One Breath Global
I marvel at the peeling away of the not me and exposing the absolute bull shit of politicians, doctors, lawyers, terrorists, special services operatives, spies, hard men and women, the need for poverty, homelessness, asylum seekers, big headed and pompous academics, strutting celebrities, multi billionaires, the whole shebang.
I used to be envious and make up day dreams, illusions, delusions and fantasies not only did this give me a 'buzz' and a reason to live and wake up for but the thought of having an empty mind devoid of mind chatter, the internal dialogue it would leave me with dementia, senility, Alzheimer and permanently 'locked and tuned in' to one of these self selected and manifested fantasy realities' and the ironic part of it they are not realities but mere fantasy which like all other identities which appear real, solid and socially accepted the so called 'norm' on examination they to appear to be as shallow and illusion / delusion like as everything on Earth is, for it is all impermanent, evanescent, mirage like and yet many cling to this as do I. However waking up to the fact that it is mirage like and has been instilled, inculcated and therefore habitual this begins the process of true self inquiry and it is the very realisation that Life itself in a fleshly cocoon is mirage like and the recognition that although it optically exists and is produced by different layers of air density, never the less produces wonders and magic to the first time viewer.
However by repetition the pounding and domineering 'realities and their components which are commensurate and concomitant with the various religions, cultural, political, ethos and the 'norm' of any science, business practice, sexual identity and almost everything' by the means of the impacting, constant reminders and inculcation become the reality of the day so to speak and breaking of these habits which become addict-able and so the reality becomes established and maybe never to be seen for what it is. The mirage is no longer a mirage, it has taken over a solid 'there in your face solid fact, I see it and therefore it is real and no matter what you tell me about air density levels and so on, I know this is a ruse to get me over to your reality and firm up my own'.
Now one maybe faced with the 'shocking' awesome, bleak and exhilarating stark awakening, 'there aint nothing there at all, there is ten percent of precisely fuck all 'and there is no one at home, no hook to hang my coat on, so then what can harm the 'no thing-nothing' for all reality which was conjured up, the wonder of the conjurer, the magician who created the Universe as a reality and in fact is like the mirage, layers of particles, waves, atoms, molecules and has as much substance as the 10% of fuck all because atoms are 99.99% empty so that 1% is what---its you, is it?
Now that you know you do not exist in reality where is this coming from as I write this, where do I go to find a me to live in this Earthly reality? I do not. I realise I am an awareness, a witness awareness who is not identified with illusions, dreams, delusions and human made prescriptions and this awareness realises it is free of the above roundabouts and vicissitudes and it is formless and therefore cannot be harmed albeit covered up by an attractive, delicious morsel of a glossy, glamorous emotional arousing enticement and the lure and addiction to this rewards one with an emotional orgasm and high and of course seeking endless repetitions of this with higher intensity until boredom or another sort of 'high'. I have spoken to prostitutes, clients of prostitutes, sadomasochist's, drug addicts, adventurer's, dominatrix's and so on. One patient of mine who was a dominatrix and prostitute told me of the different sexual positions, kinks, erotic stimulants, endless gadgets, fetishes and the whole run of the mill and the endless search for 'turn on's' to arouse the flagging and bored client or uninterested and bedraggled partners or married couples who look to a hobby or out of the marriage affairs and yet the endless frustrating search, like many who go to countries where sexual exploits with minors or animals, weird plants to stimulate the emotional desires and so get caught in the merry go round of frustration and the search for the ultimate thrill.
Then there is the courage to live without all the above, not by suppression nor will power and it is not enough to realise the above intellectually and psychologically albeit the awakening is a very promising first step, however the vestiges, the bits that are hard to clean in the pan, still have gluey, rusty stained obdurate tenacity, a doggedness that is sometimes almost defying all one's efforts to break free. One can only break free not by will power or strenuous effort but by seeing or feeling the 'energy' of these stains and deeply having an intuitive 'understanding' which is the senses of the awareness and it is not real and does not serve a purpose in one's life and therefore it is redundant and because it is the 'right timing' it drops away and is no longer there, the mirage just goes as it appeared 'out of thin air' and has no real substance.
SHACK
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