There
is a sweet yet deadly trap that the ego uses, like a plant that has sweet
nectar to lure and seduce insects for its consumption, a kind of pheromone.
Many
years back in Victorian times there was talk about plants having genitalia and
many were offended by the similarity of the vagina and penis in the flowers
appearance. Never the less it has now been accepted that there is sexuality in
everything that is organic and it is part of creation. Among my patients and
forensic work sexuality played an enormous part of the whole agendas. Many stigmas especially those engendered by
religion, stiff morality and weirdness about sexuality and the sexual act lead
to a view that it is dirty, unclean, a male domination of women and the act of
sexual union especially aroused indignity about the so called ‘missionary position’
and there was consternation when this was reversed and it was said men lost the
control and so on. There are many names
for different positions in which coitis takes place.
Anyway
what has this to do with the ego?; the ego has its own set of programmes some
may be defined as kinky, erotic, perverted and then into ‘sado’ humiliation,
bondage, slavery, dungeon, Satanic and dominatrix specialists. I found that
many related to their emotional, psychological, trauma and cultural, religious
and life experiences which shaped the performance by the sub / unconscious
warehouse of beliefs, notions and brainwashing.
So
the ego defends and attacks or deploys all sorts of mechanisms for its survival
and is tricky, devious and a master of disguise that it uses sexual innuendos
and emotional hormone play to distract any inquiry and search for its core and
essence and one of the most powerful is the lure of torrid sexual activity
especially in masturbation. The strange thing is the ego does not have a core, it is a set of programmes and beliefs based on exposer to brain washing, at its heart so to speak the ego knows it is a set of random beliefs stuck, bond and glued into an imaginary copious box set of organic daydreams, illusions and fantasies and is always endeavouring to make itself a reality, solid and real, and by the way does a good job of seducing the host into believing it is real and solid and here for evermore.
One
of the most subtle is with the spiritual seeker, the meditation practitioner,
especially when they get into the later stages when they get to the ‘witness’
looking without bias at the thoughts that come and go past the screen of mind,
sometimes in an unguarded moment up pops seemingly from nowhere a random memory
of yest a year. Then as a DVD or dream
starts, a running fantasy and the witness is swamped and the honey trap has
worked.
This
is not the real witness, that cannot be swamped, the trap is that the ego has
set up its own witness. The ego witness is a self monitoring sentinel which is
constantly on the look out for a perimeter breach and deploys several modes of
defence; either by attack, defence by withdrawal and or by distraction, the ego
self entertains itself and has its arsenal and batteries of juxtaposing,
reconfiguring, computations, variations on a theme, disguised sabotaging,
exquisite make over’s, new paint jobs, grooming subtleties and any other
manipulative manoeuvring that it can conjure up. The mimicry of the ‘The
Spiritual Witness Within’ is one of the most daring and subtle.
There
comes a point when the mind gets into so much upheaval, overwhelm, turmoil and
translates psychosomatics into pain, illness and so on that the ego allows
grace to give relief and all sorts of concessions to lure one back to itself
and self preservation, when one has then released the pressure the hum drum
life of the ego resumes.
The
real witness is one that is natural and accepts the play of mind tricks and
does not force itself to be on guard and aware, it is natural awareness. The
sentinel awareness is a false monitoring CCTV system that checks for leaks and
breaks, weaknesses in the fortress of ego and will plug the gaps with anything
that counter demand the spiritual breakthrough.
These
are the subtle nuances as the ‘real’ witness which is not only awareness,
consciousness and spontaneously intuitive detects and is grace. The ego grace
is relief and the spiritual grace is natural and has a completely different
feel.
The
ego grace can be described as relief from tension and stress, the other as
fulfilling and deep beyond description.
SHACK
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