SHACK 570 DEATH BEFORE DYING?

Mike Wehde. wordpress.com

What does it mean in so called spiritual terms that ‘one needs to die whilst still inhabiting a flesh body’?

To me it means dying to the identity that the programmes, brain washing and conditioning that has been to given one.  These agendas clumped and lumped together assumed a familiarity that maybe was unwholesome, intolerable at times or somewhat wonderful, these furnished a security until one awakens to the fact these were implanted without questioning and assumed because my parents, siblings, peers and elders say it is so and this has been so for countless  of years and on really serious observation and awareness and inquiry one begins to sense that these are one of many choices one could have been born into.

Then in flash something in the mind breaks loose as though a synaptic circuit, a neuronal template or brain software ‘printed circuit board so to speak’ gets a short circuit or rerouted, reconfigured, upgraded and evolved there are really no fitting words to describe this flash, this super AH HA, this seeming spontaneous intuitive inspired data, more than data it is a living deep serious yet joyful experience by oneself other than the lumped clumped ego false but so apparently real I. 

Then there seems clarity of mind with odd fantasies floating by without emotion or meaning like weeds torn up by the currents in a stream or debris after high winds, they have no relationship. Something perhaps awareness dislodged, unhinged, rerouted or began to tug at the bindings and anchors and it began to loosen the grip that holds these facets together. When the compartments begin to fly apart they reveal other boxes and so the disintegration and a freedom of mind begin to shine through.

It seems there is no central control for the binding together  that gave the compartments a seeming oneness and solidarity and assumed an identity with a seeming solid foundation, untying the knot and peeling the onion layers eventually causes this abandonment of a seeming core, the reference point in which establishes a belief system and monitors responses often disguised by computation as an answer from central command, as of control of the defence and attack to the system set up, constantly looking for breaches and weaknesses.  When this begins to loosen and fall apart there is no sense of a control centre, HQ failure and the responses and in the C&C Command and Control and then to action (actually as the actions are based on past programmes and agendas all ego actions are actually reactions) then when these are not forthcoming there is panic, dismay and fear, where is my Identity.  There could be a period of running to seek a new set of programmes and conditioning or distractions of all sorts and just a chance that the flash of intuitive understanding as distinct from intellectual, psychological or philosophical similarities are also bypassed then the mind has chance to remain empty.

This emptiness is not vagrancy, a dull boring vegetative slumbering soporific dotard dribbling lethargic mind, but a bright clear shining awareness and a stream of light and things can go by but are naturally and without effort cleared, like clouds that go their way and do not get stuck.

Of course nothing can replace experience and it seems that by constant observation without judgement, attention without intention, watching without bias, witnessing without intent, something, which I surmise is the intelligent awareness seizes the opportunity when the time is right to allow the breakthrough which is the awakening to one’s true nature before the brain washing took hold.

One doesn't die only the programmes do and the false identity with it. Can I live without an identity that I cling too as real and solid, my rock and salvation and I may have even made it into a God?

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