SHACK 40183 THE GROTESQUE AND A WALK ON THE DARKSIDE

Courtesy    The Gardian

In the days of forensic work and seeing so many patients in psychotherapy, counselling work along with meditation, Judo, Aiki do, Kendo, Tai chi and qigong with steeped into ancient traditional Samurai Ka, Taoist, Zen Sensei and Sifu they constantly told me that just meditating and experiencing the bliss and grace was only one side of the coin so to speak and to let the horror of the dark unconscious images arise and not subdue them or encourage them is to be a 'whole person'.  I wondered why the years in forensics and seeing horrible mutilated bodies, the naked raw emotional ripping open torsos, corpses or those who had sexual relationships with corpses and terms describing them such as necrophilia and necrophiles sex with corpses, paraphyllia sexual arousal through objects, thanatophile sexual arousal through attraction or obsessive fascination about death and so on, all came through the compass as it were of those years, prior to therapy and forensic work I was like a Zen Monk type during those therapy and forensic years I hardly meditated or did any breath and energy work and yet there was always a shadow in my actions as if in the depths of my consciousness I was dimly aware of that 'inner intuitive spontaneous feel' and in desperate moments it broke through and 'saved the day so to speak',

I realised that just getting patients or myself to just accept or surrender to a situation was not enough, the seed in the unconscious would grow again and like a weed just chopping off the top left deep embedded roots to flourish should an opportunity present itself, like saying I forgive you and just to settle for peace sake, like the absence  of war, does not mean there is still a deep somewhat buried feeling  'revenge'. When the root was confronted sometimes the most terrifying thought, situation or feeling was faced full on it was enough, so many addictions faced full on lessened and gave a space to harness the inner strength not through will but by quiet attentive non judgemental witnessing and so many saying it was just in my mind and I now realise it is so transparent that is nothing to fear. Then one has accepted and surrendered and true peace and forgiveness is there.   

I have at times been wracked and gone through hell and torment and have felt going to the edge of my mind so to speak and the edge felt there was no possible way out but to die or harm myself or run away and to run where? only to realise what was there would run with me and the realisation was not a logical solution it was a deep feeling that the 'inner something touched me so to speak'. At such times I felt a deep sexual arousal mostly at deepest fear and either masturbated or sought my sexual partner, not my wife and I could see or feel in that 'frenzy it was lust and just to relieve the pressure of the negative projected fear or situation and that trapped or imprisonment of my own beliefs and thoughts and sometimes it intuitively came to me these were instilled by brain washing and inculcation, that is the constant repetitive rote that I felt deeply was not me, yet still had a vice like grip and produced guilt and shame if I tried to shake it off either by distraction or meditation.  Nay, face it full on go to the edge and jump and not even to jump, sometimes at the edge I walked the horror of the dark side and realised my unconscious images from the conditioned brain washed mind were the dark side and produced those jumbled grotesque images. 

So many of those frenzied murders and patient torments came from the energy of the negative thoughts that tortured them, especially deeply religious persons who were brain washed and conditioned and as the conditioning wore off and bits broke through the nightmares and pain assaulted them, such as some soldiers, forensic, police who have witnessed atrocities that they rebelled against and yet had to their duty. I also saw a few times some 'so called spiritual groups' who practiced Tantric yoga and aroused spontaneous kundalini and some satanic black magic circles where sacrifices were made that aroused deep sexual feelings and mass sexual rites often exotic sexual stuff ensued. Many Hollywood films of the various facets I have described have been made. There is so much more and the ego loves this, also I have seen and witnessed many astral entities who are attracted to the dark side as it were and feast of the lasciviousness, satyriasis, nymphomania and hypersexuality. Of cause this can be the kundalini or chi stuck at the base chakra or lower chakras and many approaches can help to relieve or heal such tendencies.  

Another point to consider is the repetitive nature over the thousands of years these dark inculcations have gone on buried pushed down locked in darks vaults of the mind through countless incarnations and waiting like deep volcanic pressure to erupt in the wars of today and all the karma breaking loose and expressing itself in gigantic orgasms and so releasing the pressure but not the the root cause. So the purging must go on until the exhausted world negativity and harassment lay naked and utterly exhausted and the purification by the sacred waters and the fires of transformation have begun their healing and restorative work.

SHACK     aka     GEOFF.