One simple miracle to the murky mind that
astonished me even now after many years of meditation, rumination,
contemplation and research, I know it, feel it and yet it baffles my egoist
mind. So simple and so baffling and yet
so knowing out of the world of mechanistic science and hard boiled logic.
I awoke from a restless sleep, cramping muscles
and fatigue. For several months I had upheaval and overwhelm as I came to the
end of my programming, conditioning and agendas and stand on the brink, on the
ledge of leaping into the unknown. A
real spiritual crisis develops in me and as the tug of war between lettings go to
void and perceived emptiness and ego fear of annihilation and oblivion and yet
knowing on another level there is no such thing and only something else as yet
indefinable and mystical. Yet yearning
to jump and finish the old ways that no longer serve this life. I do not feel
suicidal and now not depressed, I feel ready.
This was brought on by a simple experience; as I
stated as I awoke I felt the need to go to the toilet and defecate, I lingered
and felt my body telling me so, my bodies communication with me the conscious
experience, the awareness. I then marvelled how the body intelligence knew this
and intelligently informed me, I did nothing to inform the body it silently
informed me. I went to the toilet and came back to bed and then marvelled how
my hair grew, my nails got longer and so on. Logically I knew the answer but
the mystery of the intelligence as per science did not fit although logically
and intellectually it did.
Then I delved further; I then went onto to free
flow brain storm as it were. I went into old stuff; it came from the quantum
field, something from nothing, baffling the academics who want to label and
theorise, yet this did not and does not satisfy my longing to know which a mind
is designed for on one level.
This field, this awareness, life has infinite
possibilities and probabilities as is seen by what emerges as particles, to
atoms to molecules then gathered to manifest as form. So I feel the field is
intelligent and informing. The very particles, atoms and molecules, the cells
and so on are infused with intelligence as a child is from its mother and is a
conscious experiencing being as I feel all of creation is in varying forms and
degrees of awareness and cognition. This
being so as I have written and thought many times and yet my ego will not let
go to the fact it is the central intelligence that is in charge of life due to
its accumulated experiences and memory storage DVD and CD’s played and modified to suit any
situation, the past epic of my personal life, to be defended and adjusted so
that it survives and perpetuates itself.
So this being personal and ring fenced is like the
stream of life being a river and non local or impersonal and the ego being a
lake or a pool, the impersonal ocean or river is akin to all life, flowing
moving being and not stagnating in its limited ability to move on and flow.
Now taking this example that the ego can stagnate
and get old as a pool can and even a lake, the stagnation in the terms of thought
such as; you get old, arthritic, get diabetes, fat, stiff joints, cancer, auto
immune disease, Alzheimer’s and so on.
Like a cage built to catch monkeys, the cage has bars just wide enough for
the monkey to put his hand in sideways so that palm is open, in the cage is a
delicious morsel, the monkey clenches his fist to take it out and eat it, but
cannot because the fist is too big for the bars and so is carried away. This is
the ego it clings by constant repetition and belief that certain facts in its
life’s experience have built this image of reality due to culture, politics,
religion, work and so on and this is so and very little will shake this. Then
there maybe a life shattering experience which breaks this up and leads one to a
new set of rules and beliefs, until the time arises when one realises these are
mere identity’s built around beliefs which are interchangeable and not solid
but shifting sands and in a way a temporary passport to whatever and whenever,
they are mind illusions taken as solid reality. Some spiritual paths lead one
to this through meditation and so on, it doesn't necessarily have to be health,
relationship sort of dilemma.
When one realises in depth that the life formerly
led was local and personal this leads to this; if it is local and personal I
tend to believe I am alive and everything else is kind of not alive, the
scientist divorced from nature and not realising he is nature and investigating
himself.
Here the local world is like a room; the room is
the local brain as it was the furniture and all being the beliefs and so
on. This is personal and local and one’s
territory and will defend, attack, adjust and strategies in order to defend and
even expand the room and so forth. This makes one the centre and as such then
proceeds to feel important, be self centred and some accrue wealth and power in
order to build the room to an empire, although fine building, cars, palaces,
position in society seems idyllic it is only a mind idea and belief that is
concreted into form. On realising this anything one believes if it is worked
for by constant repetition and so ingrained can come about, it does not have to be buildings, money, wealth and so on it can be a fanatical ideal and a zealous
consuming theology.
Now perhaps we can examine a bit further; let us
suppose the Universe is the Ocean and the river a representation of impersonal
selves or non local by this token and implied suggestion it might seem that
Flow, Energy, Awareness, Experience is Life. The pool and lake by analogy are
limited and flow and accumulate energy thereby by our analogy a limited even
though grandiose supply of energy you could say life force and need to impede
the flow and take it and hoard it for their limited life purpose ah la their
beliefs.
This may suggest that if pools and lakes are as
limited ego beliefs hoard and grab being selfish we actually stop or retard our
evolution and so perpetuate a cycle of the same old same old, the past
constantly repeating itself, the hamster wheel, the reincarnation, the monkey
in the cage dying of starvation and dropping dead by the cage of its own
desires.
It might
depend on the beliefs of the personal local mind as whether there are other
dimensions or after lives and so it may choose to live this out many times as
unfinished business and come back to the known as safety and security. Today’s
world is proving anything but, this year of 2018. So in this view where is
safe. It might be in change. What is
solid and fixed could be attacked and destroyed or the constant fight to keep
it safe, huge energy expenditure.
Let us examine free energy; those academics
working on free energy and those craft from somewhere else the UFO / ET
scenario are presumably working on free energy. This implies that energy is
free unbounded, limitless and therefore impersonal and non local and since it
is free it is a sharing, caring and one might say a form of love. Here the ocean
might be by analogy this free source but even more so the quantum field in
which everything arises from seemingly nothing but ever moving activity in
waves that are not waves and particles that are not solid, mysterious and
wonderful, it is an aliveness, it is impersonal, alive, intelligent because it
produces out of itself all that is and was and will be.
It has to
be impersonal or non local otherwise it would not share its magnificence with
us, you and me, nature and the Universe. Impersonal in this sense is not hard
and uncaring, but truly altruistic, loving in a way that the human mind cannot
conceive. This intelligence which is imbibed in our bodies and tells us when we
need the bathroom and also informs the organisation of the Universe and its
evolution. Perhaps in the light of this I have to evaluate my position. I know
so well that my pool, my local assumptions, beliefs and habits, in some way
impede or cause a sluggish flow and that we all have a duty to expand and allow
us to reach the river and the Ocean Of Being, so thereby freeing up freedom and energy for us all.
In a strange parallel that may well be why the authorities
do not want free energy because it symbolises something; one would not be able
to charge and meter free energy because the availability and how it is used
implies just that it would be made knowable to everyone how to use it, with its
free availability it can be harnessed by all with simplicity and those with
‘pools’ and ‘lakes’ would lose their power and will defend their local personal
wealth and power whilst free energy means flow, sharing, free for all, healing,
health love and the impersonal non local would mean vast, expansive, free
access to clean food, clothing, warmth and the absence of fear. Fear stagnates
and causes ‘pools’ and ‘lakes’ and who knows with the impersonal one realises
one is non local and allow the waters of Life to take one on a journey it moves
as a moving stream of Life and surfing on the current to new vistas and perhaps
everlasting life.
SHACK
