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There is a growing kind of dissatisfaction, not a
fed up, peed off thing, just a mild discontent in nearly every aspect in my
life and it is down to the whittling and chipping away at the false beliefs and
programmes that are automatically running my life and the fact I am becoming
aware of the most subtle layers. These
habitual programmes seem to self select themselves and rob me of the alive robust
alert awareness of its full functionality and therefore and thereby conscious
choice, a shutter and a blind temporarily shut out the light of consciousness and
I run on ‘battery reserve back up’ the not me dynamo and not the Cosmic one.
The old programmes seem to have a life of their
own as if I share my life with a programme box set which are and were
indoctrinated into me and formed the not me. This brain washed set of
conditioning political, cultural and religious (which includes the religion of
scepticism, atheism and the like) are at odds now with the awakening
consciousness of Cosmic awareness and natures programmes which are inherited as
a Universal Cosmic way of life, fed by the energy and downloads supplied by the
Creative Intelligence of the Source of Life.
Therefore the changes bring in dissatisfaction
with food, thoughts, exercises, health issues and materialism. I have to feel
the right foods, exercises, meditations, sleep and every aspect of my life.
What used to nourish me in every way is now sour, has no meaning and seems
materialistic vain and not supportive. Basically it is not so much the food, goods,
clothes, thoughts and all else are not attractive and play a part in my life,
it is if they have just molecules, atoms and particles coalesced and bundled
into forms which are not meaningful, they are toys that fascinate and lure,
seduce and distract one from the real purpose and meaning to life and merely
put off the fact that glares in the bright light of reality and highlights the
flesh and bone and concrete plastic world of glamour which is temporary,
expedient and transitory and these materialistic goods fade with fascination
and boredom which sets in and new toys and thrills are sought so coveting materialism
clutter and rape of the Earth’s precious gifts.
So now I seek more simplicity, quiet and peace
preparing for the great shift into a new consciousness which is not actually
new but an uncovering of the clutter, the lifting of the shutter and blind to
reveal what is already there and always has been and will be.
Yet there is this pull to go back to the known
although it brings a weariness and boredom and yet a reluctance to let it
completely go as the fear engendered by a self built habit entity which seems
to be real and substantial is shouting ‘no I am the real you, you are being
deceived’ yet who is this entity named the ego talking too’?
The ego is talking to the awareness and it
realises that the awareness can dispel the clouds that cover the light of Life
of consciousness and halt the runaway locomotive of habitual robot programmed
brainwashed behaviour based on deep impacted and ingrained, rusted and locked
in beliefs which seem to be life guidance but are indeed false programmes. They have served a purpose and now are indeed
redundant, out worn, not fit for purpose and do not serve Life as it now moves
on.
So for the time being with a fast moving world
which is discontent and is itself endeavouring to throw off its discontent and
searching for new ways of living and finding peace and the elite power and war
mongers feeling they are banging their heads and desperately going round in circles
holding onto to their outworn stuff which makes them ill and just is a merry go
round, trying to make new policies and resolutions and they know deep down they
only are making superficial cosmetic makeovers and when these fail they punish
threaten and cause poverty, austerity and punitive measures, they like myself
have this urge to break free and seek the peace that passes all understanding and
they maybe then fall back as I do to the known although boring, not life
enhancing or nourishing, not the nourishment of food, lots of cash, fine
clothes and material assets but the sap of Life which is inside the flesh bone
material body like that of the tree and plant is a silent invisible energy a
Life Force felt as peace, compassion and happiness.
Until this process a work in progress is
inculcated and imbibed in me the tussle goes on and the searching for inner and
outer nourishment which is commensurate and concomitant to the ever changing
scenario and cameo of my life changes is sufficient unto the day I must bear a
certain amount of ‘healthy discontent’ because without that the search has no
fuel to further its quest.
SHACK
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