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I could have called this article 'bewildered'.
Sometimes I wake up feeling really terrible, weak, afraid, vulnerable, maybe from a dream residue and I hear this a lot because of the pandemic, fearful wars, mass corruption and I have an uneasy feeling about vaccinations and their research and applicable use. However, there is this feeling, I feel queasy, uneasy and so do not wish to get up and greet the day and want to stay in bed, I feel alone, disjointed and fragmented.
I try to reason why? This does not work and pray, plead with an unfelt God or angelic presence. Then on some occasions I just drop all reasoning and logical explanations and just 'stay with the feeling' it gets worse and overwhelming and then sometimes it switches to a great light and a slow percolating joy.
Now one might reason; something in the brain like a defence mechanism clicks in, yet it feels like I just stared, faced and burst through a kind of membrane. I feel it is a gift from consciousness, awareness and my essence which is awareness and being present. I am sure my invisible guides and angelic over beings might have something to do with this, however and wherever this comes about I am deeply and sincerely grateful.
Should it be by any remote chance the Great Almighty Spirit, God Almighty, the Divine One, then I feel loved and blessed and do not know how to thank the Father / Mother God as I go about my mundane life and just am fiddling and farting about with no sense of purpose and wonder why this redeeming and rescuing 'act' of the switch should be given and fall on one so unworthy of Gods love.
Yet of course God and Yeshua are unconditional love and the God Head will always forgive and forget because the chances given may awaken one to follow the example of love and with the hope in my case to dissolve a hardened, disbelieving heart and mind and yet it is desperately wanting to love and surrender and follow the Great Ones to a service of love and gratefulness.
SHACK
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