimension and not confused but recognise somehow there is no place that is a set  reality or dwelling and the search is useless for everything is impermanent and transient why try to keep the block of ice in the hand from melting?

 SHACK -----aka------GEOFF

/ SHACK 40187 THE NON REALITY O F REALITY/ THE REALIT OF NON REALITY

Courtesy Dualistic

 Einstein quote 'Reality is a mere illusion albeit a persistent one'  Illusion can be formed by inculcation ' 

note 'persistently with repetition' gives one perhaps belief systems and an identity. Who were you before being subjected to inculcation?

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