SHACK 645 EMOTIONS

Love You Love Me

Musing on emotions the realisation came that emotions are not needed in a strange way that goes against main stream Western thought and perhaps philosophy and perhaps more related to Eastern Mysticism, although I find it not mystic at all.

When I was studying brain chemicals, neurotransmitters and such like, I began to realise way back in the late 70’s that the chemicals sent to the cell receptors were naturally produced by rest, healthy living and so on, however the thought and belief systems produced a ‘daily fix’ as it were and the whole cellular system became entrained and yes addicted to the cocktail and the cells grew specialised receptors for these mixtures that were perhaps haps natural.

I knew that thoughts engendered emotions and thought produced the chemicals in the body that gave rise to feelings and further this by daily rote, repetitions and prayerful application and become after a while a learned and indoctrinated and conditioned habit, reflex and then one’s assumed reality. I say assumed because changing the thoughts, habits and so on can take one to a new system and beliefs and the withdrawal symptoms are not only mental, psychological they also affect the cellular and whole body functions. Where's my fix my known?

Two books made an intellectual impact on me and a few ‘ah ha’s’ ‘ The Molecules of Emotion’ by Dr Candice Pert and followed by ‘The Biology of Belief’ by Dr Bruce Lipton, they made a huge dent in my system of beliefs bound together in a large leather encyclopaedia in the stored memory automatic reflex habit folder. These made sense and logical approval and yet there was something missing.

So my belief systems which are thoughts are translated into feelings therefore my ego and its system of built up components delights in bodily feelings through passion, emotional highs and lows following closely the self esteem low or high, early womb and child hood experiences and so on. One feels safe in the known of one’s chosen or indoctrinated seemingly solid and yet upon close inspection not so ‘airtight’ as it was reality.

The ego is demanding and wants to feel its creation even if it’s morbid or hedonistic. So the emotions become the template for success of its endeavours. Emotions are the reactions chemically and felt psychologically to challenges and responses of day to day living and bring in the fight / flight activation and so I can become a victim of my emotions, in fact an emotional addict. I may become the junky to my emotional dictates which the ego mind set patterns demand and so shape my reality.   

Following on from this the culture, ethos, parental and brain washing one receives it to my mind that produces the responses and reactions concomitant and commensurate  to that set of beliefs and so may clash with other set realties. 

So in this way emotions are tools for feelings and the predilection of the ego and its preferences through the chemicals its ‘mind’ patterns of habit repetition have conditioned it too.

Box sets comprising CD’s and DVD’s graphically displayed in hologram forms within the screen of mind and automatically selected as a conditioned response raise the emotions and one is this pictorial and sensual array and is taken over and one might feel this is normal.

Being a victim to automated reactions is living in the past and often with a few modified adjustments projected into the future, in fact there is no future only a constant rerun, a river of the past with not much else, because this can become so boring and relentless one may seek distractions and indulgences and may find that these become an addiction from one’s own empty past or no seemed future.

Is there a way out of this addiction? Is there a feeling which is not emotion? Where can it be found?  I feel that in true meditation which is being the true witness in unbiased consciousness and in rare occasions ones thoughts cease naturally and one is not asleep, then there can felt inner peace and a sort of quiet feeling and a love that is not emotional; it has a different feel and is a feeling that I call compassion. It does not have a belief system to back it up, it may be talked about by monks, philosophers and I have found it does not arrive by will or text. It seems when all hankerings, depressions, highs, lows and intrusive mind chatter naturally quietens down, not by suppressions and will wilfulness a sort of non dependency then the emotions are not there in the body and one may feel do I really need the beliefs, ideologies and concepts that support these raging torrents of emotions and are they not a set of beliefs that can fall by the wayside?.

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