SHACK 1027 APPROVAL AND GUILT

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Guilt is the ego's employment tactics in order to keep itself intact and thriving. The ego is no more than a brainwashed, inculcated conditioned set of programmes and agendas which have become our reality, truth and indisputable God and Ten Commandments.  One thinks this is me and so real is the delusion one just goes about one's business and probably never deeply questions who is this me. Who am I?

As a child most of us are told that to get love and approval we have to be 'good little children and be seen and not heard' if not you get a smack, stern look, no rewards, go to your room and stay there or some such other thing' one has to win approval in order to validate who we are, I have to conform to these commandments or approval is not forthcoming. We are not loved for ourselves but for our compliance. 

Guilt then becomes a means to control because if I do not obey I do not get approval and then if I do not get approval there must be something wrong with me, I am not worthy to be loved, I am not obeying after all my parents, peers, family and friends know best and so the seeds of self doubt, lack of self worth and confidence are shaken and planted and of course we are taught to not be selfish and think of others and not yourself and so not doing one's duty as a child, or friend causes this lack of self worth to deepen with a further erosion of self esteem, we then become a victim because if we do not feel guilty we are not obeying and doing our duty.

Guilt is the replay button on the record player, guilt always locks one into the past, so the future is always a rehash or a make over, a variation on a theme of the past, there is no future and that is why the same old mistakes and hang ups keep repeating themselves like the saboteur, the hidden fear lurking in the dark alley ready to stab one in the back. I must obey or punishment will ensue.

When one is born and even in the womb the foetus picks up feelings which it is not able to process or discern it is indelibly imprinted in the psyche and then on birth the inculcation and brain washing progresses and usually one just carries on with the traditions, culture, social status, religion, politics and one dares not to stray too much or it feels dangerous and so fear creeps in which is the superglue that keeps the ego together and guilt makes sure that 'you do your duty or else punishment of some sort ensues and guilt makes one obey the ego'.

One can take for granted and never question ones culture, religion and way of life, one may vaguely question and not go to deep as the TV, work, marriage, relationships, success, failure seem so natural and illness, joy, failure and the gamut of life seems generally with a few modifications in other countries and traditions a sort of a general rule of thumb and of course fear, doubt and guilt play their role in an accepted human condition.

Something may happen to awaken the reality as one perceives it; I may realise that I follow my parents or other authorities ideas and constructs and others follow different values and traditions. I begin to realise I am a set of mind constructs that have been handed down to me, I am not me but someone else's ideas, I have been taught to be me, I am someone else's second hand clothes, I am brainwashed, so who am I really?. 

Then the real shock kicks in; then what is reality? I begin to realise that mind ideas and constructs form my beliefs and these beliefs are hand me downs like genetics, so what is reality?. It seems reality is swappable, it is a moving event and experience, a moving pavement and the only thing that keeps me to this set of beliefs, concepts and ideas is guilt and fear. Guilt glues me to the past and the past is the ego and the known. If I break with the known, the past, my ego and then ego takes the role of parents and life, it is God, I feel fearful and must obey and do my duty, I am leaving the known and safety and this I will be punished for as I am a naughty person and not complying to the fastidious rigid rule of self imposed discipline and the imagined me. If I do not put others before me I am selfish and not a good person, who will love me and give me the approval that I seek, the safety of feeling loved but 'hang on a minute' is approval love'?

 

The ego which is at best actually not real in the sense it is a conglomerate, a cake mix, a coalescing of ideas, concepts and idioms and are not real as such but are mere figments of mind which by inculcation can be upgraded reconfigured and be a completely different mind set, the ego MUST always be right even if it is to punish itself for it has learnt that from birth it must comply and if not approval and love will not be forthcoming and realising in later life it has expected to be punished by feeling guilty and other punitive measures and lack of self esteem and worth are natural and this is what it expects and lives for because the known is safe no matter how abject it maybe or the opposite. The ego which is a bundle of ideas held together by fear and guilt is the known and therefore the assumed reality.

Then what is reality?; who is this 'I if this I' is only a set of beliefs and ideas hand me downs, inherited thought. Is there indeed any such thing as reality? Who am I when all concepts have gone, not repressed, judged made excuses for not being 'there' can I live with this nakedness, this presumed emptiness, this emptiness the Buddha and Eastern philosophy talks about. Zen asks 'Who was I before I was born? 'Show me your original Face' ' What is the sound of one hand clapping?, then to the now and the fact that atoms are 99.99% empty and the madness and trauma the early physicists went through when they witnessed reality is  not there and we are not either at a deep level, in the observer effect they found that consciousness influenced matter and if it is all an illusion and the magicians trick is deception and illusion then there is no reality and when one feels this where is guilt and fear then? However guilt and fear will seduce and lure one back to the old safe known.

Then the wheel falls off so to speak; If there is no such thing as reality how come I am here and the Universe? The creator of the Universe is invisible and is consciousness without form and like the ego needs to affirm itself and say to itself I am here, I AM, so it creates a Universe in form, so called tangible, so by its creation, like the potter and the pot, so the potters affirms their reality by the pot, I made this this, therefore I exist. God made the Universe and by God's creation finds Itself in form. The ego (religions tell us we are built in God's image) so likewise the ego makes its pot through tradition and brain washing and this is GOD to us, we make a false GOD through brainwashed hand me downs, taught to be religious, pious or otherwise and we make our commandments and feel guilty if we break our own self imposed rules. 

When we see the nature of reality is really a mind imagined conjured up set of mind constructs as the quantum realm depicts we are left at first in dilemma; we feel the magnetic pull of the known a mind construct safety zone and foundation and at the same time know it is literally 'all in the mind' and all that is the mind can be swapped and reconfigured, yet the habit and conditioning over the years has so convinced us that this is reality, solid and forever, that we feel guilty to abandon ship and save ourselves and put others in the life raft first because we are nasty little non caring people, where's your compassion, give your seat up to the old person on the bus, what!!! you took the last piece of cake, you should be ashamed of yourself, I hope you can live with that and so on, you must be like me, I know what's best for you(my way of life is right and proper, the right foods, prayers and life style, follow me says the priest, the chief medical officer, the guru, the health professional with herbs and so on) and the more you fight the ego with meditation, self growth techniques, suppression, repression so the battle commences and these bring up the hidden deep unconscious automatic reactions, the guilt, the fear the justification, the justification which affirms the very core of the ego that will defend itself even to death and then the remorse and then the self loathing and then to run way into distraction with TV, sex, alcohol, drugs anything in order to get away from this feeling of not being approved of and how dare they do this to me or disagree with me and who is this me anyway?

Is there a way out of this whirligig, this hamsters wheel, this merry go round, this wheel of dharma; just stay with what comes up and not give it energy by examining it and analysing it, know that one feels it and watch and wait; attention without intention, looking without bias, viewing without opinion, letting go naturally, not doing, not anything and if one is able to do this like a cat at a mousehole, a driver on a winding narrow country road and unable to see an approaching vehicle, one feels alive, aware, there in the moment, an anticipation of nothing but everything, then the mind realises that it has gone quiet and not asleep and thoughts and feelings have subsided naturally and there is quietness, peace and the one realises all this guilt and anxiety were mere thoughts that evoked emotions which were never really real and were just that and have no real power over me and were just fleeting clouds that obscured the real Self which has no reality or description and yet!!!!!!?

SHACK 

Even just reminding oneself to witness in way is routine and mind games, yet with the fullness of time(time is measured between thoughts and forms) this will become natural and not need effort as one realises I am the witness not the experience, I am the watcher of the TV programme and the programmes are ego constructs. Should I get involved with the TV?(SHACK)

SHACK 1026 RETURN TO ATLANTIS ?

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In 1967 when I received the writings by inspiration / channelling and as far as I can ascertain I am not a 'chaneller' but seem to get a flash and like a nano microdot so to speak and I cannot stop the flood of words that follow. I never have had a source or spirit as far as I know so far (April 2021) the writings on various topics appear in the SHACK format and my www.geoffreed.com --online and the archive, www.geofffreedarchive.blogspot.com in which the last four saved archives from the late energygrid magazine lay out a precis and synopsis of the 1967 writings received at Christmas 1967 at the Tibetan Monastery in Southern Scotland and named Samye Ling and can be found in the POSTS at 'geofffreed.com' or elsewhere in this format.   

A resume and synopsis of the 1967 writings; The Earth and all its inhabitants were to be subjected to powerful energies which were part of an evolutionary upgrade and were to be named and classified as the Ascension energies and they would begin to facilitate changes to the auric layers surrounding the Earth and its inhabitants and these layers are the interface and magnetic containment fields as it were and their function is the interface between the physical flesh body and more directedly the DNA. The DNA would be upgraded and so pass onto the forms their upgraded changes.   

There was a brief given to the scribe (me) to find as much scientific information to back up the writings and these are described in some detail in the sites mentioned above. The energies would arrive in increments, there would be physical and mental symptoms that would be felt and are outlined in the above sites and those who were receptive to these energies would understand the process of the changes, those who did not would merely pass them by but however could be affected adversatively, something like a 'spiritual or mind stagnation and its psychosomatic consequences such as not be able to fulfil ones full karmic destiny'. The symptoms of ascension could be acute and painful, however they were like a purification and detoxing in nature, they were a purge and were to eliminate old patterns and shed waste and toxic mentally and physically all substances gross and subtle that were out dated and somewhat hindered the assimilation or input of the new frequencies.      

There would be certain traits and prophesies given in the writings of which many have proven to be correct. The scribe would be jeered and mocked and thrown out of academia and lose family and friends. A series of years were given; 1967 --2012, 2013 --2032, 2033---2075 in which the upgrades would be completed. There would be those who knew about these facts and would try all they can to delay the process and block humans and other forms from receiving these upgrades and employ media, medical and microwave technologies to dampen, destroy and cause dullness to the brains and damage the DNA, especially to children.

The writings mentioned that the result of these energies were as a result of Cosmic Cycles(again see sites and research through search bar) and the scribe lectured on these above subjects and more from 1970 onwards. Although the opposition to these changes were very powerful they may be able to delay or even forestall these changes as the new mind sets would usurp their authority and power.

In the case of a complete failure because it would depend on the awakening of humanity as to their true nature and their former brain washed inculcation and the ratio of the proportion of awakening would be crucial this often known as the '100 monkey or critical mass, the tipping point and such like' to effect a 'chain reaction in the collective unconscious' and of course the opposition would employ such tactics as to bombard the minds of the populous with distractions and facilitate an atmosphere of either poverty, homelessness, drug and alcohol dependency, extreme violence and wars and so on so that the finer subtle 'spiritual' subjects floated by as non interest and blasphemy or sheer science fiction although the scribe mentions many times Hollywood films do give away both sides if one can see beneath the surface and is mentioned in the sites.  

In the event of complete failure of mass upgrades several scenarios would follow; the writings give cycle's, some of them similar to the Yugas and several other ancient prophesies. The main ones the writings were concerned with are 700,000 cycle in which the magnetic pole shifts (and the sites go into the signs of this and scientific back up) the 26,000 one as the shift as astrology would have it and astronomy and the 12,000 year and 550 year ones, these were all culminating around now, a sort of closure and renewal and an upgrade in progress. 

 

 

               From blog POSTS 

These are the five most significant 

events in tectonics and the Earths history so far. The writings go onto say that should the awakening be sufficient then the damage and destruction would be less disastrous. Because consciousness effects all material forms (see observer effect in two slit /split experiments in quantum science) it would be possible to mitigate the destructive event of the 6th extinction which is explained as clear out of all forms and upgrade them into the new evolved Earth and inhabitants. A sort of sell by date and clearing the shelves. This the opposition will attempt to get around by GMO foods and other technologies and attempt to go off planet to the Moon and Mars. However in my 'May 2005 The UFO Story' found in sites and is part of the 67 writings in which ET play a significant part and mentioned often and are aware of these changes and situations but are not allowed to interfere which is explained in the Story. 

Now should the 6th extinction go full ahead or the awakening become a dud so to speak then a Cosmic Shift will occur; either the remnants of the shattered Earth has some survivors who may have been awakened and a restart may begin, a new Earth can be formed as a slough off like a snake losing skin for a new one, a crab its carapace, a caterpillar to butterfly and the Prigogine theory (see site) a sort of a dimensional shift, a doppelganger / mirage / holograph form of Earth, see holographic mentions in sites and also we are but holograms as is the Universe and so by this process we are shifted to such a new world and it seems so familiar and happens in wink of an eye.

The 67 writings mention a new body, a new flesh body; the names given are Homo Spiritulana Energetica and the bodies will be begin to become evident from 2012 onwards and then accelerate as the approaching 2075 beckons. It describes that the auric layers would burn off so to speak the sexual 'attitude' and move the energy kundulini, chi, ki or whatever name one feels comfortable with from the chakra at lower body to the crown chakra as similar to the Yoga traditions and reproduction would take place through the genitalia but intercourse would less frequent and children brought about through attuning to Cosmic 'plan' like when animals only give birth if the food supply is sufficient or other environmental issues. The flesh body would look like lighter in aura would remain the same height as the new genetic upgrade information encode. There would be a definite shift in appearance to be more unisex  or androgynous.         

As I write this April 9th 2021 there are great debates over children being 'sex changed', trans humans, cyborgism, transhumanism, Eugenic and technocracy (see sites) and the whole gender issues are actually listed; see https://www.healthline.com/health/different-types-of-sexuality#takeaway so far there are 52 definitions and some sites have 92. I feel this is part of the upgrade as the energies of ascension are acting on the DNA. The opposition to natural evolution which I feel is intelligent and Divinely Inspired and academia is sometimes vehemently dismissed as no way Intelligent Design, Creationism, God or such like is entertained, it's all an accident without cause.  

Too delve deeper into this; the opposition seek longevity through 3-D printing of organs or artificial cyborg attachments and robots downloaded with AI(artificial intelligence) and some scientist are downloading the brain into a robot making an android, however they are making the download as the contents of the mind, consciousness cannot be downloaded and can be experienced by the quantum observer effect, consciousness is aware intelligent sentience. A robot may act on programmes and may be able to reconfigure them and logically work out morals and ethics but may not feel them. Compassion and consciousness cannot be downloaded. The opposition want to have their mind sets constant and evolve them to more technological solutions and upgraded but they will never have the natural feel of natural evolution.

It is said in the legend of Lemuria that the Lemurians were etheric beings and that the analogy could be gas / steam and for some evolutionary reason they wanted a 'solid' body in the analogy ice and so they became a more solid body in the form of Atlantis beings who were said to be about 2000,000 years ago were hermaphrodites and they would male / female in the same body; in the '67 writings' it mentions this and the appearance as above of Homo Energetica spiritulana and some of the research done by the scribe(me) was on the binaural brain and the corpus callosum and the ethmoid process and third eye (see sites) and a snippet below as a taste so to speak:-  

 

Steve Judd mentions this in his January 27 2011 blog. energygrid

95% of the neurons (the bits that trigger and fire information) in our brains are in the cerebral cortex, the thin brown layer of jelly that actually surrounds the brain, analagous to humanity's existence on the surface of the Earth. Linking the two hemispheres of the brain is a bunch of fibres known as the corpus callosum. It can be proved that in artists, musicians, left handed people and in those who are comfortable with being out of the norm that the corpus callosum is growing physically larger, and it appears within the last thirty or forty years that this growth increase is exponential, not only in these people but in all of us. The bridge between the left and right brains was the width of a thin pencil a hundred years ago, and I'm assured by a couple of mortician/pathologist clients of mine (really!) that in many people now this bundle of fibres is now the width of one's forefinger. This suggests to me that the interface between the left and right brain in most of us is now considerably more active than it was three or four generations ago. Of course this could be down to our diet.

You will find more information on this in the sites with scientific proof evidence of the pole shifts, electron, ice drillings, fossil and much more in the archives especially the last four entries that January 2013.   

This suggests that the binaural brain and the corpus callosum are growing to join the two sides of the brain to be one and would make the interchange feel as if the male and female, the creative and logical become joined as one entity and the feelings result in feeling an looking androgynous and perhaps hermaphroditic, I certainly do and I must stress I do not feel homosexual, bisexual if anything asexual, it is not celibacy or abstinence either. 

It is then said that 200,000 years ago because of the abuse of their technology and mental prowess the result was a splitting of the 'one brain' into hemispheres and the corpus collosum shrunk as it were, the genitalia divided and we became man form and female form. So does this suggest that the ascension energies are making us to be more evolved and going back to our Atlantean form and energy with an accompanying flesh form? 

Will we have learnt the lessons?; maybe the Atlanteans abused the planet and their technologies and wanted to be cybotic, robotic and with their binaural brain as with the ascension brain and mentioned in the 67 writings eventually the upgrades to 'telepowers', telepathy, levitation all the psychic powers enhanced to telepowers, did they abuse these evolutionary upgrades and are we going to do the same as we  appear to be in the upgrades so far.

Evolution is handing us a gift in the form of the ascension process and as we return in these cycles to the 'Atlantican' energy cycle, by this meaning all the cycles have finished as said above and we are back to the Atlantic cycle and mentioned in the writings as each turn of these vast cycles they are upgraded and reconfigured and so the opportunities are on offer.  

Another aspect mentioned was that the solar system was moving as probably the whole galaxy into new area of energetic space and influence, it was in the early days named the 'proton belt' and another snippet to whet the appetite:-

Monster" outflows of charged particles from the centre of our Galaxy, stretching more than halfway across the sky, have been detected and mapped with CSIRO's 64-m Parkes radio telescope.

Compare this with 'An article by the Daily Telegraph Science Editor 5th July 1995 revealed the startling findings of scientists in America and Japan.

They normally measure cosmic rays in millions of electron volts. Over the last two years they have measured rays to the power of 320 billion, billion electron volts. To quote the article:

“Something out there –no-one knows what- is hurling high energy particles around the Universe, in this case the most energetic ever observed by scientists…Not even the power released by the most violent exploding stars could account for them. Indeed conventional theory says such particles should not exist…” [from January 2013 Post 1] 

It was not more sophisticated and updated scientific equipment that measured the above or nay since. I was told to watch out for electron volts as an indicator to the ascension process. Climate change is Solar System wise, many planets are going through significant change and if you have the patience to sift through NASA files you will be amazed at what you find plus the facts that the Cosmic rays and their effect on us, weather conditions, the Schumann resonance and so much more that add to the proof of Ascension and their commensurate and concomitant energies.

Are we indeed Returning to a form of Atlantis and even NASA has given away so many clues as have ET. There is so much more to add and ongoing however I may add or update some of this. This is a synopsis of the 1967 writings which is an ongoing process.

  SHACK

www.geofffreed.com (online):-

Sunday 3rd March 2013-----POST 9  Samye Ling (scroll down)

Thursday 26 March 2015 ---POST 212  More 1967

Monday 25th March 2019---POST 367  The Ascension Story

https://geofffreedarchive.blogspot.com/2005/05/    THE UFO STORY

SHACK 1025 CRACKERS?

 

Crazy Frog TV

An energy build up, a sort of pressure inside my head and it can feel very insistent. At first years back I used to feel that my brain and head were being squeezed in a vice or clamp, and then had a tight headband and all sorts of ideas and fears came and went. Was it a brain tumour, high blood pressure, growing or shrinking pains, was it the New Age Ascension symptoms?

My dear late friend Roy Morris often said that if one meditated like with awareness (nowadays referred too as mindfulness) as in distinction to breath watching or mantra and so on and even watching and allowing the sexual energy to be rampant without sexual intercourse or masturbation, then one builds up a measure of pressure and like a pressure cooker ready to let off steam through the pressure valve. He  recommended that one sort of 'holds this pressure' as it were and keeps it there and not to get into sport, workouts or release stuff and to the point where you feel you are going crazy or mad.

Of course one has to be in touch with the body awareness and not damage oneself through a heart or some accident or such like, however it was, he said a way to 'burn through fear, limits and use the energy and this build up to bust out of hang ups and limitations'.

One has to keep an eye out for food binging or too much fasting. The sensations are interesting as are the insights; of course madness and being on the edge are very dominant especially as one gets deeper and longer into the process. Then the worry that one can damage oneself and of course all the doubts and reasons of this sort of thing, is it weird, why do this and yet there is with me this feeling to 'explode' out of this old regime and the not so merry- go- round of mundane routine and living.

Of course this was the idea to bust out of the prison of the 'norm' and go to 'places or no places' in the mind, I had in meditation that 'I was leaving' my my mind / head and it was gentle and I realised I was not going anywhere but my normal 'attentive awareness of everyday day routines and activities awareness' shifted from the 'screen' and this often went past the random thoughts and mind occupation to a 'blank light screen' which was peaceful, calm and light. It was like the  ego slid to the side or somewhere, the programmes and agendas suspended naturally and as if a shutter or slow theatre curtain lifted and the stage was bare but alight and gorgeously serene and peaceful.

 

So why do the build up; it seems at times there is so much going on and especially at world crisis times that I could not get into the meditative process and was restless and distracted and so this way of letting the restlessness be there and let it be restless and sometimes accompanied by sleep difficulties, political intrigue, joint aches, fatigue and difficulty in doing or seeking the choices to alleviate this period of unrest and a sort of chaos which I regard as the 'snake shedding the skin, the crab the carapace, the caterpillar to the butterfly and the Prigogine process I have written about' this chaos is the 'silent reorganisation' to higher form or at least a different form or mind set or lack of mind set, less pedantic or rigid, so I have a feeling that in the depths of the mind which I relate as the unconscious cellar, something is stirring up the caked rusty glutinous debris of impacted old mind patterns and our scouring is needed to loosen and bring this to the surface and be recognised and discarded by the cognition of its sell by date well gone by and it is no longer a use to the present situations.

What then is the scouring agent; perhaps a high pressure hose pipe or a steam pipe might be more appropriate. For me and my early NDE, Koan breakthrough and Quantum realisation, the 1967 writings, I realised there was another dimension to life than the brain washed inculcated life that most people led and this set in motion the QUEST to delve, search, ruminate into the areas of the mind and if possible seek some sort of enlightenment, not a static stuck mind only to get some sort of peace by listening to soft haunting romantic music, chanting endless mantras although these(as long as one does not get addicted to the techniques and make a habit and thereby a false reality and this 'stuck standstill' taken for a sort of peace and compromise for the dynamic peace)these can be steps on the path but needing a natural reminder to not get stuck on a particular nasty step and recoil or fall in love with a very attractive one, always upwards and yonder. 

This natural steam jet is an intelligent energy and is the evolutionary 'urge' to move things on and if it is clouded by or supressed by unevolutionary urges such as brain washing then this can lead to illness and malfunctions of all sorts. However these natural urges facilitate growth of all sorts and it may be that the body grows in its natural form and can be impeded by mind sets that do not compliment its natural growth and this can be the psychosomatic, neuropeptide cascade and the psychoneuroimmunology-ical effect that changes through mind patterns the natural order.

So the main effect I feel more often now is that an real deep urge to let go of all patterns and not just be aware of awareness and I feel like I am expanding, a joy ripples through me as at the time a fear of letting go and being absurdly wild like the crazy frog above, the utter natural letting go without the brakes on, the fear of being mad, crazy and locked up and restrained AND yet I know that because it is natural it is not just unrestrained ego urges just working out their madness's of a power hungry beast that has broken free and needs restraining for the damage it might do to humanity and the planet.

SHACK

SHACK 1024 FOREVER ---MYSTERY

Creative Mornings

Again this feeling of being the mystery of myself. I have this feeling I am the witness of all that passes by and through the awareness of that experience, it is an uncanny experience, I am witnessing events like scenarios, cameos, videos of life events as I would on a TV and yet they are not 'live' out there they are as emotions and feelings in 'my head' so to speak which are uncannily like my so called awake in the body state. 

This is convincing me that 'my awareness is at work so to speak' whether awake in the body, dreaming in sleep or daydreaming and fantasy, even in rare intoxicated reveries. 

This awareness is aliveness extraordinaire, it is silent witnessing, it is being forever present, in the now and is indeed 24 hr, 7 day week, 366 days switched on as it were, it is eternal vigilance, it is attentiveness without judgement or personal bias. Indeed it is being conscious, it is consciousness, it is the backcloth indeed the very canvas on which life events write and paint themselves. 

I could say it is not a solid backcloth or canvas but a field, a cloud, an energy field, more like that and yet it is NOT describable, does not have definition or any direction, it is not confined or has any limits it is all pervasive, it is omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, ubiquitous and preeminent and  yet annoyingly so infuriatingly non tangible, not exactly describable, no form, not seen with human senses or the intuition, it is a feeling and as such vague and just outside any grasp, beyond human understanding, logic or even some sort of explanation. YET OUTSTANDINGLY I KNOW THIS IS WHO I AM.   

This feeling of knowing who I am and not really having a name or description is very liberating and I feel indestructible because I have no form and am just an 'existence', I am a mystery unto myself and yet I am not, I am the paradox and yet because of that I chase my own existence like a dog with its tail and yet I have caught my tail and yet this  is just a prelude, a tantalising titbit, a mere bonne bouche and because I know and yet don't know, I feel strangely safe in this because this game will go on forever and ever and yet again will it?

I am the ever present 'me' and yet there is no tangible 'in a form me' as like a human or Cosmic Planet or even an atom, so who am I, I am just a presence, I am an existence without form, I am me and any attempt defies explanation, I am the the paradox and conundrum of my very own existence, as to how I got to be what I am or not and yet I am is of itself the same ilk as my life which is a conscious awareness of Itself.   

Since this so called Covid pandemic which of course frightened the very life existence out of many and me at first and the isolation and the breaking of the 'norm' and the wish to return to the good old days, like a partner who has lost their loved one, the families who have lost their parents who had THE VIRUS and were not allowed to see them or visit them, the pubs shut, football no way and so on it afforded an opportunity; to examine where our brain washing and habits were; no gatherings for prayer, social distancing, no family gatherings, businesses shut down and lost, working from home, the media constantly in your face extolling the need for testing (which the PCR test proved were dud most of the time) the scientists who felt there was only a severe flu and the fear produced the rest as the media were on about the symptoms of this virus which were as a flu and yet the public panicked like a herd of cows frightened and the herd took off and the saviour the vaccine and the constant vaccines to follow and the censorship so the governmental narrative was the holy grail, this gave me the opportunity to examine the nature of brain washing and propaganda.

This then led to the 'ever since the Earth began with humans upon it' the dream of power and lust, domination and everyone to obey the leader, the tribal ethos, the religion, the priest, the dictator, the ultimate, the pinnacle of achievements and accolades. Yes Eugenics, now transhumanism, cyborgism and technocracy to live forever whether in a flesh body or a marriage between a synthetic body and a human so called organic flesh body.  A pronouncement; A New World Order, The Great Reset; the Governments with technocracy the others with harmless technology in line with nature and preserving the planet, then the government with GMO food, 5 / 6G communications, satellites the others with green fields, pure air and water and freedom of movement. 

I started to feel restless and great palpitations around about the beginning of 2021 (now as I write this May 7th 2021) and although because of putting on some weight, the ignominy, the sheer mortification of the lies and scientific research by the governments and the clever psychological manipulation with censorship that my anger at their deceit and how they could live with their lives were getting at me and yes there was this and I vented this in my blog POSTS www.geoffreed.com but there was something else brewing. I was uncovering and writing in this SHACK site about brain washing and inculcation and then realised the whole 'COVID  SHEBANG 'was a human made brain washed long term project like a religion and dogma, it was like this whole Roman Empire, Genghis Khan, British Empire, the religions and cultures and this 'World Economic Forum and the new priesthood, look how this person is dressed below, the New Economic Pope:-

From POST

Does he not feel embarrassed; no because the power and the lust will have usurped any shame or reasoning and then when one reads the aims of the forum one will be astounded that is if one is not duped by their wealth and military might.  

I began to feel the restlessness was due to me being sensitive to the collective unconscious, the pain, the suicidal thoughts and depression besetting, beleaguering and  besieging people through lockdowns which meant we were prisoners in our own homes, that it was unjust and we could not be heard because of the censorship on the internet and media, was it that I was feeling this and it was causing me anxiety and so my atrial fibrillation was playing up, I never felt this till now, was it causing my blood pressure to get high and so on and yet there was and is something else brewing, slowly coming to the boil.

Like many at this time I bought in stocks of food and items because there was Brexit going on and goods were supposed to get in short supply (like the great toilet role debacle--it was a fiasco extraordinaire ---seeing people loading up supermarket trolleys to the brim and over with toilet rolls) the material gathering I did, did nothing to assuage or alleviate this underlying feeling; was I afraid of dying, illness and ill health (my long held fear), was it that this new world order would dictate my beliefs and force me to bend the knee to a long held reticence over dictatorship and pompous authority?  

Alcoholism, suicides, depression, mental health problems beset the world and the governments with their dreams of the New World Order seemed to be deaf and in denial and the funding was not forth coming, while at the same time the 'leaders' were doing dodgy financial crony deals, sleazy underhanded dealings and laws passed without parliamentary consent and passed away as ' need to protect the nation from THE VIRUS' the police and security forces were given almost unlimited power and I know that in the world and the UK there are in the UK secret internment camps which would be open if there was civil war and a general strike and uprising. Some are called FEEMA camps and some are just for asylum and illegal immigrants. With all this in your face, many denied the fact we were losing human rights, that masks were essential and life saving and which there were thousand of scientific papers on the dangers of mask wearing and the glaring fact that the UK's Chief medical officer said at the beginning:-  

'England’s chief medical officer has warned the public wearing face masks will do little to combat the ongoing coronavirus outbreak.

Professor Chris Whitty told Sky News on Wednesday that wearing a face mask had almost no effect on reducing the risk of contracting the illness.

Prof Whitty said: “In terms of wearing a mask, our advice is clear: that wearing a mask if you don’t have an infection reduces the risk almost not at all. So we do not advise that.”

“The only people we do sometimes use masks for are people who have got an infection and that is to help them to stop it spreading around," he added.

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/coronavirus-uk-news-professor-chris-whitty-no-masks-advice-a9374086.html

Proof that Masks Do More Harm than Good
(Truths about Masks that Politicians and the BBC Probably Forgot to Mention)

Why did he change his mind ----hint look at cartoon---see my Gates Diagram;'

And now as I write they are thinking of releasing mandatory mask wearing there are people on the TV saying, no I will continue to wear them, you never know and of course in October they have said we need a booster vaccine show because of the flu season and the variant strain of the VIRUS. SO A MINATURE LOCKDOWN, DISTANCING AND MASKS.

Here right before my eyes so to speak were the very things I have been writing about for ages; the inculcation of the foetus to the adult and death, the brain washing and the means to promote this by TV, Media just as our parents did in a similar way by education and cultural nurturing, yes the 'nanny state' had become real as though anything is real and really just thought constructs repeated over, over, over again which is the definition of inculcation which leads to conditioning, which leads to concepts and then fixed habits which become one's reality through beliefs. Beliefs are thought constructs made to appear as reality. Reality then becomes a swappable, indefinite moving aspect and is only a fixed aspect if one is exposed to it often enough.

Here I witnessed my theories, conjectures and writings coming from the intellectual, logical realms to being played out in some sort of agreed reality. There is no real 'norm' but a loose agreements world wise on some sort of moral code like the ten commandments, a vague tenuous insubstantial 'norm' which through wars, political duplicity, atrocities in crime and terrorism make in my forensic days look pale and almost nonchalant, there were things going on that were obnoxious and horrific beyond words or description and sometimes left me gob smacked and astonished.

This was the unpicking of the 'fabric of physical reality' the weaving of the threads; the warp and weft are the thought constructs and are woven by interlacing various thoughts into an assemblance of a jigsaw whole formed by the thoughts coalescing. This through the VIRUS was an attempt to unpick the woven threads that held the fabric together, the rug of reality and attempt to pull the rug from underneath the feet of reality and reweave the threads into a new rug of the world's elite shadow government, the so called deep state, illuminati, bilderbergs or whatever cult or agenda they had in mind. 

 

As said before I had figured this out intellectually and had various 'satori' or ah ah's and knocked  me, the me being the construct I had of myself by aforesaid notions for six so to speak, astonished me as took a blow to my belief systems and aforesaid reality, the me being the construct I had of myself before the knock out blow of the ah ha. Now the constructs, the brain washing was playing out literally before my eyes and the witness me was testifying to the unreliability of the physical forms which were being broken down and witnessing the beliefs of the general public being switched into another form of reality which they had not woken up to, as brain washed, these were thought constructs put into a seeming reality and glued into a scenario and the bits glued by fear into a new jigsaw picture of reality. Gradually getting used to distancing, masks, vaccines, lockdowns and so on with mental health, depression, austerity, homelessness, war and aggression being normal and just the massive increase in suicides, depression, crime, domestic violence, poverty, unemployment, huge dispensing by GP 's of antidepressants being handed out indiscriminately being the norm to make dependency on the authorities and take choice away.

The palpitations I felt as relayed above were not as a result of anxiety or heart problems, they were an underlying feeling of something very significant about to happen; were ET about to reveal themselves, would the governments get found out, the fake virus exposed and just a bad flu and seized upon to bring in the new world order, would humanity awake to the wool being pulled over their eyes, was Kissinger right when he said we were too dull to see through this ploy, were they relying on the comfortability of humans on pubs, football, religion, sex and alcohol, drugs and unending films and comforts, was the sixth extinction about to suddenly happen, was a world disaster in the form of nuclear war or a climate change event so drastic as to make a world panic and the human race to become extinct? 

No none of the above; it was an excitement in my deep psyche in my being of revealing to myself about the the witness empty me so to speak was and is me and none of the constructs of brain washing were anything to do with me. I am not of them, I am in the world but not of it, I am only in the world when I grasp at a thought construct as reality. There is no reality in inculcation in any form in attempting a solid thought belief, mere electrical formations as frequencies and interpreted, decoded into a mind picture which attempts to be solid and this projection in the mind mirror is a reflection, the ghost in the machine, a magicians trick to make a hologram seem tangible and real while the bits and particles of it are mere light entities, a photonic interlacing of photons and frequencies. So in way the plight of the present seemingly world VIRUS and its after effects are human thought constructs and have as much reality in them AS ONE GIVES THEM. DO YOU REALY BELIEVE IN REALITY? 

I am a no reality that exists or does it? There is no definition of that which is awareness, which is intelligent consciousness. It is ever present with no evidence of Itself, is it even an Itself, is it aware of Itself, yes and can it solve the mystery of Itself, no, so what does it do, no answer, what is its purpose? Not known. It is a stand alone and is in every form, because it witnesses every form and yet not of it, so every facet of creation is actually part of it and yet there is only one witness in the Cosmos and when every form awakens to Itself as a mere thought and idea and realise I am without form and defy any adjective, noun or verb to pin me down as a something, when this is realised one knows who one is. This was and the palpitations and excitement to understand who am I and feel it and rest in the nothingness it is. This wanted to push through and demolish the blanket of mind constructs that covered its light, I wanted to bring myself to light and that light cleared the darkness of the narratives that thoughts obscure. 

SHACK

SHACK 1023 Weather or whether

The New York Times

I am not subject to weather

but

to the mood within

SHACK

SHACK 1022 SAFETY

                                                             Your own place

To me being safe in a way is not being safe; what makes me feel safe is familiarity with the known; OK the known by familiar surroundings and yet these are temporarily comforting and then can be taken for granted. 

There is another safe mode; that is disciplines and routines and these are facilities and prerequisites that give me a sense of being healthy, well being, safe, the known and secure, however they can have such a grip on me that not doing a certain routine such as juicing, meditation, Qi Gong, my laundry, these are my daily habits that dictate my safety and well being and protect me from danger, a danger out there lurking to swipe me in an unexpected moment. I relish and pride myself in breaking these routines on occasions and feel aren't I daring, brave and then I get recriminations and start to worry; will not juicing for a few days clog me up, cause impurities and bad health, not meditating will not bring peace and mind stuff will jam up my awareness, not doing qi gong will stifle chi circulation and I will be stiff and so on. These are a prerequisite to peace and prosperity. These become my reality and safe guard and if not adhered too something dreadful will ensue. This then gives life to the saboteur, a self inflicted threat engendered by by making the routine a habit and BEING like a judge, jury and God.

The strange thing is these routines, habits and being pedantic clog me up and stiffen, stifle me, because if not adhered too, I feel guilty and I have let myself image down, the image that is created by my concepts and beliefs and even the belief to be empty and aware without bias, so many subtle twists and turns, maize's, blind alleys and one way streets. So watch and even that a 'must' routine and reminder and another habit, the connivances, the subtle innuendoes and mind trickery and yes the Buddha knew so well. I am my own judge and jury.

So by my own hand and habits I form a false illusion of safety and reliance on routine and discipline as a safeguard and the punishment is executed for breaking GODS will for me, Actually my own God Idea. I TOTALLY miss the point; God created me with a blueprint and in the end I have to acknowledge that is my safety net and since God is an invisible entity to the human flesh being therefore I substitute this with routine and discipline which I can see and feel.   

  

Yes I have been gifted with a body and have to be sensible to Earth and body ethics to keep it safe and healthy as possible but not to the extremes of fastidiousness and punctilios endeavour. I know from the past when illness and problems have arisen and I have let go and gone into the silence and quiet mind and trusted in the emptiness so to speak and the routines and so on have been laid aside I am looked after by something else other that the safety net of habit and routine. Mind stuff interferes with the true safety net as below.

Open Gear

Like in the 'Nosy Parker' in article back, trust in the unknown

 brings in its own solution and yes some exercise, wise food and health regimes are required but not to be substituted by mind habit and false safety; I notice the tussle with myself that it feels like tacky sticky glue being pulled apart :-

and that I can't quite let go and I feel to join back to the old habits and routines.

OLD HOUSE JOURNAL

 and frustratingly knowing they are mind brain washed concepts and beliefs which have cheekily and insidiously usurped the real me and God as it were.

So watch, do not attempt to challenge and break these streaky bits of glue and merely let it be and observe the tussle and realise by just observing that the fabric of that seemingly gluey substance is what it is and let the attention and anxiety given to it is the energy that feeds the need, need is fed by attachment.

The safety net is filled and is needed to catch the habits and retain them, no net no habits accept a few to keep the body well and fed and the sense of well being.

SHACK

  

 

SHACK 1021 NOSY PARKER

Meme Generator

                                   😟 THE UNIVERSE WILL CARRY ON

WITHOUT ME

STICKING MY OAR IN

WONT IT?
 

SHACK