There is saying ‘you’re a
hard nut’ meaning a hard person, tough, secretive or hard to fathom.
You’re a hard nut to
crack’ not only can this mean mentally, psychologically and physically but in one’s enclosed ‘heart’ felt emotions. I have seen and witnessed
in myself and others the hard held beliefs and judgements the reluctance to
forgive and the reticence to let go of outworn grievances and patterns of
behaviour and the hours of suppression, repression and contemplating these
issues along with the tension and loss of energy or energy assigned to these
agendas which lead to fatigue, stress and possible illness.
The draining of energy,
the constant dwelling putting one into the fight flight process, the cortisol
and adrenaline with muscle and mental tenseness causing anxiety and fear. Most
of this imagined in some cases and a constant replay of the past and projected
edited but substantial future without a present, leading to an ever replay with
some modification of painful and even joyful past scenarios with the painful
ones pushed down to arise at some future date like the thumb holding down a
cork in water or sending down the pain into a vault in a dark corner of the mind to
ferment, rot and fester producing a bitterness which may arise in some distorted
and contorted ugly expression or vile act which spews out the dark venom and
purification and maybe presenting some cancerous or akin sickness. The joyful event longed for and often a sticking plaster covering pasts trauma and part of the pain pleasure principle of duality which can lead to an either or choice and cause the ever revolving wheel of karma and the hamster wheel without ever ceasing and mind consuming rhetoric and anxious fretting.
So the release however
obtained and not repressed by alcohol, drugs, distraction with media and
internet extravagances and mind boggling highly charged vividly coloured noisy
beyond belief mind stunning pictorial emotional impacted concoction that
misleads the mind away from the original impact of the rising impediment as
above and the chance to witness it and observe the material with a chance of
exploring it and possible partial or total release and cleansing.
The media impact of highly charged emotional fear, emotional love based on some ideology, fashion or euphoric hype, the hero rescuing the damsel in distress, the Knight in Shinning White Armour or even Don Quixote can furnish the mind with such a seemingly positive charge that the high buzz of emotional endorphins can lead one to a world of fantasy, glitz and glimmer that one can live in an fantasy reality and has been written in SHACKS before that maybe there are no realities but chosen ones through culture, religion and the ethos prevailing to world conditions and brain washed upbringing. So is there a reality, perhaps SHACK 621 may just touch on it---however ever so delicately and sensitively.
Perhaps this may relate to
the world chaos of April 2019 when this was typed.
SHACK
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