Some time ago I came across a saying or was told by a friend of mine during a conversation 'slaughtered by silence'. At the time I was experiencing great silence and peace of mind and just accepted that.
During a Qi Gong session a week or two ago, say the end of May 2020 in a morning so still and quiet that it was deafening and I became aware of the 'film or slide show' of even 'no mind' had disappeared, vanished, just slid out of existence and I was left with a quizzical almost amused awareness of just pure being.
I felt an impending 'almost certain calamity' and I felt being swallowed up by a 'huge sink hole' a sort of sliding into oblivion and indeed the silence had slaughtered the slide show and the internal dialogue which many of us take as 'me', 'I' the slide show like a filmy oily membrane across seemingly my eyes but no, across the screen of my mind and falsely projected holographic-ally as it were as my reality and only appeared as if I were seeing this.
This deception is an overlay and is a habitual response or reaction to a signal or trigger which comes from the past inculcation's, the conditioning and brain washing that is caught and bound in the net of life's experiences and mainly coping and strategic mechanisms which are a cop out's or shielding one from tragedy , pain, hurt, guilt, remorse and loss.
So another chunk of junk had been processed in a unique way, the process of no process in which the intuition intuits the 'data' and it is a short cut because logic and understanding and the intellectual analyses are side lined and pure understanding in consciousness is apparent and silence of deep peace resonates and shatters the hard core and yet surprisingly subtle conditioning and so freeing up the seemingly hidden awareness and clarity offered by it.
The awareness has always been there, it is the witness to both ego and self. However the innocent and unsuspecting mind, the pristine consciousness gets seduced and waylaid and these 'shocks' in many guises speak to the awareness so to speak and then when the falsity of delusion is recognised mainly through the veil of deception which is wearing thin by its constant repetition wears the substance away almost a sort abrasive rubbing action and so the 'molecular' bonding weakens, the charm and delusion begins to lose its energy and the addiction and seduction begins to taper off and as the 'gaps' appear in the net of behavioural habitual rituals fade, more of the 'no mind awareness peeps through' and the congestion is less packed and the freedom this offers takes one to a new experience of oneself.
SHACK
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| Alan Watts |
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| Luther.com |
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