At
times and seemingly spontaneous I feel in my bones so to speak and ancient
call. It is not a voice as such but in an ancient distant past, although it is not
the past but is ever present it has just been covered up by life’s experiences
and conditioning.
This
feeling reminds me of a time when I was connected to spirit, not as a medium or
such like, when I walked and talked with the elders and communed with angels
and spirit shone and went through me, I was a lantern in a dark place and my body
was light in weight and light in shining energy.
Somehow
I agreed and made a contract to enter this body which I wear. I do not know if it is
to expiate past life karma and wipe the sheet clean of unfinished business or
from my NDE it seems I was sent and agreed to reluctantly to take on this
incarnation.
I
know this call to spirit may mean my demise or my real purpose of living in the
flesh as the spirit urges me to. It is a noisy world of aeroplanes, cars,
buses, blaring TV, constant mobile / cell phone loud conversations, shouting
kids and aggressive, wars and plastic food and water with foul air.
I
sometimes question the validity of my now sojourn here and yet realise I have
to remove the layers of conditioning to be one again with spirit and be in the
world and not of it.
I
have no real family or friends that I love, no partner I would wish to be with, sometimes the wisp of a fantasy of a partner the perfect Yin to balance my Yang
and as Sensei said ‘it is not yin and yang but yinyang, the constant flow and
this is the balance’. Being just in one state is static and is non productive
the flow is the movement of life and lessens duality and polarisation.
To
follow the call is to not analyse it and seek it but when it calls follow the
feel and see where it leads. The call of
the spirit will reveal itself in many seemingly illogical ways, many maybe in symbols and signs and some very
obvious and let the spirit move one not the agendas of logic and other
dictates. Be sensitive to the call and
all will be well.
SHACK
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