SHACK 4152 GOINGS-ON

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The title of this entry is in no way an adequate description or even the faintest expression I sought to deliver, yet I am impelled by an irresistible prompt to do so, so please forgive the outstanding impish vain egoistic attempt to do so. 

 In these trees pigeons, squirrels, magpies and sometimes rare birds appeared we used to have migrating geese fly through they sadly have not been around now for six years. We now have a kind of parrots visit, there was excitement one day when we saw a king fisher.

I have written my experience with the trees many times. I became really aware of them through I felt a silent communication and I thought just imagination until one night this happened.  Saturday March 2nd 2019 ' TREES' please read in SHACK

 Then on this morning of the 10th August 2025 I just could not get out of bed, I was restless because the trees were 'calling me' and I felt to stay in bed, then it happened; suddenly 'I felt I saw' like a sort of x-ray in a sort of 'reddish hue' the inner workings of the tree, all of the workings the 'goings-on' which many who have studied the trees will know and to list it is not applicable at this event, I knew instantly that the tree and plants live and have their being as we do, their 'organs and capillaries' have their equivalent as our human bodies, they did feel, they did communicate with everything and everybody and us humans have to be still, quiet and out of the chattering ego and although I knew this intellectually, I felt it in a deep visceral way, from the film Avatar I said to them ' I see you' this when I first got acquainted with this expression has meant ' I see you beyond your personality, beyond any traits and quirks, wrinkles and bodily shapes or contours, I see your essence' I felt a deep connection more so than March 2nd above this was as if I were a tree and my organs were as if transplanted for that instant and I became a living tree and it me. This is only the barest approximation to the feel and experience. This distance I had as explained above to nature was shattered and I felt the beauty and the scenes I had been through and somehow I felt those neglected beauty spots were alive in me now as it were.

 I now know and have experienced 'it blew my mind' this indeed did, I have insights and Ha Ha's but this was so profound that I felt it literally blew something away, I could feel it reverberate throughout my body it shook my bones and frame, my scalp seemed to move as if my brain was being reconfigured and maybe it was somehow, something shifted and later on I realised it was 'the intellectual sceptic' in me I always wanted to feel and believe not so much believe but feel deeply without the echo and sinister shadows of doubt about communications with all life not just communication but dialogues. This meant suspending the intellect and ego and this was wilful and contrived and this was spontaneous and free. Literally blowing away bits of the mind brainwashed inculcated bits and pieces, mind you there maybe bits of going-on in the ego realm which might contend this.   

I like Eckhart Tolle Divine Intelligence quote; 'You didn't create your body, nor are we able to control the body's functions. An Intelligence greater than the human mind is at work.  It is the same Intelligence that sustains all of nature. You cannot get any closer to that Intelligence than being aware of your own energy field ---by feeling the aliveness, the animating presence within your body'

I felt this Intelligence 'working' silently and quietly I could feel the 'goings-on' doing their things, it is the stillness, the quiet space of consciousness that these  'organic algorithms and sequential signals' were moving in the silent space of awareness there were no words as such but movements felt deeply with no bodily effect just a silent visceral 'intuitive comprehension'  with no intrusion of the mind or need to diagnose or understand it, it was understanding as a direct knowing, it was a one to one seamless and flowing as if the Universe Itself worked this way. It was Life in action at the deepest level.

SHACK  aka   GEOFF

 

SHACK 4150 TUSSLE

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Oh restless mind searching hither and thither desperately endeavouring to establish yourself as authentic and real. Yet dear mind you are a collection of thoughts and experiences beliefs and agendas with cultural upbringing from earlier years and instilled into your open receptive space bereft of choice at that time.

How I see you struggle to still the cascading thoughts and emotions and you feel victim to your own collection and bundles of random chaos and yet still trying to form an orderly approach and reason to this disorderly orchestration and vainly trying to make this a reasonable presentation and often let down by the inherited data and often realising you are someone else's ideas and often they go back generations and then regurgitated and sometimes modified so as to appear new and fresh and original and then let down again as this reincarnated information and indeed yourself falls short of convincing you it is creative and original.

How much more you cry, how much more do I try to convince myself that I am real and here and solid and yet I know deep in the cellars and crevices of the vaults of the unconscious I am but an entity, a splinter of the lasting attempts to prove I am real and authentic. Alas I collapse and have to accept albeit reluctantly I am a shadow and do not reflect reality. Oh woe is me, is there a saviour, yet I know only the complete dissolution of this shadow will suffice.

Whilst in the background so to speak there is a witness to this cacophony, this assemblage of random chaos and outworn and faded patterns and loose bits and pieces, this silent and yet attentive presence of awareness and is the fount of life watching the endless forms come and go as clouds in the sky and patches that reveal the sun and keeps on the vigil of witness and and aware stillness until the recognition of the restless mind ceases to be by the understanding of its own mortality.   

SHACK   aka    GEOFF

 

SHACK 4146 KOAN

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 'I want has happiness--get rid of the I want and there is happiness' 'What is the sound of one hand clapping' 'Atoms are empty, the body has 28 billion, billion, billion, billion of them how come anything is here'

Oh yes one can make up intellectual and even logical scientific explanations but they may give one a temporary satisfaction and a superior feeling and somewhat smug and know I understand and so I am in control, I know the mystery contained therein.

Experience has shown that the 'honeymoon' wears off and the old familiar 'nag' returns ' I want to know, I don't like my brain being broken, I want to be in control, I cannot bear the mystery of the unknown or be without desire for knowing by intellect and academic, scientific proof or even this 'outside the box' control and the satisfaction of intellectual ego of having it all sussed and this leading me to a definite reality and seeming unchallenged life, secure in my brain washed conditioned mind until perhaps a shattering event causes me to pause and consider and then swish it away in some form of distraction in order to fill the gap and void the Koan presents. 

'Reality is an illusion, albeit a persistent one' Einstein 'We exist in a matrix, simulation, hologram, or virtually programmed reality that we believe is real because our brains tell us it is'. Crystal Links. I need to know I am not an illusion, I need to know to know I know. The Despot needs borders, territory, political superiority, religious domination, scientific verification and intellectual academic acclaim and notoriety.

The experience of the Koan shifts the want and desire for the known to the unknown and alleviates the 'want' factor and one's needs are accomplished in a 'mind of no mind', a sort of natural spontaneity not to be confused with just wild ego impulsive behaviour. There are many traps on the 'way' drugs, material wealth and tapping's, alcohol, sexual indulgence, fetishes, intellectual perquisites, running wildly into dangerous pursuits and reckless and dangerous behaviour.

Still want to know?

SHACK   aka   GEOFF  

SHACK 4149 ON WALL

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 'Mirror, mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all'. from the fairy tale Snow White and the Seven dwarves. I used this several times in workshop presentations, to look into your own face in a mirror without assessing your features and just feel the vibes coming to you whether pleasant or not and then we would share afterwards. What came up and this happened to many workshop attendees feelings and 'knowing's' which did not seem to connect to the vibes felt at the mirror, as if it stirred something deeper and allowed it to surface for cleansing and healing.

When I did this the first few times what came to me was in the sharing and did not seem to fit the mirror feelings that I had lost a few friends and upset some family members and I realised I had foisted upon them a pet theory or pronouncement and would not yield an inch so to speak when challenged and became so obdurate as to offend them and lose them and later on I did forgiveness in the Ho opono pono way and realised I blamed them for not understanding and not seeing my point of view and that my obdurate stance was the cause of the strained family relationship and loss of some friends and acquaintances.

By understanding that my bold and determined stance and not even allowing discussion or some sort of dialogue caused me to feel I was not understood and they were ignorant. My ego demanded sole recognition and my territory my borders were not safe. Indeed I was the creator of my loss and downfall, yet at the time did not see it as a down fall but a victim of their obdurate stances and agendas.  

Over the years and events I have 'softened' and instead of obduration and impenitence and have found compassion through acknowledgement of my own agenda and inculcation. By owning a feeling and agenda and realising what you own you can change but you blame the feelings of being victim through one's own hard line and not allowing a choice, then we become trapped in our own emotions and cause additional karma.

SHACK   aka   GEOFF

 

SHACK 4147 Yin and Yang

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This is a massive subject and there are so many variations, discussions, meanings and debates. So I throw in my sixteen pence as they say. It seems we live in a dual world and the symbol depicted above shows that in Yin there is a bit of Yang and vice versa, that is supposed to be balanced energies, at the same time these are not static and change  with circumstances, natural rhythms and cycles and in our bodies we may seek homeostasis.

In various philosophies, religions, cults and nefarious opinions these complimentary energies have turned into polarities and have become distorted and egregious. When I did a course such issues I came across the Yoni (female genitalia) and lingam(male genitalia) and the symbols and deep meaning in them, I am not even going to attempt any explanations merely such to say they are deeply meaningful and to some spiritual and to point out the some of the explanations, values and religious spiritual meanings and not just sex.   

For me and seeing the struggle women had to get the vote in the UK and won through the Suffragettes and in many countries now women are denied education, and are separated at their menstrual times and are classed as unclean. I had this discussion with a man who had come to the UK and lived in such a society and I said to him 'in your intimacy you entered your wife and that was OK and then she gave birth or not sometime after and yet the very act of menstruation is unclean how can this be if a child is or can be the outcome? 'His answer was ' that was the tradition and this is how it is and there no need to explain it or justify to you or anyone' I was not prepared to go further and left it at that.  Then the act of female circumcision, I know several of my 'female patients' in my clinical days had been circumcised and had come for help dealing with this trauma as it was forced on them, the UK has a law against this and there have been clashes with the law and those religious traditions of this nature. 

Now to another aspect; females who get stalked, abused in relationships, rapes, celebrity women who receive sheer vulgar media abuse and the list goes on. I really like women's football, rugby, cricket, tennis and other sports and I get a lot of stick from my mates as they say I am doing it to get a sexual kick out of it. However I like to watch men do the same sports does this make homosexual, bio sexual or just a sexual addict wanting to arouse my libido and then masturbate over or after the event? I  found out later that some of my former mates 'got off' on porn and cross dressing and visiting brothels or inviting prostitutes to their homes. This is acceptable to me and who am I to judge them. Each to their own although it is not my 'thing'

Having been a footballer years back and apprentice for a short while until injury cut short my career I felt the joy of running and it makes my heart full of joy when I see kids, especially young girls and women RUNNING FREELY not just at the Olympics or specific Athletic meetings. To me it the locked up female energy breaking free to be an equal not of course in strength because of how we are biologically born but of the RIGHT  and CHOICE to follow our passion, to feel fulfilled and express ourselves so we do not bottle up our feelings and let them fester and explode in unhealthy and damaging ways.

I hear in the block of flats where I live some of the men say 'women referees, women commentators, women's football no way, women's cricket rubbish and as for rugby they all must be lesbians' They will not listen or debate and I am banned and as I do not smoke or drink beer in the meetings in our residents lounge is out of bounds, I feel some men feel threatened by the 'weak stay at home, house wife, the meek little women is only good for children and cooking and some of the men demand to know where  their wife is and keep control, some go to the pub nearly everyday and the 'good little lady' goes shopping and tea out with her friends and that's it. As we look around the world today we see child and women trafficking and then there is the rebellion by women to be recognised and cherished. When I worked in forensics with the police the abuse against women police officers from their male counterparts was pathetic and the bosses looked away. There are many male police officers in the UK and I know elsewhere and the military where this is rife.

SHACK     aka    GEOFF

SHACK 4153 SPIRIT TOUCH

 

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Being occupied and then sitting quietly a kind of flow arises and there is a smile as wide as can be or a quiet recognition that I have been touched by spirit. It is a recognition beyond human senses, it is a feeling of a deep connection of something ineffable.  It is beyond an energy or feeling, it feels that I am safe forever and nothing can harm me, this may seem arrogant but in that moment it feels so. It also feels that although my body may suffer and harm may come to it, this feeling is of spirit and not of body and although my body may dwindle and perish, the 'I' that feels this is not corporeal and should this feeling take me away from this body, this mortal flesh and fly with me as in spirit it would be most welcome.

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Many people who have felt this divine touch have called it their 'beloved' and some find this difficult to resign to as they have been taught that God is masculine, The Father, The Lord and some who have the feminine view of The Mother, feel to call the feminine beloved has sexual connotations. Then again the Spirit in my view is not male nor female but is a midpoint as it were where they both arise from to form this world of duality and the Yin and Yang. This is pure Spirit which nature feels in it beauty and joy, the birds sing and the eagle soars to the skies in freedom and endless energy until its days are fulfilled and it dissolves in body and flies in spirit.

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Because of the exquisite nature of the Spirit and its sheer exuberance, I feel it wants to express Itself in joy, colour, unconditional love, abundance, joy, dance, grace and safety, the beauty of nature is the expression of the divine from Spirit to form. And yet that form is not as solid and real and lasting, the empty atom, the seasons, birth and death to us humans in months and years and feels short or long, happy or misery, fear, anxiety, greed and war and yet beneath this flows the Spirit an endless subterranean flow it would seem until we humans quieten the momeent  of feverish endeavour and rest in the quiet in the Spirit Arms.

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Come to me the Spirit beckons, come to me to rest in my quiet flow that regenerates, rejuvenates and invigorates sometimes to the body but for me of the uplifting and feeling refreshed and a sort of divine will to keep on keeping on, to live life joyously until my body and its beautiful structure feels it is time rest and dissolve quietly and  the spirit is no longer the source of the body's existence and is set free to roam in its essence as one and seamlessly flow as it has always done and always will.  

SHACK  aka   GEOFF 

SHACK 151 FANTASIES

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 I feel that some fantasies arise from a disappointed ego. It is my view that the ego is composed of feelings before choice and understanding were available and hard wired into the nervous system and magnetic memory fields surrounding the body which are resonating from distant memory or incarnations as subtle energies minute and yet laying in wait for a signal to trigger the reaction. 

The ego then is exposed to teachings or influences persistently with repetition so as to implant and instil an idea, theory, attitude or practice, so the ego comprises of someone else's ideas and should at one time  one awakens to this realises that it is not real and is a sort of cloned mind indeed a conditioned mind. This can be a shock and then one can question 'if I am an acquired conditioned mind then this was my identity, however now without these layers of condoning, indeed these brain washed contents which became my reality and base, I recognise I have at this moment no reality and hence identity.. So who am I?

This awakening can lead to some trepidation, anxiety, turning to distractions, suicidal thoughts, depression and melancholy. There can be a remnant of ego, like the bits hard to clean and stick to the pan and it seems the more one tries to scrub the hard stuck speck it smears and distorts the surface leaving scratches and scars. The ego realises its foundation was never stable and real and it realises it has formed itself into a hard packed relentless entity and in some cases destroy the host even until death.  The disappointed ego vainly searches for an identity often through fantasy as to the life and achievements it never had, or could not do either through circumstances or parents who could not provide the means or stimulus to do so for their children. Poverty, homelessness, war and famine and even the wealthy through the lack of ambition or just living aimlessly through parties, running out of places to go and so on.

 The ego remnant runs wildly and seemingly endlessly in circles to seek a religion, a mantra, a drug, a fantasy it can hide in and live in and become mentally so addicted and obsessed that every day living becomes difficult, sleep is shredded and one may have to be taken to a a mental asylum because of not being able to cope with life and self harm.  

There is a possibility should one realise this as a self growth path leading to a spiritual path in order to find the identityless beingness of  no mind or so called enlightenment which then fantasies cease  naturally and the identity of no identity is there and it has no definition and yet feels safe and secure even though there is no explanation or description to cement a place or foundation. 

The tussle encountered by the so called 'spiritual warrior' is that outlined in Siddhartha Gautama Buddha under the Bodhi Tree he was tempted by Mara the demon of  illusion and desire tempting him from his quest. In the Aquarian Bible Jesus was tempted by a beautify maiden all of his desires were on fire and in another version he was in a temple where many maidens and treasures were displayed, he held fast to the ascension and Divinity.  Jesus was tempted by the devil who offered him the world upon  which Jesus stood and he said ' Get Behind me Satan' There are others who have detailed their similar experiences and many have arrived by kundalini fires of energy. It can be awakened through many ways, serious illness, accidents, severe loss, meeting with a wise person and just in some ways through the right time and in the right place and some by spontaneous synchronicity. 

However it seems fantasy may have the clues to this and some call this mind movies, the chattering mind, seeing reality as an illusion through the empty atom and so on, who knows when Mara is faced and then the battle to freedom. The battle is nearly always a mind based drama and I have seen various patients, friends have this awakening through hurtful relationships, landlords and neighbours who relentlessly torture with noise, insults, physical violence and so on, these either can drag one down and hopefully be dealt with in unfinished karma or business in the next incarnation. The ego fiercely defends itself as the ultimate authority and will not be denied or lessened. It therefore has to contend with other ego's and ultimately a planet or a humanity could be destroyed. 

By the way I have had the awakening but still tussle with the remnant and in some ways we can see this happening very clearly in the world condition today 2025, the wars, the old stories and promises by religion, politics, people weary of the same old, same old and yet not realising that this is the fantasy and history repeating itself. History maybe reincarnation  on a world scale.

SHACK   aka   GEOFF