SHACK 1099 SPLIT BELIEFS

Happee Mindz

'Ah Lord God! behold thou hast made the heaven and the Earth  by thy great Power and stretched out arm and there is nothing too hard for thee' Jeremiah 32.17

 This was todays reading from my old friend God Calling calendar which I have had for about goodness knows when, it shows the date, reading and not the year. Today was 04/02/2022 a Friday. 

I have a split belief; Intellectually and hopefully sinking into deeper consciousness to intuition and deep spiritual meaning AND feeling. I know that from visual, reading about the Universe, science and all that I truly feel there is a Almighty intellect and intelligence beyond the THE BIG BANG and accident. I know and appreciate the opinion that I am so brain washed, inculcated and entrenched in this belief that it is all that it is.

Well I have pondered, ruminated and contemplated this as above and perhaps my feeling is a deep brain washing but I really do feel that there is the Great Spirit, God, The Source or whatever name one feels to call the Creator. As to this day it feels unshakeable. 

However this is the split and it saddens me and perhaps the reason that I am still alive although not knowing what I am now here for as I am 83 yrs of age more or less a recluse not in good mental or bodily health after two years of madness during a so called Pandemic which now it seems has been an attempted takeover by an elite set, the cabal as I call it for their own purposes and agenda this can be found in thirty or forty blogs in www.geofffreed.com (online) which is my other site and another www.geoffreedarchives.blogspot.com.

Intellectually and logically I know and accept and believe that there is a God, a stand alone Almighty Mother / Father God Creator and YET I still lack 100% unmitigated trust and soon as a deep stressing challenge arises mainly over my health and body, I crumble and go back to fear, anxiety and coping mechanisms. So my trust and belief does not match my intellectual and logical assumptions. My faith is not as strong as my assumptions and logical mental beliefs.

There is a split between faith 100% and praying and beseeching. At this time I am ashamed because I have had many moments when I was able to go quiet and go beyond the anxiousness and definite miracles came as it were, I have had amazing synchronicities and yet I can fall by the wayside as it were.

God made the Universe and all forms in it and I one of Gods children / creation and if as Jeremiah say 'NOTHING IS TOO HARD FOR THEE' then why must I mistrust and not have willingly surrendered faith?

I feel God did not create me to suffer and be at mercy of the worldly materialistic hard way of life or is having a downer on me as a sinner and me promising to do better and then faltering. It's not God fault and I know God always forgives because when I quieten down or am full of remorse the quiet mind of reassurance can ensue. However I tend to beat myself up and it is NOT GOD punishing me for my iniquities it is my own programming that attracted these iniquities and I do not like the burden of the ego automatically being triggered by a lustful site, a felonious event or some such thing. My will is either numbed or weak in many temptations, however are these so named felonious acts immoral or ungodly or have I been seduced and inculcated to believe a moral, religious, pious code that maybe not a sin or iniquitous?

So it comes back in my view to the quiet mind and awareness and '

Prov.3 Verses 5 to 6

[5] Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
[6] In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

'Be still and know God within thee.' To me this says the same as in Buddhism and Eastern Philosophy. 

  Śūnyatā

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Śūnyatā pronounced in English as, translated most often as emptiness, vacuity, and sometimes voidness, is a Buddhist concept which has multiple meanings depending on its doctrinal context. It is either an ontological feature of reality, a meditative state, or a phenomenological analysis of experience. Wikipedia

English: emptiness, voidness, vacuity, openness, thusness

Chinese: 空; (Pinyin: Kōng)

Japanese: 空; (Rōmaji: Kū)

Korean: 공성(空性); (RR: gong-seong)

Sanskrit: Śūnyatā; (Dev: शून्यता)

Pali: Suññatā; (Dev: सुञ्ञता)

Tibetan: སྟོང་པ་ཉིད་; (Wylie: stong-pa nyid; THL: tongpa nyi)

It is not vacant it means to me when the mind is still in meditation there is a calm tranquil feeling with almost and sometimes complete absence of thought and it feels as if me as Geoff has gone there is an awareness which has no definition of name and YET I know is me without character or personality, it is non personal or impersonal Being Of Awareness.

I suppose the intrusion of thought and agenda interrupts the peace and annoys me and irks the calm, the ego wants domination and not calm it knows its alive by the agendas of brainwashing stored and this is its creator and code. This then is my great lesson; to be aware naturally which we all are but not recognising the witness which is the awareness watching all the time even in sleep and coma, but being captivated by the graphics outside as it were. Like when one is captivated by the TV and then becomes detached and still watching one acknowledges the graphics but is not emotionally involved and yet there is still a sense of understanding and appreciation somehow at a different level of conscious awareness.

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SHACK 1098 TEMPORARY ACCOMADATION

 

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Just lately,  say the last three months I have felt weirdly out of sync. I know the Covid stuff, lockdowns, distancing, vaccines have caused a huge drain on me and many others and the fight off the new reset energies pouring through the collective unconscious and the 'nudge' which is a UK psychologists exposé on their dirty deeds to frighten the living day lights is being investigated by many members of parliament.

It would seem with all the parties and rule breakdowns by the British PM and civil servants 'did they know the real truth about the menacing threat of the virus and the manipulation of the figures'?

Apart from all that it seems I have felt a lot out of kilter; not just age and debility and I never wanted to come to Earth after my NDE and what I am doing now and my use? 

This says to me that I really am feeling the Spirit much more and that I feel really feel like a soul and the driver in the car so to speak. I really feel I am living in temporary accommodation and I am ready to go to my real home. I do not feel this is just an escape from drudge and dreary world and age concerns.

My beautiful body, The Great Spirits Gift to me is now showing signs of deep wear and tear. The message of a great Native American is not exact words 'Are your ready to give up the activities of youth and enter more into the silences'.

Yesterday 01/02/2022 I tried to unpack and repack a heavy parcel and my strength was not there and I realised my age and it saddened me. I am an elderly senior citizen and must be aware of my retiring body and diet. 

It came to the serenity prayer 'God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change: the courage to change the things I can: and the difference to know the difference'.

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SHACK 1097 THINKING?

 

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I suppose and assume that thinking is regarded as normal and indeed a must for education and success or just everyday 'normal living'. This then begs the question about the thinker; is that person thinking from their upbringing then most likely they are following their cultural tradition and so most likely it is of an inculcated, brain washed conditioning which is probably backed up by the religion (Atheism is in my view a religion) and education. 

Then there is specialised thinking, reasoning and logic such as one's business, vocation , mission or life's  work in some sort of dedicated way, even crooks, rogues and borderland as it were cults, off worlder's and so on.

So thinking becomes the 'norm' and anything outside of the reference frame of the 'known' programming can cause panic, confusion and for some a challenge through a cool head so to speak. When through this Covid shenanigans the confusion was caused by clever psychological tactics it can breed violence because of the fear of the unknown and change from the familiar;

Government 'nudge' unit ‘used grossly unethical tactics to scare public into Covid compliance’

MPs launch investigation after psychologists criticise totalitarian tactics of ‘deploying fear, shame and scapegoating’ during pandemic

ByTony Diver, POLITICAL CORRESPONDENT28 January 2022 • 6:11pm

Generally people complied because it was scary and the false science fooled them into believing it was true (more about this in my blog  www.geofffreed.com (online) and the message of the great reset which was to hypnotise and claim the minds of many with a 'NEW THINK' promoted by a group of so called elitists mainly THE WHO, THE UN, THE WORLD ECONOMIC FORUM and the Bill and Belinda Gates Foundation and a few rogue scientists with a host of Billionaires in league with the large multinational corporations.

Now for some many although a minority awakened and saw through this, however the cabal as above had command of the press and social media and any challenge or discussions were censored or one was prosecuted and smeared as an 'urban terrorist' a conspiracy monger and the cabal even went as far as elimination, the strange suicides, bullet through the head mafia type, dodgy car accidents that were proclaimed as suspicious and then died for the lack of investigation by a bribed and frightened police force.

Now another view; one could say having studied thought by meditation, mindfulness, deep contemplation and free non opinionated as far as possible with like minded individuals, that thought was habitual as through inculcation above and then once free of the THOUGHT that I must just comply to not only the new thought by the cabal but by my own rationale then one can wonder what is the right set of thoughts and then turn to the Eastern No Mind set of processes by chance and then realise most 'conditionings, brainwashing's' are the cause of so much rigid protection of those individual / cultural / country / religious / political indoctrinations, that thought, logic which can justify thought, intellectual achievement and eloquent 'sweet talk' can be just another habit acquired through a lifetime of thinking and its rewards. 

In deep reflection and it is seen that thought basically is indeed one's awareness of being alive and its programmes and agendas are stored in an energetic magnetic field of electrical interactions in the brain and this 'box of stored programmes is the ego' or a super wonderful organic computer.

This ego demanding quick juxtapositions, conjugations, upgrade's, reconfigurations and lightening fast computations and the ability to mix and match from the memory box many justifications for any actions, reactions and graphics literally for any act done by the ego. The possibility of a check on this activity called the moral compass, the red line, the conscience can be void in sociopaths, psychopaths and ego mania.

All those above have thought and awareness of their thoughts, ideas and so on as their security. So clever politicians, statistician's, psychologists and shrewd 'street and life experienced individuals' can manipulate those that are less aware of their abilities and thinking, or know how to think and can be seduced and made to comply.  

The there are some who have been meditating, deep contemplation and taking away the reasons one by one into the nature of thought and realised that they are brainwashed and have been taught to be who they are, SO WHO AM I when I am stripped naked of the conditioning apart from basic survival? 

Is it indeed possible to become 'a mind with very little thought' and not become vacant, imbecilic, senile or just plain idiotic'. I can certainly say I have been in lengthy periods of AWARE consciousness or wakefulness with very little or no thought, I have not been in trance, sleep, lethargy and indeed been in 'NO MIND' so to speak and further more the nature of thought was somehow different, it came as a feeling rather that a habitual routine or prompt by a trigger, it came from a joyful peace, a relaxed somewhere else-ness, it felt right and fitted the life at that moment.  

So for me thought is a commodity that can brought into play as it were when useful or needed. So I do not need thought to make me(whatever me is that is or maybe) feel safe and secure however I do need awareness without thought and I feel awareness without thought is probably our true nature, I feel it is the natural mind and is the native mind(I do not mean this as insult or slant at the indigenous races) I feel that the indigenous mind is far better equipped to be with the environment than the technical materialistic robotic digital computerised metallic non organic Western World.

The natural efficiency of the natural mind doesn't pollute, nor rape, nor murder and shares in its bounty and abundance, it is natures art work in the human being. I feel the next natural human evolution will have the ability of 'No Mind' peace which brings forth compassion and inner peace plus the ability to have thinking when needed, this way technology will be in harmony, commensurate and concomitant with the natural environment and placing humans in the the wholeness of nature and not separate from it.

Thought produces compartmentalisation and separation as a stand alone human attribute, the next step maybe for humans is to have the facility to think and also be 'thoughtless' not thoughtless as not caring or just cavalier but to recognise in the space between thoughts lies a deep consciousness that 'thinks' by intuitive feeling to the person and  not to be mistaken as impulse or spontaneous response or reaction to challenges and triggers.

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SHACK 1096 OUT OF THIS WORLD

From my camera My shared Garden in Barnet EN5 1EQ

In Bosham near Chichester West Sussex is a centre of Spiritual Learning founded by the late Henry Thomas Hamblin, HT as he was known he was born in 1873 and moved to Bosham https://hamblincentre.org.uk/henry-hamblin-timeline, read his timeline.

I did three workshop presentations there around about 1975-1979-1980 HT had passed on and I did them under the late Claire Cameron who took over the reigns so to speak. I write this down because of a synchronicity.

 

This morning of the 28/ 01/2022 as I was meditating in my living room and it was sunny cold day and a pale sun shinning I opened my eyes and looked at the tree above which is the lower photo. I have a relationship with these trees and have written an article way back where they kindly allowed me to share their essence. This morning was darkish and the tangled branches were darker than the photos which I took later. 

Previously I had written when I saw the fox, squirrels , birds and cat I just laughed and had joy in me and in the quietness it was amazing. I then remembered something I read by HT (not the exact words; looking at a rose and its aroma its so beautiful just think of the mind that created such beauty--and a lady so nervous sitting next to him at a meeting ' don't worry in the end at our passing its all wonderous joy') The late Brother Mandus of the World Healing crusade in Blackpool, used to go a couple of times a year just to sit with HT, Brother Mandus told me they just sat in silence and the peace was so tangible, they had tea and then Brother Mandus went home on rather a long journey and he said he felt recharged, I found the peace tangible and it was a somewhat a shame to have marred it with my spiel. 

I felt this love from the trees again and my mind wanted to know what is this, although I felt the joy and deep peace and tears because of my heart opening. This was invisible to the human senses demonstrating and symbolising The Great Spirits art and of course infusing the Art.  Spirit in such tangible form that this was the Creators way of communicating love to us in beauty and when our hearts are open we share in The Sources feelings, in that moment I felt the Great Spirit and I were one. Oh thank you dear Great Almighty for that touch of Grace.

Then after all those years I telephoned Bosham House and had a long talk with the present administrator and she told me they were closing down in March and were hoping to sell to a buyer who would keep the beautiful gardens and trees and spirit of the healing and meditation.

Strange that HT came to mind and that the connection to that would end with a phone call after all these years.

 

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SHACK 1095 NO TIES

THINK DIFFERENT

What does it mean 'we are linked by Karma' 'I feel as if we are somehow related in the past' 'It must be karma'.

I feel there are energy lanes, time lines of families, countries and planets. All of these have personal, interpersonal and Universal interrelationships that are gravitational and magnetically intermingled and although they are infinitesimally small and the hugely exaggerated and enormous, somehow they have a common destiny and purpose to work out. There maybe given the possibility of many incarnations in differing relationships to work out unfinished business.

Karmic relationships and timelines are similar and if not the same things under different energy signatures. Because these are in the realms of energetic electrical magnetically orientated frequencies and vibrational energy patterns they are not readily available to the human senses.

In order to get a sense out of these one has to 'tune into the feel' that is true intuition and beyond the ken of the intellectual rationale mind which is comprised of programmes and agendas collected from one's brain washed inculcated past and is the egoic mind. The local mind.

One has to be in a non local mind this way the vastness of these networks can be attuned beyond the frequencies of the human senses.

Having the subject of the information required in mind one can in the correct state of consciousness broadcast the need for the information in Cosmic / Universal 'language' so to speak.

The Cosmic Intelligence which is vast and unimaginable and is in and through humans and all creation is awakened and enters into a vast calm, peace and dynamic light and yet soft and embracing. Then one alive and is alert to the 'whispering feel of a response or feeling'. This may or may not provide some insight into a situation of karmic propensity or disposition.

What maybe the purpose of untangling these intertwining relationships with other families, people, countries, places, work situations, health and with many other things and oneself. I feel the Universe, The Great Spirit Created and fashioned all and everything with unconditional love in mind. Many of the forms were given free will and the test if you like is to see who travels the way of seeking and being this love or those who lean to their own ideas and programmes. Usually The Love of the Almighty is Freedom and Compassion and their ARE NO ties that bind. One just remains in a relationship or relationships with animate or inanimate entities, THE FEELING OF NON EMOTIONAL LOVE which is compassion is the 'glue' that holds it and 'the release' is by the same token a glue that fastens and non fastens all by love / compassion.   

Strange as it may seem true love has no straps, binds, prisons, it is the utter freedom in it that keeps the energy in non attached love going, it is always accessible and it hasn't the quality of forgiveness', for there is nothing to forgive.  There is no need for approval  or for guilt or any other emotional psychological state. Because there is only LOVE. 

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SHACK 1094 FEISTY?

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I often berate myself or the ego or something that intrudes in my quiet mind and goes into fantasies, mind movies and is often called the monkey mind.

The consternation I feel is that I set myself a goal of attaining the quiet mind without suppression and feel with all the self growth and meditation I should be more efficient and be in stillness more often---I realise now 'I have let myself down' 'this image of the still quiet undisturbed hero of calm and actually quite pompous and feeling I am above the noisy and uncouth, a very arrogant snob and yet feeling the opposite when in this mode' and so the conflict between the feeling and the action.

This particular morning which is bright and sunny and getting up late after a tormented yesterday evening 15th January 2022 of pain and anxiety and going to bed very late actually 0200 hrs and so this morning  before the Full Moon (which according to Steve Judd is a stinker) on Monday 17th January 2022 ( I usually feel the Moon New and Full two or three days before and after in some way) I had a typical scenario of confrontation fantasy; Its always run on similar circumstances, I pick this one and it could be anyone of many with different circumstances but the same modes operandi.  

The image at the top is apt; I am in the communal laundry and rough cockney man comes and say 'Oi you watcha doing in ere' 'I say washing its my turn on the rota' 'I am in charge of this ere place' ' I say that's not what my agreement says' 'Fuck your agreement, get yourself out or I'll let you have this one as you are new' 'I will come and go as I please and stick to the rota' --he aims a punch at me and of course I am the big hero, the martial arts man and ex military type and take him down' there then follows afters and so on, this works out in other fantasies I meet bullies and characters of authority and so on. I am victim of their authority and I take it down with violence as they are often first to make a fight with me.

This morning it did not irk me so much but brought about an insight; this character is me, I am the one who wants things perfect, neat, tidy and of course the undisturbed quiet mind, I want my routines and 'rota' I am the belligerent man, I the ego is in charge, how dare you Geoff go out against my discipline, my image, you are threatening my brain washed inculcated image, you are compensating for your weakness, frailty and facing up to life, especially as you are feeling your age. Its OK not to be perfect, maybe there is no such thing in human form and Earthly sojourn, after all you have said Geoff so many times Everything in the Universe that has form is impermanent it is born , lives and dies and is recycled. There is no death as such. The empty atom.

Of course I knew of these things intellectually and this morning this went deeper if you will than the intellect there was a shift somewhere within my psyche.

This goes deeper into other aspects; I like to my exercises precisely, do my routines routinely, I kid myself when I have a day off so to speak, that's OK, yet I know and have spoken about 'the routines should not be ones security as it is the known and when a calamity occurs panic ensues, NOW if you have the quiet mind, a naturally composed mind, like I my image demands you will always cope' This can go into my joints and so on; got to hold on tight, not let go, what happens when I am outside my known security routine, who can I trust then, Yet when in a real emergency as SHACK 1067 I am if you like by the fear, HAVE to let go.  KrishnaMurti gives this; A man trapped in a fire several stories up high goes to the window and looks down, the heat drives him outside the window, he holds the gutter, the fireman have a jump blanket and say jump, he cannot, the gutter gets hot and he out of desperation lets go. I surmise fire walking maybe the same.  

My images are so habitual that I felt they were natural. This again showed me how tricky this path and self delusion can be---so now I view these fantasies and some mind chatter especially as they arise spontaneously not so much an annoyance and irritation as a prompt lessons brought up by the intelligence to be teachers and the fact they often repeat themselves in disguise and masked and cloaked shows that I have not learnt the lesson or rather the lesson is understood intellectually but has not reached an intuitive deeper level or a radical shift.

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SHACK 1093 IMAGE

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So much today relies on image and is linked to approval and this can lead to issues of confidence.

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There are many who are not aware of their need for approval and go on blindly and it has become a natural or so thought behavioural way of conducting oneself. This is because of inculcation.

 

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I have gone into this so many times; born free with imprints of FEELING in the womb, name on coming out of the uterus and not understanding the name sound till later, that sound is me. Then the religion or not, culture and so on. Many just carry on habitually in this manner with a few innovations and stretching the ‘net of conditioning’.

Those who may question the whole of one’s life may wake up to a startling awakening; who am I without the brain washing of my life up to now. Then there may come a period of loss, no identity, before I knew my boundaries now I am without those boundaries gave me my identity.

So my image was formed from my inculcation even if I took on another set of programmes and conditioning, they are not me they are someone else’s thoughts and ideas.

OK so my ego which is my critique will in relationships assess approval based on the acceptance presented of the situation; greeted with smile accepted, anger a rebuff not accepted. Depending how the ego takes this and is self conscious of the response will the rating of the ego be either approval and doesn’t rely on the response of approval or rejection and is arrogant ‘I don’t care and rely on their response and is over confident, ‘It doesn’t bother me at all, an acceptance and comfortable sense of ease in oneself, or crushed as a self loop of the image of how one should be, that is I am not satisfied with my image at all and do not match the image I am trying to be, such as a celebrity of some sort or manufactured from life’s experiences, peers or just fantasy.

Then one can say ‘well I do not need approval from anyone’. Then one can see the trap of the above; should I realise I have been brainwashed and just have enough habit and routine to survive and I have then come to the realisation I am sort of empty and have intellectually come to the realisation that I have no identity I could then rely on reminding myself in a sort of prompt and question; if I have not an identity as such then my only identity is a subtle programme of reminding myself I can live without an identity? So is that my identity? 

Should I be able to see as I have often written that everything is impermanent and dies and withers in time, time being based on the so called solid form, which I fully realise, is about atoms the life of form is perilous to rely on like sand that dwindles through the hand and hour glass and so loss is the nature of the human life and eventually leads to the known of youth to the dwindling slow decay of senior years and the coming unknown albeit for memories and a pursuit in meditation and metaphysics to the conclusion of the empty state as it were.

When one abides naturally in the peace of emptiness then approval is not needed for one is grounded in the inner peace and has an acceptance of what is.

In the human form and life on Earth one knows all is temporary, transient and endeavouring in any form to preserve crumbling structures, ice in the hand is a dog chasing its tail and so one comes to terms with this intellectually at first and this can cause anxiety which eventually can lead to unease and regret and wishing the past and this impermanent stuff were never taken on and it may have been better to have a brain washed something and at least have a promised outcome and the know and expected.

Now with a promised known future one has an identity and some say that carrying that over on demise one can in reincarnation can be drawn to reincarnate and look for the promised conclusion and so it becomes unfinished business and it said to carry on ad finitum. However without an identity and being compos mentis and embedded in the quiet silent mind that becomes ones identity, some say this is enlightenment, Samadhi-- Samadhi is a state of profound and utterly absorptive contemplation of the Absolute that is undisturbed by desire, anger, or any other ego-generated thought or emotion. It is a state of joyful calm, or even of rapture and beatitude, in which one maintains one's full mental alertness and acuity.

Samadhi is the highest state of consciousness one can achieve through meditation. It consists of a yoga practitioner reaching spiritual enlightenment where the self, the mind, and the object of meditation merge together into one

Jivanmukti, according to Hindu philosophy, is the state of being spiritually liberated while still alive. The Sanskrit term is derived from the root words, jiva, meaning "life," and mukti, meaning "freedom." Jivanmukti is a state in which one possesses limitless knowledge, free from suffering, and enjoys eternal bliss.

The Upanishads link jivanmukti to karma as attaining jivanmukti depends on the karma of Self. The concept of jivanmukti was synthesized by the 14th century sage, Swami Vidyaranya.

: sudden enlightenment and a state of consciousness attained by intuitive illumination representing the spiritual goal of Zen Buddhism.

What Satori feels like?

Ken(seeing)sho(nature) is a short effortless experience of enlightenment, satori is the never-ending effortless experience of enlightenment. Kensho and Satori basically feel the same, but kensho ends and you return to your normal pre-enlightenment mode of experiencing.

What is a kensho experience?

It is usually translated as "seeing one's (true) nature", that is, the Buddha-nature or nature of mind. Kenshō is an initial insight or awakening, not full Buddhahood. It is to be followed by further training to deepen this insight, and learn to express it in daily life.

Some might say; all that above is defining, clever intellectualism, mind games-----well when is in the 'no mind' (who is in 'no mind') it has no meaning, to others steps and guidance, still to others what's the next soccer match or Netflix buster --- nothing matters really like the tide we flow and go. Who is the We?

In the above definitions approval and image are not needed.

 

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